( I decided to have a mystery POV. Maybe there will be another I don't know yet.)

(But please note Hoseok and Jin are not jihyuns father so they will have their names mentioned and the rest will be numbered. ??? will be baby daddy speaking, the others will be numbered.)

~??? POV~

My heart breaks every time I see Y/n in the halls or in fact anywhere in school. It's just a constant reminder of what I did to her and I've totally messed up her life in so many ways. I'll forever regret it.

I'm just like my father, it's like I have two personalities but I'm slowly getting better. I go to therapy now after what I did and I have to take medication since I can have a bad temper on me. I just hope to god my child doesn't end up like me and give y/n a hard time.

At school I watch y/n sometimes and I hate how people treat her but me and the guys sort out anyone that says too much and cross the line. I've spoken to her a few times but she barely speaks much back, mostly just a few words per sentence. All of this has completely destroyed her and I'm not surprised. Now a days though when I do speak to her I can't help but look at her bump. It's much more noticeable now and it makes it all the more real. My child is inside her and I may never be able to hold them or get to know them. It crushes me but I deserve it, I don't deserve to be a father.

I punish myself ever day, watching her just like the guys but they do it because their my friends and they feel bad for what I had done to her. Heck I almost lost Hoseok as my friend because if it.

I watched him walk y/n and Mia home today. Once they all entered the house, I ran through the trees nearby in the woods to our secret hideout. Our hang out place, a place we hang out as friends since no one really knows that we're all friends since our fathers work together so we grew up together but didn't let anyone think we ever did.

I heard laughter from the tree house already, maybe I'm the last one here besides Hoseok?

I sprinted up the steps and stormed through the door, silencing everyone already here.

"Hey you could be a bit more careful with the door." Jin

I sighed and threw my school bag to the floor and threw myself on a nearby bean bag on the floor.

"I'm not in the mood."

"You're never in the mood, you're always in a bad one these days." Person 3

"Yeah but do you blame him after doing what he did with the love of his life." Person 4

I looked at him from across the room.

"She's not the love of my life. I just like her as a person."

The two exchanged glances with hidden grins while I rolled my eyes and hanged my head back wiping my face with my hands.

"Sure if that what you want to call, okay then." Person 3

"You two leave him alone. I'm sure he's having a bad day again. Are you taking your medication?" Jin

I nod with my head still back.

"Good. We don't want you acting out again with another girl. That's why your banded from alcohol for the rest of your life!" Jin

"Very true. Please don't say you still follow her around? You know it makes you feel worse, now that she's showing." Person 2

I sat up in the bean bag to face everyone again.

"I can't help it. She's like an addiction I can't get rid of. She's perfection and she would of been mine if I handed ruined everything."

My anger raised up within myself, balling my fists because all I want to do right now is break something or at least hit someone.

"Hey man calm down before you have another rampage." Person 1

I squeezed my eyes shut and taking deep breaths. I kept doing that until I eventually calmed down and opened my eyes back up to see everyone staring at me.

"What?"

"Nothing it's just, that's the first time we've seen you control your anger since the Y/n incident." Person 2

I shrugged, it didn't mean anything to me that I did that. The door opened to the treehouse cabin and Hoseok walked in. He came storming over to me with his hands on his hips. What did I do now?

"Are you sending y/n money?" Hoseok

I wasn't surprised by his questions, in fact I was expecting it a lot sooner since I had been doing that for two months now ever since I found out she was pregnant.

"Yeah, so?"

He glares down at me.

"What do you mean so? Y/n was telling me someone had been sending her money every month for the last two months now and the bank won't tell her why or who but obviously it had to be you." Hoseok

He points at me int he face. He's still very angry with me for what I did but I Knew I deserved it so I never bite back to him.

"It's to help her out a little bit, you know with the baby. Her parents aren't there to support her and I know she has her friends and you but still I wanted to help out from a far and made sure the bank wouldn't reveal anything about me or ever put a stop to it unless I say so."

Hoseok eyes soften when I mentioned her parents.

"Fine. You know she doesn't want the money." Hoseok

He said as he was looking at me but also taking a seat on the edge of the corner sofa.

"I knew she wouldn't that's why I told the bank to never stop it until I say so. I may not be in the child's life or y/ns for that matter by its the least I could do for now."

Hoseok nods lightly and sat back on his seat, with his smile appearing on his face.

"Guys do you want to know what y/n is having? She found out yesterday." Hoseok

"Oh yes! I want to know!" Person 4

"Me to me too!" Person 3

Hoseok pushed his head back and I waited for him to say what it was. I was very curious if she was having my son or my daughter and this would be the perfect time to find out which gender.

"Okay, it's a boy!" Hoseok

My heart dropped again for the hundredth time today. I felt frozen in place and I didn't know how to feel right now. Mixed emotions all over the place, anger, sadness and excitement. I'll have a son and I'll never get to meet him. I don't deserve to meet him or ever see him. I close my eyes again and started taking deep breaths.

"Hey man are you okay?" Hoseok

I nod until opened my eyes to look at his with concern in his eyes.

"I'm good. I just........it's hard to believe sometimes. It's only ever real to me now is when I see her."

He nods understanding what I mean. Something beautiful is coming from this mess but to her it'll be a reminder of what happened. But I wonder if the baby will be like me.

"Hey can we stop talking about all this shit before he loses his mind again. I don't want to have to punch him again like last time." Person 1

Yeah, that wasn't a good time. I didn't take my meds that day and I litterally trashed the hideout and my own bedroom. All because I heard what some people were saying about y/n behind her back and there was Jack shit I could do about it so that day he punched me in the face to get me back to reality. It was painful but it worked.

"I suppose that's right. Hey what did you guys think of the science homework? It's gonna be hard as hell." Hoseok

"Seriously homework I don't want to talk about that." Person 1

Hoseok laughed.

"Why not its a change of topic." Hoseok

"Because were not in school." Person 1

"Okay then how about miss kangs boobs, they're huge!" Person 3

I burst out laughing. I've not looked myself but it was funny to see the outburst he created. It too my mind off her for a little while but I know my mind will always go back to her. It's always been her and her always be. I'll find a way one day to try and make it up to her and even to my son, but I'll need the help from the guys.

I just need to show her how much I can change for a person like her now. Hopefully in the future I can do that for her and give her some happiness which I know will be with me.

I want her to love me back. Just as much as I love her.