Mami was near the DM idol with a puja thali.

She waited for each family member to come and join her in puja.

Arnav and Khushi reached in the mandir, of their mansion.

Mami smiled at both, whose cheeks were already red with colors of Holi.. Or love!

She turned to DM and started the puja.

Everyone prayed. Khushi was one of them, praying with heavy heart.

"Maybe this is my last day here DM. Please always keep this family like this, even when I'm not here. Please take care of my Laddo. Make sure he always get success in his work, and he always stays happy. That's all I want.. If he is happy, you know my heart will dance like Sachin won a match right? So please keep him always with a smile on his face.. The only sad part is that I will not be the reason of his smile anymore.. If my.. I mean.. if ever my Laddo falls.. (she sobbed) falls in love with someone else..then keep both together-together always.. Make sure they never fight and you know the rest.. It hurts me to think of him with another woman, but if he is happy with another woman then I will be happy for him also.. And please make me strong to tell him about our divorce today.." she finished her praying crying.

Arnav who was just staring at her instead of praying, panicked.

He cupped her face, and she opened her eyes automatically.

"What happened Khushi? Why are you crying?" he asked wiping her tears with his thumb.

Everyone turned their attention to her worried.

"Nahin.. These are tears of Khushi.." she said glancing at everyone, assuring them that she was fine.

"Of course they are your tears Khushi, but why are they in your eyes?" Arnav asked in a soft tone, that one tone that makes her heart melt.

"I meant.. Tears of happiness.." Khushi corrected avoiding eye lock with Arnav.

"What the.. Who does that Khushi? Were you having special conversation with DM?" Arnav looked at her in disbelief.

Everyone laughed. Khushi pouted staring at Arnav for making fun of her.

Mami applied tikka on everyone forehead then applied colors on their cheeks, then gave Prasad to them.

Arnav shared his Prasad with Khushi, because he can't eat sweets but now he had to eat at least a bit, otherwise Mami would scold him along with her partner, Khushi.

Everyone from the family applied colors and wished a "Happy Holi" to each other.

"Now we can leave Arnav bitwa.. I will go in Akash's car with your mamma and Payal. Then you go with Khushi, Nisha, Meera and Karan.. Is it fine?" Mami looked at Arnav.

"Haan, I will just go and take the car keys.. Akash you can go.." Arnav said and went upstairs.

Khushi followed him, and entered in their room taking the purse with her.

"Leave this purse here Khushi.. You won't use that.. We are going to my farm house.." Arnav glanced at her.

Khushi nodded sideways: I will need it..

Arnav shrugged his shoulders as if saying "Okay".

He caressed her cheeks, "Are you ok? Tell me the truth, why were you crying?"

Khushi nodded sideways: I already told you, I was not crying!

Arnav: You know I know you inside and out. So don't need to lie, if you don't want to say..

Khushi looked away: You will get to know at the right time then!

Arnav held her hand, and made her look at him.

"Is there something bothering you?" he asked.

Khushi nodded: But it will be good for you. In fact you will be very happy about it..

Arnav frowned: What can keep me happy when you're not?

"Some things are better not to be answered.. At the right time, you will know.." she said looking deeply into his dark brown eyes.

And he got lost in her hazel hypnotizing eyes.

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Reaching in his farm house, it was already full of guests playing with colors on his huge garden part.

Arnav entered with Khushi and his friends.

Mami came to him and smiled introducing him to her family, he greeted all of them. And then walked to a corner with Khushi.

"Want to play?" he asked to her.

"I would ask you this question! I will play Holi with everyone, you're the one I doubt.." she rolled her eyes.

"Yeah. I don't play Holi with anyone, that's why I'm asking you if you want to play with ME alone.." Arnav chuckled.

"You and alone? Why?" Khushi raised her eyebrows suspiciously.

"You have a lot questions in your tiny brain.. Are you a journalist, by the way?" he teased her, ignored her question.

Khushi folded her arms, and looked away cutely.

Arnav smiled at her cuteness, he just can't handle this type of cuteness from her. It always makes him smile unwillingly!

Payal came running to Khushi, taking her to the crowd.

Karan played the music, "Balam pichkari.."

And the guests started dancing while playing with colors also.

HP excitedly served bhang to every guest coming in to take.

Now it would be real fun, seeing all them do what they don't in their daily routine.

He and OP also drank it and were happily dancing with each other, but not on balam pichkari song, they were busy singing the old songs of Holi..

Karan sighed seeing Arnav staring at the guests only in a corner, what he didn't know was that Arnav was watching Khushi dancing her heart out.

"Bro what's up? Come here.." Karan pushed him to HP and OP.

Arnav whined while going, he didn't want anyone to disturb him while staring at his Khushi.

Karan stood before HP, but still Arnav wasn't paying attention to him nor to his acts, he was only looking at Khushi from a different view now.

Karan patted his shoulder, "What happened Arnav?"

Arnav groaned: What do you want?

Karan smiled and passed the glass of bhang to him, "Drink this and you will open yourself.. And not stay on a corner alone like a dead body in front of these energetic persons.."

Arnav nodded sideways, "I don't want.."

Karan forced him to drink.

"Karan man.. Khushi doesn't like it when I drink.." Arnav pushed the empty glass scolding his friend.

Karan giggled: Why would she not like? It's Holi yaar.. Even she will drink it..

Arnav glared at his friend, but before he could complain or say anything, Karan made him drink few more glasses.

Arnav shook his head with shut eyes, Karan laughed at his face.

Nisha came and took both boys to the crowd..

Now the bhang was showing its effect on Arnav, he was dancing with his friends.

Payal patted Khushi's cheeks, and pointed to Arnav dancing.

Khushi looked at Arnav with open mouth and big eyes.

"Don't worry, it's bhang effect.." Payal giggled.

"Ohh.. But he knows I don't like when he is drunk, still.." Khushi smiled sadly, he doesn't care for her wishes!

"It's holi Khushi.." Payal said smiling "It's good after long we are seeing Arnavji like that.."

Khushi nodded smiling, "That's true.. I never thought would see his balam pichkari dance.."

Arnav came to Khushi laughing, he pinched her both cheeks, "Aww merii Kuchi Kuchi.."

Payal covered her mouth to stop herself from laughing at Khushi's astonished look to Arnav.

"It's Khushi my name.. Not Kuchi.." Khushi glared at him.

Arnav giggled: Kuchi kuchi is fine for you okay.. You also call me.. Payal you know.. she calls me.. Dracula.. Tell me.. Did I ever suck anyone's blood? .. Am I that bad? .. Kuchi kuchi.. I'm your prince na.. Not any Dracula..

Khushi face palmed seeing him complain like a baby!

Payal laughed out loudly, and Akash joined them looking at the three confused.

"Kuchi kuchi tell them na.." Arnav smiled shyly.

"What?" Khushi raised her eyebrows.

"You kissed me here.." Arnav pointed to his cheek where Khushi kissed him on the terrace.

"There is still your invisible lipstick here.. I can feel it.." Arnav giggled.

Khushi widened her eyes embarrassed, he said it in front of Akash and Payal.

Akash chuckled, and Payal blushed hearing it from Arnav.

Arnav: Kiss me again Kuchi Kuchi.. You have to kiss here again and again so that your lipstick mark doesn't leave me na..

Khushi held Arnav's hand and took him away from there before he could embarrass her more!

Arnav: Kuchi Kuchi why are you.. why..

Arnav stopped laughing, Khushi rolled her eyes and helped him enter in his farm house, and then helped him climb the stairs.

"Let me enjoy na.. Where are we going? .. I want to go back.. " Arnav whined and turned to go again.

Khushi pulled him back, "Didn't you want to play Holi with me alone?"

"Yes yes.. I want.." Arnav nodded.

"Then let's go.." Khushi said and helped him reach till his room, she opened the door and Arnav walked to jump in the bed.

"Kuchi kuchi kiss me na.." he pouted staring at her and sat with a thud on the bed.

Khushi eyed to her purse laying on the corner of the bed, the papers fell from her purse to the floor.

She widened her eyes and sat with Arnav hiding it from him with her duppata that touched the floor.

Smiling awkwardly to him, she secretly send her hand to reach the floor and grab the papers in her hand without him noticing it.

Arnav: Why are you smiley Kuchi kuchi!! Eeekk such a weird smile..

Khushi giggled staring at him making faces like he didn't like her fake smile.

She finally managed to grab the papers in her hand, but before she could hide it back on her purse, Arnav made her lay on the bed and came on top of her.

Arnav caressed her cheek with his thumb gently and stare at her without saying anything.

Khushi got scared when he came on top of her, she hide the papers on her back and with the help of her duppata.

"I am Sorry Kuchi Kuchi.." Arnav said with a different tone now.

"Why are you saying sorry?" Khushi asked him worried. Even while drunk, Arnav is a pregnant man! He has his mood swings ready at any situation.

"Because.. I know.. what you feel for me.. I know what relationship we .. both share.. but I'm scared.." he said with moist eyes.

"What are you saying Arnav? I'm not understanding anything.." Khushi looked at him confused.

"Khushi.. I am sorry that I LOVE YOU but I will never tell you that.." he buried his face on her neck letting the tears on his eyes fall down.

Khushi for a moment became numb with his confession, his tears touched her skin made her react.

"Why?" she whispered with tears running from her cheeks, but hers was of happiness that he LOVED HER.

"I'm scared Khushi.. I'm very scared.. I will never never tell you that I love you.. I will lose you then.. I don't want.. I can't afford to lose you.. I can't.. I can't.. I can't.. Kuchi kuchi you mean my life.. If you go, then there will be no Arnav.. No Tom.. No Laad governor.. Nothing.. If you leave me.. I will DIE.. " Arnav shook his head crying.

"Ssshh calm down.. Why are you so scared to lose me? And who told you I will leave you?" she cupped his face, wiping his tears with her thumbs.

"I know you will.. I know you will leave me.. I'm scared.. I don't want you to leave.. But if I tell you that I love you..then you will go away from me.. I know it.. That's why I will never..ever show it to you how much you mean to me.. But you're such a fool.. Can't you understand that I love you? .. I am sorry Kuchi Kuchi.. You're waiting for me to tell you na.. But I won't.. Do you know why? .. Look, first I love my parents a lot, Mumma and Papa were my world, I showed to them and told them everyday how much I love them.. What happened then? They left me right? .. Then Nani.. I loved Nani so much.. She was like my second mother, after mumma left me.. I thought, mumma and papa left me.. But still I have Nani with me.. She will always be with me, will never leave my side.. Will tell her Chote the right and wrong things.. But Nani too left me.. Nani.. I called Nani that day.. But she didn't respond to me.. I cried so much .. Still she didn't woke up to her Chote.. How could I.. I didn't knew that I would reach home that night and find my Nani no more.. I.. was so broken inside Khushi.. It hurts.. It hurts when someone so close to you leaves you.. I told her how much I love her, still she left me.. That day.. "

Flashback..

Arnav returned late from office, the light were switched off.

He knew everyone was sleeping by now. So he changed his clothes and kept back the plate of food his Nani left on the table for him in the kitchen. He wasn't hungry.

After working for a while on his laptop, he stretched his arms lazily and closed his laptop ready to go and sleep.

His daily routine, was before going to sleep always he had to give his Nani a good night kiss.

He headed to her room, opened the door slowly to not disturb her sleep, little did he know that she won't wake up now.

He walked near her and sat on the bed caressing her forehead.

"Hii Sweetheart.. First of all.. I'm really sorry.. I know I'm late and tomorrow you will scold me for that.. And I'm sorry that I didn't eat the food you kept for me.. I'm not hungry really.. Where I was? Party.. No! Today I'm not drunk Nani.. I came late because there was a lot of work to complete in AR.. So you know I had to come late.. Not my choice.. It's duty that keeps calling you here and there.. But your Chote never forgets to give you a good night kiss.. No matter what the situation is.." Arnav spoke to her, as he daily does.

He smiled staring at his Nani sleeping, "I love you Nani.. Now I won't disturb your sleep with my blabbers.. Okay! Good night my Sweetheart.."

He kissed her forehead one time, he felt strange he didn't feel her breath.

He quickly checked her pulse, and dropped her arms the next seconds in shock.

"Nani.. Naniiiii.. What happened to you?" he rested his head on her chest to check her heart beats.

A lone tear escaped his eyes when he realized her heart wasn't beating anymore.

"Naniiiiii please noooo.. Don't leaveeee meee Nani. Please wakeeee up.. Why are you doing this with me? .. Are you angry with meee? Please talk with me.. Scold meee.. Slap mee.. Do what you want.. Don't leave meee.. Pleaseeee Nani.. I won't survive without you.. Nani.. I promise.. I will come early from office.. I will stop drinking.. Going to parties late at night.. I promise I will stop all this.. You don't like I have many girlfriends.. I will marry the girl you want me too.. I will not pamper Di anymore.. I will be more time with my family.. Please.. You will take any decision of my life.. Just don't leave me alone.." Arnav cried heavily burying his face on Nani's belly.

He fell on his knees on the floor crying, "Naniiiiiiiiii.." he screamed her name..

Everyone in the mansion came running to Nani's room hearing his scream.

Flashback ends..

"After Nani left me.. I somehow managed to survive.. Do you know why? .. Di was with me.. But now.. Di also left me.. Di doesn't consider me her brother.. She thinks I'm a no one for her.. She married another man just to kill him and then marry the man she loves.. Such a disgusting act.. That I had no heart to forgive her.. Not only me, Shyam also will take time to forgive and digest this news.. I had to make her leave me.. I wouldn't be able to look at someone who betrayed.. And played with my feelings.. She also left.. Without saying sorry or anything.. See Khushi.. Everyone left me.. That's only because I showed to them how much they mean to me.. So they left me to punish me.. If I tell you that I love you, and now I am only alive because you're in my life.. Then something will happen.. You will also leave me..

That's why I'm scared.. I can't take this risk.. I can't.. I'm very scared to lose you.. I know I won't live if you leave me now.. These days I don't like your behavior with me Khushi.. You're purposely not talk-talk with me na.. You're going away-away from me.. Why? .. Do you know how much it hurts? .. My heart is so weak.. It starts crying when you do this.. But he smiles a lot.. When you are with me.. I love you Khushi.. (Arnav slapped his lips) .. Oops.. I wasn't supposed to tell you that.. I forgot.. Ssshh.. Okay.. Forget that I told you that.. "

Tears slipped from her eyes hearing him tell all this to her. He loves her but he is scared to lose her, he already lost many people who he loved more than his life.. That's why it became a fear for him to lose her too.. And here she was thinking he doesn't love her.

Arnav pouted staring at Khushi, he kissed her tears falling down her cheek.

"Don't cry.. Angels never cry.. They only smile.." he whispered to her.

Khushi smiled through tears.

She caressed his hair lovingly, Arnav smiled enjoying her care on him.

"Bhang ki nashe mein ek ho Gaye hum.." he sang while he rested his head on her chest, hugging her by her waist.

Khushi chuckled hearing him sing, she was so happy still shocked with his sudden confession!! She wanted to scream in happiness to the world, that he too loves her!! Her love isn't one side one!! Both love each other.. She means his life to him, and he means her life to her.

Arnav frowned when he caught papers behind Khushi's back.

The smile faded away from Khushi's face.

He sat properly on the bed and took the papers to see what it is.

Khushi widened her eyes, she quickly snatched the papers from his hand and tore it pieces crying.

She threw it on the the dust bin, her heart was beating fast. If he got to know she was planning to leave him, his heart would break in pieces now.

"Kya hua? Failed in maths? Is this your report card?" Arnav chuckled.

Khushi stare at him, Arnav saw she was crying.

He quickly went to her, "Areee.. Don't cry Kuchi Kuchi.. I will not complain to anyone.. Sachii I won't scold you also.. Don't cry like a baby.."

Khushi looked at him, she hugged him tightly.

"I love you.. I love you more than anything else in this world.." she smiled.

Arnav hugged her back, "I can't say.." he broke the hug and gestured his zipped lips.

He walked to the bed, Khushi put her hands on her hips: I will make sure you say it..

She closed the door of their room. And laid on the bed with him.

Arnav left the pillow and made her belly his pillow again.

Khushi smiled and covered him with a soft bed sheet. She ruffled his hair and he fell asleep in no time.

"I understand your fear Arnav.. Maybe anyone in your situation would feel like that.. But this time.. I will show it to you that you don't need to be scared of losing me.. I will always be with you till my last breath.." Khushi said to him sleeping figure.

"It's seems I will have to start working on our relationship!!" Khushi thought.