*cries* I lost my kids...I can't stop crying. They were so beautiful, they were my babies. It wasn't Aidan's fault, my sperm isn't good enough *laughs a little* yea I just said that. *sniffs* I've never been this upset in my life, I've been crying for days and days now. I can't eat, sleep, or even go to school, I'm losing I love. I loved them so much that when I found out of they were gone I totally broke down. After a week of knowing this, I tried killing myself. I've been telling myself everything is going to be ok, but no one to me knows how hard it is losing your kid or kids. I stayed for Aidan, I couldn't leave him. I'm still trying to stay but I miss them, I only got to hold them once.