Jungkook was a mess .
He was playing games all night . It was better than dreaming . It was better than guilt.
He stumbled to the kitchen for another redbull turning to the metallic fridge before a reflection in it caught his eye .
He whipped around
" hyung ." He exhaled
Jimin stared at him . He looked lost .
They hadn't spoken in weeks .
" I have pills ." He said ubruptly
" what ?"
" your panic attacks , I have pills if you want ." He didn't know why he was offering at all .
There was something insane between them. Like they were strangers
Like they weren't .
But what do you say to a stranger you've grown up with ?
The boys silently staring into each other's eyes , struck by that sense of falling , of Jamais vu.

Something was fractured .

They didn't know how to fix it .
They didn't know if they could .

" it's okay ." Jungkook said ," how are you ."
Jimin looked at the boy plainly
" do you still love everyone ?"
The question caught him off guard
" yeah . Yes " he decided
Jimins face seemed crestfallen
" I still love you too ." Jungkook decided
" i don't feel anything anymore ,"
" I can wait ."
"I'm never going to be the same jungkook , we can't got back ."
"I'm not the same either jimin . But maybe we can have something new ."
" I think I'm scared ." The boy said , his eyes finally looking directly into his , desperate . searching for something .
" me too .""