I got up after a while of convincing, I changed into Namjoon's shirt and kept my pants the same.

I didn't have any other clothes, so Namjoon let me wear any of his.

"When are we leaving?"

"Um, I think around 12..? I'll ask Hyung about it"

"Hyung? Also where are we going to eat?"

"Just wait, I need to do something real quick"

"Ugh... I hate it when people do this"

Namjoon left and I am alone again.

Please please please, God don't let anybody notice me! Please I am begging you. I will clean my room and... other stuff just please!

I closed my eyes and crossed my fingers, it was very desperate attempt to not let anything bad happen to me. Today should be a normal memory for Namjoon, he's been to the school a few times.

I'm living a good life, not depressed nor sad anymore! I just want to continue this good streak while I still have it. I just wont ask for too much.

There are things and people I can't have, and I'll have to deal with it. I'm pretty sure Yoongi is happy without me, I mean, he didn't recognize me...

"Sigh..."

"Hey I'm back, also we're going to meet up with some of my other friends then go eat"

I really don't want to ask, and I'm pretty sure I know who they are.

"Not gonna ask?"

"It's no-"

"Don't worry, I was going to make you wait, either way"

"O-okay, don't you have work today? I mean, you can't just go on a sudden leave?"

"Oh shot, yeah."

Making excuses can really come in handy, heh.

"I'll just ask my boss right now"

Only when they work...

Namjoon left again, and now I have to sit here awkwardly by myself again.

Only a little time pass and the only noise I hear is my stomach growling and a distant voice from Namjoon.

"What should I do, what if Hyung hates me the moment he looks at me? I wish I didn't come here... I wanna be in bed, doing whatever"

"Hyung? Who's that?"

Namjoon came back unexpectedly which surprised me.

"Oh, I'm just thinking about something else. I  was just worried about some nonsense."

Hyung doesn't even know me, it's been a few years. Enough time to forget someone so annoying.

"Okay, well then, let's go"

I gave Namjoon a questionable look.

"I was given the day off today. We can go, Jimin is also going to be with us, so watch out"

I nodded and left with him.

We went to a train station since our high school is in a different part of Seoul where Namjoon lives.

"XXX KBBQ"

I read off the large bolded words from a restaurant's name plate.

"I heard from Jin Hyung that it's really good. He's the one who recommended it."

"Jin Hyung"

So nostalgic, brings back happy memories when we all were together and enjoyed ourselves.

"Yeah, he's the guy I mentioned earlier. He's a big foodie"

I chuckled and entered after the taller male went in.

I was met with so many rich smells. I haven't had meat in a while, I should savor it.

"Hey look, they're there!"

Namjoon pointed to a large group of people. I noticed that there was one spot next to Yoongi. I wanted it so badly, but I should just pretend I don't know, like I always do.

"Hey new guy, sit right here."

Yoongi offered the seat next to him! And it had to be me because I am the 'new' guy!

I smiled and took the seat quickly, I was given a few stares but a familiar voice passed it off

"Eager aren't you? Just wait, the meat will be here soon."

I looked up and that was Jin Hyung. I'm glad for what he did, and said that I'll try my best to be patient.

The others around me laughed and we all had a good time. The food was amazing and I was accepted by everyone.

I missed being away from them. I regret what I did, deeply, though I didn't do anything wrong. I just want to start all over.

"Hey Taehyung, come her for a bit"

I was summoned by Jin Hyung. He seemed to be very happy, this was a one on one convo.

"How are you doing? It's been a long time hasn't it Tae?"