Jungkook have been so silent all day. He hasn't spoken more than two words each time. Taehyung didn't know what was going on in Jungkook's head but it can't be good. He felt worried for the raven's condition. He looked so distant. yet taehyung didn't feel any gap between them. Their connection felt so strong. Jungkook seemed to be leaning onto taehyung. Not literally.

"Do you want something to drink?" Taehyung asked while standing behind Jungkook who stared out of the window. Recognizing the streets from his previous daily life. He even recognized the street where he killed one of Seung's men for the first time. "Jungkook?" the raven turned his head suddenly hearing his name.

"oh.."

"if you want something to drink"

"water...please" Jungkook turned back to the window, staring at the people who were just living their life peacefully. buying groceries, biking to school, driving to work, even children playing on the street with their chalk crayons. Jungkook doesn't remember doing such a thing. The only thing he remembered of his childhood was the time he was taken away. The day his mother was murdered and he was forced into this life. Forced to become someone he wasn't. Someone he hated. It caused conflict inside of him.

Taehyung returned with a glass of water but before he could hand it to the other jungkook spoke up.

"I thought he would let me free if I did what he wanted," Jungkook said, his eyes staring at the playing kids on the street below them. "He promised me. But he never let me leave. He told me to do....things. I remember the first time like it was yesterday. The....the blood.... I can't get it off, no matter how much i scrub my hands, it never leaves my skin" Jungkook put his hands behind his back not wanting to look at them. Every time he could see his hands tainted with blood. "I didn't want to...but he would hurt me. He won't let me breathe if I don't do as he wanted" jungkook said. These words made Taehyung look at Jungkook's neck where he had seen bruises multiple times. Right now there were only a few faint spots but they seemed to be fading already. "I was scared... I am..was.. terrified of him."

Taehyung held onto the glass. He didn't want to interrupt Jungkook in this. He was finally opening up, He just listened silently while standing next to him.

"They would lock me up whenever i disobeyed. I got scared of small spaces they would give me these things...i never knew what it was. These... syringes, it made me see things. I would feel so weak. I don't remember much of those moments. But Seung told me i did great..." Jungkook sighed and took a breath. "I wanted to get out of there, but i was scared to try. Every time he would hurt me, I didn't want to die. I just wanted to go home. but I didn't even remember what..home...is. So i gave up eventually" Jungkook glanced to the side. "until met you"

"Jungkook..." is all Taehyung said. He didn't know what else to say. He let jungkook take the glass from his hand.

"I realised I shouldn't give up. I had a new purpose, i wanted to get out of there and b with you. i wanted to be normal. But i now know i will never be normal. Seung said he would never allow me to, and he is right. I cant be healed. I am too far gone" Jungkook gulped the water away and walked into the room.

"I don't even have a home. Seung took everything from me"

"Jungkook, i think you should know something" Taehyung said while he followed the other into the room. "About your mother"

"mother..." Jungkook frowned trying to remember her. a memory other than her shouts and screams of his name. He doesn't even remember her face, everything was a blur.

"Your mother isn't dead Jungkook, she is alive. She has been searching for you for years. But they never found you. She isn't dead Jungkook, she is waiting for you."

"She is dead, Seung killed her. I heard it. I heard the gunshot. He told me"

"he was lying. Seung has lied to you about everything" taehyung stood in front of jungkook. he placed a hand on his shoulder gently. "She isn't dead Jungkook, you are not alone"

"If that is true. then why don't i remember anything....do i even have a family/ why can't i remember her, i can't remember anything. I keep reliving this same dream. The same day i was taken away from her." Jungkook's eyes teared up. "I just want to remember my life before all this..."

"Because Seung didn't want you to remember, he wanted complete control over you. I have seen his plan. He stole all the information about you from the internet and public files. He made you disappear. He wanted you to be gone so no one would recognise you. He made you forget, I don't know how but he did. Seung lied to you"

"Seung didn't kill my mother?....she is really alive?"

"Yes! I swear. You can still meet her."

"Mother... Where is she, what does she look like?" Jungkook's eyes got big and a tear rolled down his cheek. "Would she even remember me...no no. She isn't alive. I heard the gunshot! She is dead!"

"She isn't dead, Jungkook!"

"NO YOU'RE LYING!" Jungkook pushed the other away and dropped the glass falling to his knees. "It's not true. Seung killed her. I visit her grave!"

Taehyung felt hurt by the push but he didnt let it get to him too much. Instead he grabbed his new phone and began to search the internet. typing in his mother's name. A work profile came up first. Sadly there were no photos, only texts. She seemed to be a lawyer.

"Here" taehyung put the phone in front of jungkook on the ground and waited looking at the raven who took the phone.

"Jeon Seoyon.... Lawyer....updated two months ago.." Jungkook's voice had so much confusion and disbelief. "Seoyon... thats... thats my mother" he sat up frowning. He didn't remember the first name but he was so sure that this was his mothers name. "But how. she cant be alive"

"Seung lied, Jungkook, about everything. Your mother is alive. She is working as a lawyer in Seoul."

"Can we go to her? i want to see her"

"We will. but not right now."

"why not, i have to see her!"

"jungkook seoul is far away and i dont think it's good to see her so soon after all this. you need-"

"I HAVE to see her, take me to her!" Jungkook shouted standing up and walking to taehyung. The older backed away a little scared.

"Jungkook"

the raven halted and his eyes turned sad. "I-im so sorry. I didn't know what came over me. i didn't mean to scare you"

"It's okay. you have a lot on your mind. Lets just take it easy" taehyung said and wrapped his arms around Jungkook when the younger leaned against him, his head on his shoulder.

"I'm not a bad person..."

"i know you're not. It will be okay"

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