Warnings: Little bit of angst/embarrassment

Word Count: 929

Request: Can you do one that's tumblr themed and y/n has a secret tumblr with a crush tag and the boy sees the tumblr and sees them talking about him. Very embarrassed🤭

Author's Note: Sorry about my absence, but here's a fic to make up for it! I hope you enjoy this one :)

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You stifled a giggle as you scrolled through your Tumblr account, looking at the things you had reblogged over the past few months. It was mostly memes of various TV shows and games that you liked, but there was an occasional personal post thrown in to update your handful of followers about your life. Most of them were about your "mysterious crush" that you made vague posts about, just to make sure that his identity wasn't immediately obvious to anyone reading.

Because the #jd tag made it so difficult to figure out.

"What are you looking at?" Josh asked when another laugh escaped your lips.

"Tumblr, as per usual," you answered, smiling at him.

"I want to see what's so funny."

Josh started to scoot closer to you, already trying to peer over your shoulder. You pulled your phone to your chest to hide it from sight, making sure to lock it as an additional security measure. His attempts to get a look at your Tumblr account had been a longstanding joke in your friendship.

"Sorry, Josh, you know the rule."

"Please," he said, sticking out his lower lip. Your stomach flipped a couple times at his adorable expression, and for a brief moment you even considered handing over your phone. Flustered, you pulled your eyes away and reminded yourself of all the posts about him you didn't want to be seen.

"No, it's too personal," you said, "But if I find something funny, I'll text it to you."

"Fine, we have a deal."

Josh gave you one final longing look - which you answered with a giggle and a shake of your head - before returning to the other side of the couch, far away from you. You continued to scroll, though it was harder now that you were distracted by the mental image of Josh pouting. Was that worthy of a vague post?

"Josh, you have to see this," you said, forgetting all about his expression as you hit the share button on a meme that someone had created about the band. You tried to limit the number of posts that you reblogged about the boys - mostly out of fear of people connecting Josh's identity to the tag on your crush posts - but occasionally something was so funny that you couldn't resist. This was one of those posts.

"I'm ready," Josh said, holding his phone up in front of his face. "Is it coming?"

"Yeah, it just takes a second."

A moment later, Josh was tapping on his phone and laughing as he read the post. The sound of it made butterflies form in your stomach.

"What account is this from? I want to see what else they've posted."

"I don't remember, click on the name at the top."

"Y/T/U?"

The butterflies in your stomach disappeared instantly, replaced with a feeling of pure dread. You had been so distracted by sending Josh the post that you had totally forgotten that you had been looking through your own account, meaning that was what he had just gotten a direct link to.

"Don't look at that," you said quickly.

Josh turned to you, a teasing smirk on his face. "Why not?"

"Josh, please."

"Is there something on here you don't want me to see?"

You decided to go for it and lunged at Josh, reaching for his phone, but it only ended with his hand getting further from you and your chest pressed to his.

"Let's see what we have here... this looks like a post you wrote. 'I can't get enough of his smile. It's like liquid sunshine.' Oh, and there's some more text at the bottom. JD. Hey, those are my initials," he smiled.

You were still on top of Josh, too scared, embarrassed, and curious to do anything. Was he going to put it together?

"I want to find more posts you wrote," he said, starting to scroll faster. "Here's one: 'Sometimes he puts his arm around me when we walk and my heart melts.' It has the same letters as the other one. I put my arm around you when we walk sometimes."

His smile slowly faded and morphed into recognition. Your hands started to shake. You could see the pieces coming together in his head.

"'Sometimes I want to tell him how I feel but then I think about losing him and that hurts so much more than never telling him.' Y/N, are these about me?"

"I'm so sorry," you said. Your body finally moved and you started to pull away from Josh. "I should have never made that public. It was stupid. I should have just told you like an adult."

Josh caught your arm and gently pulled you back towards him, "I think it's sweet."

"You do?"

"Yeah, I write stuff like that in my notes about people I like all the time."

"Right," you said, forcing a smile even though you could feel your stomach sinking.

"And I have hundreds about you."

You turned to him, eyes wide. "About me?"

"There's something satisfying about writing your feelings down somewhere, isn't there?"

"Agreed," you smiled. It was real this time.

Josh stared at you for a moment before finally leaning forward and pressing his lips to yours. You rested a hand on the side of his face and held him close.

"Does this mean I get to look at your Tumblr now?" he whispered when he finally pulled away.

"Maybe," you laughed. "It depends how many other embarrassing things are on there."

Josh smiled and gave you another quick kiss, "Deal."