A/N: I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IM DOING BUT ENJOY IG? ⚠️TW for SU!C!DE⚠️

James POV
I ran as fast as I could through the city as the freezing drops of rain hit my face like shards of glass. I weaved through people trying to run fast enough before it was too late, he was al I could think about and I need to get to him. He needs me.

2 hours earlier
Henri POV
I laid in bed staring at my ceiling letting my mind wander off, not really thinking just...living, if that's what you want to call it.

As I laid there I thought about him and how if it wasn't for that day I wouldn't have made it this far, but still I'm wondering why I made it this far, he doesn't care and I know that. I'm beginning to think he hates me.. he's been very distant and I feel like maybe I came on too strong and he thinks I'm weird, what if I messed everything up... God I wish I wasn't such a fuck up, not even my family wants anything to do with me.

I should call Sarah.

Moses POV
I sat on James' couch listening to him talk about how he thinks he screwed everything up with Henri. Now you may be thinking, 'how'd he do that?', well here's how, or at least what he thinks. James was afraid Henri was catching on that James had a crush on him, I know a 23 year old with a crush acting like a middle schooler, well anyways he decided to pull away and become distant with him and now he feels like Henri thinks he hates him.

Little does he know...Henri has the same middle school crush on James.

James POV
I sat there telling Moses everything. How I was a little too 'friendly' with him and now he hates me.

Moses just kept telling me to tell him how I fell, but I could never do that I know he would never feel the same and would completely hate me if I told him, and the last thing I want for him to hate me even more than he already does!
I'm afraid I may lose him if I don't talk to him but...I'm scared to talk to him about everything because I'm going to make a fool of myself or worse, mess up at say something about him on accident.

Sarah's POV
I swear these two are like middle schoolers. Let me tell you, I've listened to Henri tell me how much he loves James but thinks James hates him and then turned around and listened to James tell me how much he loves Henri but thinks he hates him!
Honestly it's tiring and I'm ready to just lock them in a room together until one confesses!

But today was different, Henri called me to talk about James like normal but he seemed off and I know something isn't right here. Henri wasn't talking in his normal chipper tone, he sounded sad and...done.. Now that may not make sense to you people but it does to me so get it over it. Anyways once we got off the phone I had to call Moses over, he's my best friend so obviously. And no we don't have feelings for each other I'm gay.

Henri POV
I got off the phone with Sarah and I feel like she knows something is wrong, and if I'm being honest something is wrong. He is my world and I would do anything for him, and if he hates me then I have no reason to be here...

That's when I started texting him. I told him everything, how much I loved him and how much I wanted to be with him and grow old together and have two cats and no kids because they are sticky and cats aren't, and then how I know it could never happen and that I knew what I had to do and said goodbye... forever.

James POV
Moses had only been gone for 30 minutes when I got the text that would completely stop the world. He felt the same but..'this is goodbye'....'forever' ? I was confused for a minute before it hit me what he meant. I ran out the door, slamming it as I frantically called him. I ran as the freezing rain hit my face, the only thing I wanted was to hear him pick up but he didn't. I tried calling again as I weaved through people in the city, "Dammit Henri pick up!" I said to myself as I called a third time but to no avail as the phone went to voicemail. Hot tears started to stream down my face as I ran, the icy wind in my lungs and the freezing pellets of rain and ice on my face as I finally reached his home. I frantically knocked hoping and praying to any god there was that he would open the door, my heart began to beat faster as time went by with no answer as I continued knocking. I finally got fed up and with tears streaming down I swung open the door and ran into his room only find a horrific sight.

No ones POV

James swung open the door and frantically searched for his love, "Henri!" He called out as he checked the rooms of the small home desperately hoping for an answer from the boy.

As James turned into the next room he saw something that made his heart drop, his love, his world, his person, lying on the floor in a pool of his own blood, unconscious. James now sobbing uncontrollably ran and knelt down beside Henri's lifeless body. He held him close as he cried, he felt like his heart had been ripped to pieces, he screamed and cried out his name hoping for any response from his love, but alas there was nothing. The sound of James' sobs filled the room, echoing off the walls of Henri's room as he clutched his lifeless body.

James laid Henri on his bed as he turned on off his shoes and coat and went into the kitchen. He grabbed the sharpest knife he could find and went back into room. He laid down beside his love and then he began to drag the blade down his arm. Blood pooling out of one arm he quickly did the other and grab Henri's hand.

"I'll always love you"

He muttered softly as his vision faded out and the world around him disappeared.

A/N: WOWIE THAT WAS ALOT IM VERY LIGHT HEADED FROM THAT. ANYWAYS HOPE YOU ENJOYED  THIS AND CRIED BECAUSE I KNOW I DID! ANYWAYS HAVE A GREAT DAY LOVELIES! ~Arthur chan