~Y/N POV~

Today I had the day off work so I decided to take Jihyun to the park for a little bit and then for some ice cream. It's our little thing we do and usually we do this with Jennie and Mia but they couldn't make it today. Jennie had to go see her dad since he's become ill and Mia was at work and couldn't get time off but said she'll stop by my place later on in the evening.

Jihyun loves the park so every time we come here he always has a blast and I do too just watching him have fun and sometimes joining in was fun enough too.

The swings are his favourite so of course that would be the first thing he wanted to go on before anything else. So once I placed him on the swing I started to push him since he's not quite got all the swinging by himself yet.

"Mommy higher!" Jihyun

I laughed at his cuteness and continued to push him.

"Not too high Jihyun I don't want you to fall out."

"I won't Mommy, higher, higher!" Jihyun

I gave him one big push and then let him swing on his own until it comes to a stop.

"When the swings stops I think we should go play on something else, Jihyun."

"I want to go on the slide!" Jihyun

He giggled and soon enough the swing cam to a stop and I lifted his small body out the swing and placed him to stand on his own two feet just so he could run off towards the slide.

I decided to chance after him and he squealed out a giggle when he realised I was chafing after him.

"I'm too fast Mommy! You can't get me!" Jihyun

He climbed up the the steps as fast as he could while I tried to hang back and not be too fast for him.

"I'll catch you!"

When he reached the top of the stepped he turned around to look down at me and giggled again before running to the slide while I took two steps up to chance after him. By the time I reached the top he just slid down the slide. I laughed and followed his lead, but first looking down the to make sure he wasn't at the bottom. I didn't want to bang into him but he ran off under the climbing frame laughing his head off. Times like this I really enjoy, it's precious moments.

Unfortunately for this one it was cut short when he shouted out one name I didn't want to hear.

"Kookie!!" Jihyun

I froze as I reached the bottom of the slide but then remembered by son is with him. So I got up and ran in the direction I saw Jihyun ran but I was too late.

Jungkook was already squatted down, hugging my son. Or our son should I say.

"Jihyun! Let's go get some ice cream now!"

I shouted to him from a few feet away. They pulled apart and Jihyun turned around to pout at me with his adorable doe like eyes.

"Mommy! Kookie just got here!" Jihyun

I sighed and gained the courage to walk over to them both. As I did Jungkooks eyes were fully trained on me as he stood up.

"I know but we always get ice cream after the park don't we?"

He nods but he's still pouting.

"But I want to stay and play with kookie." Jihyun

I bit my lip, trying to control my anger right now and not explode in front of my son. He doesn't know what happened between me and Jungkook and he won't ever know, so to think of excuses for us to leave is so hard right now.

"Jihyun please."

Jihyun huffed, noticing I was not only frustrated but getting upset. He always knows when I'm upset and he must think I'm upset with him but I'm not, I'm all kinds of mixed emotions right now. To see Jungkook up close this time for the first time in weeks. It's hard, very hard.

"Y/n you don't have to leave." Jungkook

He speaks for the first time but I still refuse to look at him but only at Jihyun.

"I'll be leaving soon anyway. I just came to meet some friends and then we're going to Taehyungs place." Jungkook

I still say nothing but listen. Just his voice gives me the creeps now, he sounds nothing of how I remember from that night which is another thing that doesn't make sense.

"Y/n please. Just a few minutes with him. You can even watch from a distance or something. I won't do anything I'm not suppose to, I promise. Please." Jungkook

He sounded so desperate, but why should I when I begged him to stop doing what he did to me! I would love nothing more than to pick up my son and give him a piece of my mind and leave but I can't. Jihyuns eyes lit up as soon as Jungkook mentioned the idea and how was it even possible to say no to that face. Jihyun has no idea and I don't want him to be more upset at the fact he can't see Jungkook. Maybe if I say yes and watch them as much as I would hate to, maybe Jihyun would stop asking for a while about Jungkook?

I took a deep breath in, to then finally look him dead in the eyes. Jungkook was certainly surprised that I did and a little take back as he parted his mouth and his eyes slightly grew.

"Fine. I'll sit over there and what the both of you. You've got ten minutes to play with MY son."

For a split second I swore seen him frown but then wiped it off with a very small smile and a nod. Jihyun cheered to then grab Jungkooks hand and run off with him to the slide.

I didn't dare take my eyes off my little boy. Even as I walked to the nearest bench, I won't do it.

Sitting down on the bench I watched how jihyuns eyes would light up every time he saw Jungkook chasing after him just like I had done before. Even Jungkook seemed to be having fun with him too as they both laughed together and even showing the same bunny like smiles that I love on my son. I even loved it on Jungkook and now I don't know how I feel about that anymore.

I'm obviously gonna have to find a new park to take Jihyun to from now on.

After few minutes I checked my watch quickly to see how long there is left. He's got five more minutes then I'm taking Jihyun for some ice cream like I promised.

I felt a tap on my shoulder and I flinched in fright only to see Jin and Taehyung standing there smiling. So he was meeting some friends. Then I looked back at Jihyun and Jungkook and saw how Jimin had joined in their game, much to jihyuns enjoyment.

Now that I saw Jimin there I felt a little at ease that someone else was there, not a lot but a little.

"We didn't know you'd be here y/n." Jin

He said as he sat down and Taehyung on the other side of him, watching the game in front of him.

"Well here I am with my son."

He nods.

"I noticed that. Are you okay?" Jin

I shook my head and quickly glanced at Jihyun who was now hiding under the slide from Jimin and Jungkook who were clearly pretending they couldn't see him.

"No. He's here, with my son and I don't know how I feel about that. I'm still very angry with him Jin. You have no idea."

I tried not to grit my teeth together but jins a nice guy and I didn't want to take my anger out on him.

"I'm sorry y/n. If I had known you would both here I would of told Jungkook to meet us here." Taehyung

That surprised me. I thought Jungkook followed me again or something.

"So he didn't pick this place to meet you guys?"

They both shook their heads with sad eyes.

"No, it was my idea. I'm really sorry." Taehyung

I sighed and looked down to my fingers.

"It's okay you wouldn't of known."

"But I'm also sorry for everything that has happened to you y/n. Really, it's been a hard secret to keep. Especially for hobi." Taehyung

I didn't want to think about him either. He was like a brother to me and he kept this from me. I could cry at the feeling of a betrayal, it's too hard to think about along with everything else.

"I'm sorry but I'd rather not talk about that right now please."

Taehyungs nods and then looks back the game they were playing and broke out into a smile.

"Is is okay if I can go okay with Jihyun too? I miss the little guy." Taehyung

I nod with a small smile. He bounced off the bench and left to join the game. Now it was just me and Jin who had been watching me quietly this while time.

"Tae was right you know. You have no idea how hard this was for Hoseok, for all of us. Sometimes Hoseok use to get so frustrated he would hit Jungkook because he felt like that's all he could do at that time and take out his anger on the source." Jin

Another smile brushed along my lips. That seems like a good picture right now.

"And Jungkook just let him?"

Jin nods once.

"Yes. He knew he deserves it and didn't say anything about it. Seriously we had to take Jungkook to the hospital when he told us the truth since Hoseok had to be physically removed from Jungkook and Jungkook didn't bother fighting back. I'm sure you heard from Mia just how violent Jungkook can be?" Jin

I nodded at him.

"Yes I heard what happened."

"Well, that should say something at least. We all knew it was a fucked up situation and it still is and forever will be but I think personally you should have a talk with Hoseok. Just you and him. No one else." Jin

"Oh I don't know."

"He misses you, all of you girls. He knows what he did was not right to keep it from you and trust me when I say he beats himself up about it all the time. Just talk to him and he'll tell you anything you want to know." Jin

I sighed and looked up to see Jungkook running away from Jihyun as he chances after the three grown men, having the time of his life.

"I'll think about it jin."

"Okay. I'm not trying to pressure you. I just think maybe you should consider it." Jin

He patted me leg with a encouraging smile. I smiled properly at him and looked back at the boys having fun but this time Jihyun was picked up by Taehyung and spinning in circles while Jimin stood and laughed at the two. Jungkook however was standing still just watching me and Jin with no expression and I only snapped out of it until he heard Jihyun shout his name.

That was weird.

Then a thought came to mind. Something that Jennie told me and something that I had been thinking about but haven't came to a full decision yet, but I want to test it first.

"Jin, could I ask you something?"

"Sure." Jin

He removed his hand from my leg and waited patiently for me to ask away.

"Could you please watch Jungkook with my son so I could go get him some ice cream. I'll only be a few minutes. If that's okay?"

"Of course I will. I totally understand your reason to why if you thought I didn't because I do." Jin

He nods to himself, with a proud look about himself.

"Thank you."

I chuckled and got up to leave taking one look at Jihyun playing on the swings now with Jimin pushing him and Jungkook watching me from a distance with a frown and folded arms. But I pay no attention to it and walk out the park, speed walking to the ice cream shop which isn't far winces it's on the same street thank god.

I quickly ordered Jihyun a strawberry ice cream with sprinkles in a cone and paid quickly and left to speed walk back to the park.

When I got back they were just where I left them. The four boys at the swings but this time Jungkook was slushing Jihyun and Jin was still seated at the bench watching them from a far.

I know I wasn't gone long but maybe what Jennie said could be a good idea and make Jihyun happy. Not Jungkook, my son. Only his happiness matters as long as he never actually knows the full truth until he's old enough to understand.

"Jin?"

I asked him as I walked up to the bench. He flinch when I mentioned his name with a hand over his heart.

"Jeez, woman are you trying to kill me?" Jin

He chuckled and I shook my head to sit on the bench next to him with jihyuns ice cream.

"Sorry but could I ask you something else? Like a massive favour please?"

"Okay." Jin

He eyed me suspiciously. He probably thinks it could be something stupid.

"Jihyun keeps asking about Jungkook and I don't fully trust Jungkook and so I was hoping if I sat letting Jungkook see Jihyun without me being around it you could watch them both for me?"

"You mean like a supervised visit sort of thing?" Jin

I nod.

"Yes. Jihyun misses Jungkook and it breaks my heart so if that's okay with you? Could you watch them since I don't want them to be alone, I don't trust Jungkook anymore and I'm only thinking about.."

I didn't get to finish my sentence since Jin beat me to it.

"Jihyun. It's normal for you to feel that way and yes I would be honoured to watch them. I'll make sure Jungkooks on his best behaviour and they won't be alone. Cross my heart." Jin

He draws a cross with his finger where his heart would be and I laughed.

"Thank you. I don't know when yet. But I'll let you know. Thank you."

"It's no problem." Jin

"Mommy is that my ice cream?!" Jihyun

I nod and gave it to him. He licked his lips and skipped back over to the climbing frame. I watched how Jungkook would light up every time he sets his eyes on Jihyun and usually I would find it adorable but that's another thing I can't help, it makes my heart feel heavy to watch now.

Everything has changed.