Dear Entry

This is actually helping alongside opening up. Ash is wonderful to me understanding I got issues, just like hers. Well mine are far more damaging, yet it doesn't seem to matter. We just want to get better, one way or another. There's no race to the finish line, if what's at the end is mental stability.

I've been cut free for a week now, it's been very hard, the process has been troubling every time I go near anything with an edge. Didn't think that the road to healing could be so...I don't know, painful but not painful. Addiction in any form, is like being married and knowing it can turn ugly any minute, and ignoring it all for the happiness in the moment.

Gosh maybe one day I won't self harm, be happy with 3 dogs walking in the park, hell I might even be with Ash in my future. I want that. Maybe I'll just have scars that are left of my past and no more stories to tell.

For now though all I have are healing cuts, fading scars, and memories up write down for a later date to reminisce about.

Yeah I think I'll open up to my doctor now, get the guts to ask out Ash, and start healing from the inside too.