~Y/N POV~

I was honestly very surprised at my own words that slipped my mouth. Hobi was very unsure and tried to tell me no, that he's drunk and that wouldn't be wise but I felt confidant enough to speak with him, well as long as someone is with me, I'm not comfortable enough to be left alone with him. Plus I just know I'll have to face him one day so why not now?

Hobi called Jin to let him know that myself and Jihyun were coming, just to put Jungkook in his room until we came. I didn't want Jihyun to see him like that and put a bad image of him in his head. Jihyun idolizes the man and I don't know if that's a good thing or bad. While Hobi did that I gathered something Jihyun would need as I had a strong feeling we would be there a while and I was already past Jihyun's bed time, so Hobi said if I insisted on going with him Jihyun can sleep in his room.

Of course Jihyun was asking questions during the whole car journey to Hobi's house, but soon enough I didn't have to tell him where we were going because he recognised the outside surrounds, and lets just say he became very excited to be going there again.

Surprisingly enough I didn't expect their house to be so big, but I suppose it will be since all seven live together. I thought they lived separately because I remembered the day I last saw Jungkook at the park, he had mentioned he was meeting up with his friends to go to Taehyungs place. Hobi explained to me in the car on the way over that Taehyung has another studio apartment for his photography hobby. It's nice to hear he still does that since in school he was very well known for it.

When Hobi parked his car, I noticed how somewhere along the way here Jihyun had fallen asleep. So I exited the car and picked up my sleeping son carefully to not wake him up and Hobi grabbed his small back for me. I held Jihyun close and stared at the massive house.

"Y/n are you sure you want to be here? I can still take you both home, it would be no problem." Hobi

He patted my shoulder, with worry evident on his face, but I shook my head at him, determined to get this over with. It may be the wrong type of day to do this and he's been drinking so I don't know what's come over me but I just need to face him about this. I need to, now or never.

"We'll be fine Hobi."

He nods once and guides me to the door, taking small steps with his hand on the small of my back for support. All the thought brewing in my mind, screaming what the hell are you doing? Telling me to leave but another part of me says stay, and talk to him, alcohol or not just get it over with and you'll not have to talk about it with him again.

Slowly did we approach the door and Hobi pushed it open for me to enter first, with little steps and he walked in close behind me to close the door quietly afterwards. It seemed that the house was quiet and the living room was directly in front of the front door and no one was around.

Jihyuns little body cling onto me like glue, his head laying on my shoulder and unknowingly wrapping his arms around my shoulders.

"I'll show you where my bedroom is to put him down." Hobi

I nodded quietly and followed Hobi down a small corridor that led to a single stair case.

"Erm, this is the back stairs. If we use the main stairs Jungkook might hear us and I don't know what he's like right now." Hoseok

He said as we walked up the stairs. I said nothing since I understand what he was meaning. I didn't want Jihyun to wake up now that's hes asleep.

I continued to follow Hobi to his room that was only one bedroom away from the stairs and he allowed me to walk into his room that was very big too. If anything it almost seems the size of my whole apartment. I mean I knew it was small but now after seeing his bedroom it made my place look even smaller.

Hobi our jihyuns bag down in the corner and I slowly yet carefully placed Jihyun on hobis bed and tucked in his sleeping self, pulling the sheets up to his shoulders to keep him warm.

He's so innocent he has no idea what is going on and it'll stay that way.

I kissed him on the head before following Hobi out the room, taking one last look at him before completely shutting the door. Now I felt more nervous than before, subconsciously using Jihyun as my security blanket in a way.

Hobi took my hand and forced a smile on his lips, I know it's not a true one but I pressed a smile back to him, just a little one though. As I was seriously debating my life choices.

"Come on. Jin texted me saying Jungkooks in the shower." Hobi

I froze on spot.
He's in the shower?
I don't want to talk to him like that.

He noticed my sudden panicked state and chuckled.

"Oh no, Jin ordered him to take a shower to sober up a little bit. Don't worry, we'll both be with you." Hobi

"You promise?"

"Yes, now lets go." Hobi

He tugged on my hand and pulled me along with him, further down the rather long hallway, until he came to a stop at the door that was actually the furtherest away from hobis bedroom.

He knocked and I held my breath before someone opened the door.

"Hello y/n, he's still in the bathroom."

Thank goodness it was only Jin who answered.

"Hi."

I whispered. I don't know why but I did. I get so brave in coming here before but now I'm slightly regretting it.

Jin steps to the side of the door, and Hobi pulls me in. I could hear the shower running from the bathroom door that was at the far corner of the room. His room was just as big as hobis room.

I couldn't help but look around the room filled with dark colours, and attach myself to hobis arm, refusing to let go but he didn't seem to mind.

Yoongi was spotted sitting quietly on the edge of Jungkooks bed with a phone in hand.

"Yoongi when did you get here?" Hobi

He looked up from his phone to then stand up and shrug.

"Just a few minutes ago. Who do you think made him get in the shower?" Yoongi

I noticed how Jin rolled his eyes and shut the bedroom door.

"Where were you anyway?" Hobi

"I was at my parents house visiting." Yoongi

He said blankly and walked over to a third door in the room to only open it and so happens to be a door that leads to another bedroom.

"Is that your room?"

I asked him as I pointed at the now open door.

"Yeah. Our rooms are linked so I can deal with Jungkook if he has one of his melt downs." Yoongi

"Oh, okay. Does he happen to have a lot of them?"

I was curious to know and I haven't fully seen his tantrums but I've heard it over the phone and only heard that one time from Mia.

Yoongi exchanges a look with Hobi and Jin, standing by the door.

"These past few months, yes he has. But it only seems to be when he's under stress or something triggers him y/n." Yoongi

"But he has been going to a lot more therapy and he does have another appointment about his medication on Thursday." Jin

I only nod, not quite fully aware what they're talking about. I don't know much about Jungkook with why he is the way he is but I do want to get answers for it.

The shower turns off and i automatically look at the bathroom door and take a deep breath before looking at yoongis feet.

"You'll be fine y/n. We'll be right here." Hobi

He pats my arm but I still can't help but feel the need to leave but I think it's too late for that now.

"Does he know I'm here, well coming here anyway?"

I looked up at jin just as he leaned himself against the wall.

"He does. I had to tell him to convince him to come to his bedroom. He refused until I mentioned your name." Jin

Why would he easily agree to something at just the mention of my name?

"Well I'll be in my bedroom if anyone needs me." Yoongi

Yoongi walked out as he spoke before anyone could stop him, but he doesn't shut that one door he just walked through and I'm glad he didn't.

"Y/n can I just ask why you wanted to do this all of a sudden?" Jin

Ha! Good question.
I shrugged my shoulders at him as he tilt his head to the side and lick his lips while he waited for me to answer.

"I don't know. I thought it was a good idea at the time, I mean I would have to speak to him eventually but now I'm starting to think it might be a bad idea."

"It's not in my opinion. Whatever you have to say just tell him. Sure he can have a temper but he knows he deserves everything you've got. He's even expecting it, he told me himself. Whether he can now control his temper around is something none of us know. Considering.......you know." Jin

I nod at him, thinking about the things I want to say to Jungkook. All the things I've wanted to say and ask since that disastrous night.

The bathroom door behind me unlocks and opens with a click coming from the door as it opened. Upon hearing the noise, with my free hand I reached to hobis hand around my other arm and squeezed him. To reassure myself in some way he is with me this time.

I've seen him only twice since I found out he's jihyuns father and both times I was alone but now I'll be seeing him for the third time by my choice and not alone.

I can't be scared of him forever and for years I've wanted this chance to tel him how I've felt. He knows it coming so i might as well do this now while I have the chance.

"Y/n? You actually came?" Jungkook

I took a deep breath, gaining all the courage I had in me to turn around to face him, with both of us knowing where this conversation is going to go.

Letting go of hobis arm, I slowly turned around to finally face him for the first time in weeks.

"Jungkook."