Taehyung,

That murderous inmate I mentioned in the last letter is definitely watching me. I can tell he is waiting to get me alone.

I probably don't have much time left, my son, if I can even call you that anymore.

I definitely was not a father for you. I was a monster, someone who people have nightmares about. Many young boys view their fathers as superheroes. I'm sure you viewed me as a villian.

I viewed my parents as the villian. The way they received joy from the pain they caused me. Their nostrils didn't flare in anger. There were no flames behind their pitch-black eyes. The only heavy breathing was due to the exertion of beating me to a pulp, not from a pounding heart of madness.

When your mother told me she was pregnant with you, my first thought was abortion. We were young, sure. That's the main reason I told her I wasn't positive we should keep the baby. Deep down, I knew I would be passing down the anger my parents bestowed on me. If I never had children, I could stop the abuse of my blood line for once and for all.

Your mother refused, and insisted we keep you and raise you like loving parents would. And a loving parent I tried to be. That's why the anger coarsing through my veins was taken out on your mother, and not on you. She was tough. She made sure to protect you above herself.

Until she couldn't take it anymore.

She had even tried to take her life to escape me, did you know that? I found her laying in bed with an empty pill bottle next to her. I rushed her to the hospital and they saved her by pumping her stomach and pushing a heavy dosage of many medications into her bloodstream.

When taking her own life failed, she ultimately decided to leave. I don't know whether she intended on taking you. I wish I did know.

Just like I viewed my parents as villians, I'm sure she viewed me as one as well. My face had morphed into the mask my parents once wore. I know this mask is the only way you remember me.

If I showed you my true face, you wouldn't even recognize me.

Sincerely,
Your Father.

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