Chapter One.

Lily knew she was in a huff. She was mature enough to recognise it, more mature than Potter would ever be anyway.

She also knew her jealousy, no. Her annoyance was unjustified but Lily felt simply murderous when Mary put her hand on his thigh and threw back her head and giggled her sweet, butter beer like laugh.

She kept her eyes glued to her parchment, not daring to look over. The death grip on her quill guaranteeing that her fingers will be covered in ink.

"Lil, you do know your quill isn't gonna grow legs and run away, you don't need to hold it like your life depends on it" Marlene teased, provoking the redhead further.

Lily looked up, her emerald eyes almost sparking as she threw her best friend the dirtiest of looks.

"Woah babe, what's gotten your knickers in a twist?"

Marlene teased further, her smirk that could rival Sirius's plastered on her features. She looked over her shoulder, following Lilys stare.

"It wouldn't have to do with a certain messy haired head boy... would it?" Marlene asked, her fake ignorance only angering Lily more.

"Shut it Marls, you know I don't give a flying fuck about Potter" Lily snapped, looking back down at her parchment but failing again to concentrate on it.

"Yeah but you do give a fuck about Mary throwing herself at him like shes a rogue bludger" Marlene adds, putting her boots on the table and watching Lily's reaction, enjoying watching her friends shoulders tensing.

"Mary can... throw herself at anyone she likes, why should I care?" Lily said, her fake nonchalance not fooling Marlene one bit.

"Oh, so you wouldn't mind them dating then?" Marlene pressed, leaning forward - her eyebrows wiggling.

"No... why would I?" Lily said, shrugging and trying too hard not to care

"Because you fancy Potter," Marlene said, leaning back as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"I DO NOT FANCY-" Lily yelled but stopped herself before she said the name. She knew James would immediately freak if he could see her cheeks burning at the accusation

Marlene bit back a smile, patting Lily's arm sympathetically

"oh pet, it seems like your still in denial" her Irish accent purred.

"McKinnon you have 10 seconds to leave before I hex your ass" lily threatened, putting a warning hand on her wand to try and show her seriousness.

"I'd like to see you try" Marlene scoffed, rolling her blue eyes.

"10"

"9"

"8" lily dragged out, picking up her wand

"lily you are about as scary as a pygmy puff"

"7"

"you're benefiting me here, I didn't know how to count down from 10 before this, all that pureblood homeschooling and that"

"6" Lily y had now fully picked up her willow wand, flipping it through her long pale fingers.

"5"

"Lily this is-"

"McKinnon. leave this table or I will tell Dorcas about how last night in your sleep you moaned her name and called her your 'cuddle bunny'"

"you wouldn't," Marlene said, standing up and getting her oak wand out of her belt.

Lily crossed her arms, smugly looking around and catching Dorcas's eye as she walked down from the girl's dorms.

"Dorky! over here!" lily called, beckoning the girl over, her curly hair bouncing as she almost skipped over.

Marlene flushed, her not-so-secret crush on the girl becoming more and more obvious each day.

"hey," she said sweetly, smiling at Lily and stealing a glance of Marlene - trying not to blush.

"hay is for horses"
Marlene automatically said the cringey dad joke that she always used to torture Lily with.

Lily smugly grinned, seeing her once confident friend be reduced to stammering over the sight of Dorcas's bright smile.

Instead of being phased, Dorcas simply neighed aggressively at the two, throwing Marlene off guard but reducing Lily y to tear-filled laughter.

"Not that I don't enjoy some barnyard action but why was I summoned here my sweet Lily-flower?"
Dorcas asked, hearing Marlene snigger at the ironic use of James's favourite nickname for the redhead.

"Oh, Marlene was bored and was wondering if you wanted to go down to the lake with her, I'd join you but this charms essay is due Monday"

Lily smiled sweetly, feeling the death stare from Marlene burn into her skull. She decided that her friend needed to prove her Gryffindor status and a gentle nudge in the right direction wouldn't hurt.

"Oh thank Godrick! I'm bored out my brains! Come on Marley I think some Slytherins need to be fed to the giant squid"

Dorcas smiled, grabbing Marlene's arm, forcing her away towards the portrait hole, grinning a Cheshire cat smile.

She smiled fondly at her two friends, rooting for them deeply after the two both separately confessed to her about their crushes on one another.

Lily got back to work, Potter almost completely out of her mind as she thought about how the essay actually had to be done for Monday.

However, her scribbling was interrupted by a hand knocking on the table to grab her attention.

Lily looked up, her green eyes meeting the brown ones of James's immediately. She saw a fond smile on his face and she couldn't help but return it.

"Hey Lillith," James said, plonking himself down in the chair that Marlene was using.

"Not my name Potter"
lily automatically corrected, looking back down to avoid him. She found his stupidly crisp shirt to be distracting, especially because he had shed his robes as soon as the school day was over.

"Sorry Lillian" James teased again, making Lily look up to see that infuriatingly crooked smile that she definitely didn't find adorable.

Putting her quill down and sighing, she played with one of her rings on her fingers, twisting it subconsciously.

"And what do I owe the pleasure of your presence Jimmy?"

"You see Lizzy, I'm in desperate need of a favour"

"Aren't we all Jimbo?"

James grinned again, before tugging a hand through his already messed up hair. Lily didn't mind it as much, she discovered that he did it as a sort of nervous tick and not just to make himself look like a ponce.

"You know how you love me? And how I'm like THE best head boy to ever head boy"

"Well this is news to me" lily scoffed, pulling her ring off and changing it onto a different finger.

"Could you cover my rounds tonight?... Please?" He asked, sticking out his lower lip. Lily tried not to look at it, the thought of kissing it away was almost too fresh in her mind.

"And why would I do that?"

"Because I'm the best?"

"Err no, try again"

"Fine! It's cause I'vegotadate"

Lily froze, watching his tanned face get flushed as he once again, tore his fingers through his hair.

She tried to remain unphased and casual and she nodded and croaked

"Oh... With who?"

"Mary"

• • •

"And then he basically DEMANDED that I take over his rounds tonight, so he can go whoring off with Mary."

Lily finished off her rant, Remus's nods and assuring noises helping her vent a little bit.

"Like, there's common courtesy! A little warning, please! Anyways it's not like I care or anything" Lily added but Remus's small smile all-knowing.

"Don't look at me like that Rem" lily sighed, stopping in the middle of the corridor to fold her arms.

"Looking at you like what?" He said, acting coy to the smug look on his scarred face.

"Like- like... Well. I dunno like your not believing a word I'm saying!"

"Do you believe a word your saying?"

Lily scoffed, refusing to even humour the idea. Of course, she was speaking the truth.

The two began walking again, and silently lily cursed Remus for knowing her too well.

"I'm happy for them! Truly! Mary could do better though..."
Lily added, thinking about how plain she was in comparison to the beauty of Mary Macdonald.

"So your not jealous?" Remus added, sounding way too wise for a seventeen-year-old.

"What?! Who said I was-"

"Lily, darling you've been talking about James since we began our rounds - which was-"
He looked down at the small battered watch that he had inherited from his father

"-About two hours ago"

"Bullshit!"

"Lily..."

Lily stopped in her tracks, letting it wash over her.

Potter had changed this year. He took his role as head boy seriously, he no longer hexed first years or played hurtful pranks. He left sev-Snape alone and he had even colour coded the prefect timetable.

He stopped pestering her and asking her out, he stopped with the embarrassing compliments and traded them for genuine sentiments, like making her tea (just how she liked it) every morning, in their shared common room.

He had grown up quite a bit, personality-wise and look wise. Quidditch certainly didn't hurt his body and his boyish smile was rather heart-stopping. Hell, she had even grown fond of his stupid shaggy hair and square-framed specs.

Lily gasped aloud as the realisation hit her, a knight-bus like force slamming into her as she grasped it.

She liked James Potter.

She wanted to snog James potter.

She wanted to shag James potter.

"Remus!" Lily said, looking at her friend - who seemed to be getting exactly what she was thinking.

"See?"

Lily slid down the wall she was leaning on, hugging her knees to her chest.
"Remus- why- didn't you tell me!"

"You couldn't be told lils, you know how you are" he joked, sliding down and joining her.

"Rem this is bad i- I can't like James"

"Welcome to my world" Remus sighs, leaning his head back on the wall

"What? Wait do you like... James?" Lily asked, suddenly protective of the git.

Remus laughed aloud
"Oh Merlin no! That's... Yuck!"

"Hey!"

"Hey yourself woman, your the one who has a crush on prongs"

"And you can relate because?"

Remus flushed and looked down at his lap, fidgeting with the strap of his watch.

It was Lilys turn to smile smugly

"It's Sirius isn't it"

"Yeah I'd say you liking James is quite serious" Remus teased.

Lily lightly slapped him
"You arse"

Remus chuckled and lily leant back, leaning her head on his shoulder, smiling when he leant his atop of hers, sighing.

"I'm right aren't I?"

"Unfortunately"

She grabbed his hand, stroking her thumb over his rough palm
"Oh Remmy what fucking idiots we are, falling for two marauders"

"A pair of right morons"

• • •
Angry wasn't even the START of what Lily was feeling right now, but it was her first reaction.

After her bone-chilling realisation of her attraction and schoolgirl crush on James and Remus's infatuation with a certain black-haired, disowned heir.
They hurried through the rest of their corridors, before retreating to Gryffindor tower, tired and drained from taking on the extra shift.

As they entered the portrait hole, they trudged through the common room, the embers of the fire dying as it was past midnight. The warm glow only increasing Lilys tiredness.

But what she saw on the sofa next to the fire immediately woke her up.
James and Mary - rather violently snogging each other faces off.

Lily and Remus stopped right in their tracks. Lily's heart dropping to her gut. She felt the pure jealously fill her magic as she watched James tenderly running his hands up and down the girls back as she sat in his lap.

Remus's jaw gaped open and he looked immediately at Lily, seeing the anger fill her as she clenched her fists.

Lily coughed, loudly - startling the two and immediately drawing their attention to the two standing Infront of them.

James looked like a deer in the headlights - frozen as he immediately looked at Lily's furious expression.

"It's past curfew" Lily spat, unable to stop the pure jealousy from leaving her mouth.

Mary giggled, hopping off of James's lap and pecking his cheek

"Sorry Miss Evans, I will be returning to my dorm room immediately! no need to threaten our precious points!" Mary tried to joke, but only resulting in angering Lily further.

she waved goodbye to James, who was still sat on the sofa - as she hopped up the stairs, leaving the three in the common room.

James awkwardly rose, feeling Lily's burning stare on him, her eyes sparkling as the anger radiating off of her.

James tried desperately to not let it affect him, seeing Lily this angry was certainly a turn-on and this wasn't the time.

"Evans, Moony," he said, flashing an awkward smile which Remus exchanged for a sympathetic one as he headed for the boy's dorms.

"night lils, night prongs," he said, leaving the two before things got too ugly.

Lily nodded bye, not trusting her words. She turned to see the guilty ridden expression of James as he tugged his fingers through his hair once more.

"Sorry, you had to see us. i-" James began, the soft expression filling his face making Lily almost forgive him.
almost

"so this is why I needed to cover for you? so you can shag Mary? James, I'm not gonna take over for you whenever you want a quick screw!" lily bickered, seeing James flush over her word choice.

"Lily-"

"don't you take this seriously James?! I mean come on-"

"Seriously? you don't think I'm taking this seriously? Evans all I've been doing all year is take this fucking seriously!" James suddenly snapped back.

"Oh what? highlighting a schedule! wow, James you truly deserve an order of merlin, for doing the bare FUCKING minimum!" lily spat back, leaning forward - trying to seem intimidating even though he towered over her.

"Oh piss off Evans," James said, storming off - towards the corridor that led to their head boy/girl dormitory.

Lily, who wasn't letting him have the last word, stormed right after him, following him into their shared common space in the dorm.

"I piss off? you piss off! I'm sick of thinking you've changed and then you pull shit like this!"

"Lily what the fuck are you on about?! all I've done is change! I've done an effing 360! and what suddenly I'm a wank cause I asked you cover ONE round?!"

Lily stopped, realising she was definitely in the wrong. He hadn't done ANYTHING. except for he had done everything.

"well-"

"Lily please enlighten me.. why the fuck are you pissed off? cause you were perfectly fine earlier!"

"I'm pissed because-"

Lily paused

I'm pissed off because you don't like me anymore. You stopped liking me and it's driving me insane. I'm pissed off because you look so good right now. I'm pissed off because it should be ME in your lap and not Mary.

"because? please, Lily, tell me I'm simply DYING to know"

"It's just-... it's.." lily stopped, suddenly defeated, realising there was no logical reason why she should be pissed.

"Lily you've got to be kidding me right now" James groaned, pinching his nose.

"it should be me." lily said whispering. a ghost of a whisper. she must have looked like a huffy child - her arms crossed as she pouted about sharing something that was never hers.

James paused, registering her words slowly

"What?"

Lily looked up, seeing the puzzled look on his face, the glow of their shared fire making his olive skin look simply divine and combined with his idiotic hair she tried her best not to let it all pour out.

"it. should. be. me."
lily repeated, creeping closer to the boy, breathing in his stupid smell of parchment and sweat.

She saw it clicking for the boy, what exactly she was saying and he immediately became angry once again.

"No."

Lily, taken aback, crossed her arms again, raising an eyebrow.

"No?"

"No!"

James tugged a hand through his hair and began his rant

"lily- you don't- you don't GET to say things like that to me! not after- just. NO!"

"why not!" lily said, hands now on her hips and her eyes boring into his face

"Because- I'm trying to- I'm trying to stop fucking LOVING you lily!" he screamed, pointing at her with his hands

"I've loved you for SO long lily, so long that it physically hurts! and you've made it CRYSTAL clear that it will never- and then as soon as I'm TRYING you go and- NO!"

"what are you gonna do if I don't stop? huh? what you gonna do Potter? hex me? Avada me?"

Lily crept closer to the boy, she could now smell his shitty Muggle cologne that he begged his dad for, she could now see the faintest of moles on his face.

"I'll- I'll...." James stammered, the closeness getting to him.

"you'll?" lily got even closer whispering in his ear, letting her lips ghost the lobe

"James...." lily whispered in his ear, pulling away to not see the sweaty boy she expected but seeing a steely looking James, the lust burning in his eyes.

It was sudden, James grabbed her face, cupping her cheeks and slamming their lips together. She immediately reciprocated, slinging her arms around his neck and pressing herself against him.

"fuck... Evans..."
James breathed against her lips, only encouraging lily more, she deepened the kiss, letting him win the battle for dominance, as he lowered one hand and let it wrap around her waist.

the two pulled apart, and reality hit lily, realising what they had just done. She just snogged James.

she had just snogged James

"um- night!" she said, springing out of his grasp and practically flying to her room, slamming the door shut and leaving one horny and confused James out in the common area.

She leaned against her door, her pulse racing as she could hear the heartbeat thumping in her ears.

She had just snogged James Potter
And she liked it.
She REALLY liked it.

A/N
Not sure whether to make this multi-chaptered or not....
Anyways in my jily phase and they are just.

(uploaded onto Ao3 under liaskisses!)