~JUNGKOOK POV~

I'm very excited about today.

When Jin told me that y/n asked him to take Jihyun to me for supervised visits, I was so happy. I've been bouncing off the walls all week.

But to be honest I was a little disappointed she wouldn't be doing the picking up and dropping off herself. I don't blame her reasons either, I just can't help it.

I would like to see her more, it's selfish of me but I do. I stick by my words that I told everyone that's known me, y/n is mine. She always has been and always will be.

My plans to make her fall in love with me we're ruined by my mistake and just when I thought I might have the chance to be able to try again, my darkest secret came out and ruined it all over again.

I always get what I want, and I will have y/ns heart one day.

Jin informed me that I can see Jihyun every Saturday for a couple hours from 12 to 4 and that's perfectly okay with me, for now.

So right now all I can do right now is wait with anticipation in my living room.

It felt like forever just waiting, but when I heard the front door open and the sound of little running feet coming my way and fast I sprung up from the sofa and saw the little guy running to me with open arms.

"Kookie!!"

I laughed at his cuteness and squatted down to embrace him into my arms and pull him close to me. I don't ever want to let him go, he's my little guy after all.

Holding his tiny body to mine, was just everything to me, more than he could ever know. I couldn't stop smiling at him but that soon changed when I saw Y/ns friend, Mia walk in through the front door with Jin right behind her.

I glared at her and then at Jin.

"What are you doing here?"

I tried not to sound so angry right now, I didn't want to upset my son and let's just say myself and Mia do no get on. She smirked at me, and crossed her arms over her chest while Jin stood beside her with his arms around her shoulders.

"Mia came with me because Jihyun doesn't know me that well yet, so to make him feel more comfortable I asked Mia to come with me. I wanted to show her the place." Jin

Damn the fact we all live together!!

I rolled my eyes and ignored Mia completely. She maybe be y/ns best friend and has helped out the two people I love the most in the world but that doesn't mean I like her. She spoke the truth to me and I hated her for it.

I placed Jihyun back down to the floor so he could stand and took his hand instead. His little doe eyes sparkled as he looked up at me, like they always have done since I seen him for the first time since he was born.

"What are we going to do kookie?!" Jihyun

Oh god I wish I could tell him I'm his father so he could call me dad.

"Well what about baking some cakes in the kitchen and then we can watch a movie together?"

It doesn't sound like much but now that I know I can see him on Saturdays I will definitely be buying new toys and things for him to while hes here. In fact I think I'll ask Jin to ask y/n if I can take him to the funfair next week. I would ask her myself but she's changed her number, so I wouldn't be able to ask her.

Jihyun cheered and started to shake my hand with all his excitement. He told me he likes to bake and sometimes does things like that with y/n, so I knew he'd like the baking idea. I laughed at his little outburst and guided him to the kitchen. I was thankful Jin and Mia didn't follow us, I mean yeah supervised but that wouldn't mean that Jin would have to follow me around the house would it?

I love that man like a brother but I wouldn't be able to handle, plus I don't need babysitting when I'm with my son. I can look after him perfectly fine and I'm sure Y/n knows that too since I did have alone time with him before Y/n found out the truth. Now that I've grown closer to Jihyun, I couldn't imagine not having him in my life now, and if it wasn't more possible than before I've fallen deeper in love with Y/n to a point I can't help my obsession with her.

Leading my son to the kitchen we found ourselves skipping and laughing. I don't know why but he wa such a happy little boy, that his laugh alone made me laugh at nothing. Y/n was done a great job with him. He's been brought up better than I was with the father I had. My mother was never there and she died when I was very young. I had nightmares and lets just say my dad was a very cruel man and has passed down his condition to me. I just pray that Jihyun doesn't turn out the same and Y/n already mentioning he gets nightmares worries me.

"I'll grab a chair for you to stand on, okay?"

His eyes light up as he looks at me.

"Yes, yes Kookie!" Jihyun

He makes me melt so much he has no clue. I walked over to the far end of the kitchen and grabbed the first chair I had my eyes on and dragged it towards the nearest counter. Jihyun then comes running over and steps on the chair with no problems as I watch him in awe.

"What next?" Jihyun

Snapping out my thoughts of how adorable he is, I opened the cupboard above his head that I stored all the baking things I needed before he came here and took all the ingredients out and placed them on the counter top while he waited patiently, watching everything being set in place.

After that I took out the piece of paper in my back pocket that has the instructions for making the cookies and started to read what we needed to do. Surprisingly it didn't take long and we rolled out the cookie batter and used our hands to shape them into balls. Jihyun wanted to eat the cookie mix than to roll but he manged at least two balls of cookie dough while I did the rest.

Once we placed them in the oven, we decided to take a juice break while we waited. I made him a milkshake, just like I had made for myself and we took up seats on the dining table in the corner of the kitchen.

"The cookies should be ready when the timer goes off."

He nods and picks up his cup that was a little big for hands and takes a sip before putting it back down and releasing a loud 'Ahhh' which was cute to see.

"So how has your new day care been? Do you like it?"

He nods excitedly and leans over the table with his small hands on the surface.

"Oh, yes! I have a new best friend!" Jihyun

"Yeah? What's his name?"

"His name is Soobin. He's so cool. He plays cars with me and paints with me." Jihyun

"Well that's good Jihyun. I'm happy you made a friend."

In the corner of my eye I could see Mia, peeking into the kitchen. She's probably watching what we're doing. Just when I turn my head her way she disappears around the corner. Good. I don't need her watching me, Jihyun and I are perfectly fine with out her.

"Kookie, can I ask you something?" Jihyun

After taking a sip of my own milkshake, I licked my lips and put down the cup.

"Sure, buddy. You can ask me anything."

His cheerful smile disappeared and he furrowed his eyebrows together.

"Why is my mommy mad at you?" Jihyun

He's a very smart kid, I'll give him that. I didn't expect this question so soon, maybe another day but not now. I'll have to watch what I'm saying or it could go back to Y/n and it wont be good.

"Well you see Jihyun. Adults argue sometimes, but we get past it too. Have you ever fallen out with your friends before?"

He nods, carefully watching my every move with his big doe eyes that match mine.

"It's like that. We fall out but we talk again eventually."

It's the only thing I can think of to say to him. I don't know if Y/n would ever speak to me again. She says she wont but a guy can only hope that with time things can change, maybe.

"But why? She misses you but she's angry at you." Jihyun

SHE MISSES ME?!

That cant be true, can it?

"How do you know she misses me?"

His expression turns sad and he starts to tap the table with his little finger, staring down at the big cup.

"I see her crying. At a picture from my birthday. It had you, me and mommy in it. When you sang happy birthday to me." Jihyun

Okay, that broke my heart. To think he sees her upset at something like that and for her to cry at a picture of the three of us. I know exactly which picture he's talk about. I asked Hoseok to take the same picture on my phone from a different angle. It's my favourite picture. I have a copy in my room next to my bed and I have it saved as my lock screen on my phone.

"Does she know you see her crying?"

He shook his head and looked back up at me.

"No, when she sees me, she hides the picture. I just act like I don't see it." Jihyun

I reached over to him, and stroked the top of his head full of black hair.

"You're a good boy Jihyun. I promise you, me and your mommy will work things out eventually, okay?"

He brighten up at my words, with a smile creeping up on his face.

"Really?!" Jihyun

I nod, believing my own words.

"Yes, really."

He giggled and picked up his cup again to drink some more.

I don't know if Y/n would ever talk to me again, but one day, we'll have to, I just know it. But it makes me wonder why she would even cry over a picture of the three of us. Yes she will hate me right now and possibly forever for what I had done to her, so I would think she wouldn't want to see me face ever again.

Hopefully one day I can get close with Y/n again, even if I have to spend the rest of my life making it up to her, I will not give up until she is mine.