Taehyung,

I have been in prison for approximately a week. There, as you can imagine, not much to do. It has given me ample time to ponder.

In this first letter, I am making it my goal to apologize.

I am sorry for the torment I caused you. I am sorry for not being able to cope and handle my emotions better.

The following letters will delve into my past. Not that the way I was brought up is an excuse for how I treated you, but I do want you to know about my life before my time is up on this planet.

You never deserved the torture I bestowed upon you. There are many reasons behind it, besides your mother.

You see, I was so in love with your mother. We were high school sweethearts.

Ultimately, though, we got married rather quickly because your mother was pregnant. With you.

After your mother abandoned us, my abuse becoming too much for her, my doctor found something. A moment from my childhood left me unable to have children. I'm not fertile, and I hadn't been since I was fifteen.

She had cheated on me with another man. She broke the news to me that you are not my son, in blood, that is. She merely never told me because she thought I would raise you better than the man she cheated on me with.

Having to look at you every day and see her face broke me. But it also broke me when I found out you were gay. While you may not have infertility problems, you would never be with a woman. You would not be carrying on your mother's bloodline. You would be the one to end it.

I realize now that I never had an issue with you being gay, per se. It was all because your beautiful mother's bloodline was ending. She never had any siblings. You are all that is left. It was difficult for me to deal with, as you can imagine.

I'm sincerely sorry for taking my anger out on you about your mother and your sexuality. Neither of these were under your control. It was all my doing.

I know sorry will not solve the problem. I also know that explaining everything will not diminish the pain I caused, but even if it brings you a small sense of comfort, it has done its job.

You turned out to be a great kid, Taehyung. I'm sorry I made your life so difficult.

Sincerely,
Your father

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Just what I need is another story to update lmao