Dear Entry

It could've gotten better had I not dragged my feet... again! Look it's hard to ask out the chick you're crushing on for months now. Especially when she could say no and be like "yeah no I'm so not going to be your friend anymore".

Yikes my doctor told me to take chances so being the dumbass that I clearly am I've fucked up. Asking her to the movies would've been normal but I ask her out to take a walk with me below the moon and stars. Would be romantic if I didn't trip over every fucking imaginary rock in the straight (Ha) path.

Finally she took pity on me, and just asked me out,my blushing and stammering made her giggle for a long time. Confident person I was not, although I was her new girlfriend and I couldn't be happier.

I'm taking pills for my depression now, they're not going to work for awhile. I'm hopeful that when the time comes I'll be able to be better, and never go back to self harming. A hopefull wish, I know deep down, because life isn't just going to give you a happily ever after without working hard for it.