Day 11

I was panicked when I heard those noisy— shouting at someone. When I double-check, it is just my aunt who talks to someone over the phone. I took a deep breath and went back to the room he told me about. Honestly, I don't know what my situation will be here, I hope I won't be separated from my family because I can't, I am not ready for that.

I was looking in a mirror, it is big like you can see your wholeness. Hey self, stop overthinking. You can do this; you are not alone. God is with us; He is with you. I smiled after that and looked around. I noticed that I have a single bed, a study table and a cabinet with a small electric fan. “Do I need to stay here?” I speak even if no one will answer me. I decided to sit in my smooth and soft bed. Likewise, I just talk to Him. “If this is for me, please let me know to give me a sign.”

While hoping that He will answer me in a different way, I received a message from my sister.

My Sister

Hey little sister, how are you? I hope you’re fine and you can do it. Go! Keep fighting. I am sorry…

Received
09.04.2021

Reading her text message makes my heart melt. She is Maria, my big sister. To be honest, I sulk at her because she should be the one doing this, but I can't blame her either because maybe we have different fates.

I am ready myself so that later I will be ready in case my work starts. Even though I'm nervous and scared, I know I'm not alone, God will not leave me alone. I have also arranged some of my things here. I will be staying here, I don't know how many days, but I hope my mental health can handle it.

Likewise, I also know that everything happens for a reason, whatever my reason is, I will be ready. This is life, there are many trials to go through and face.

“I can do it; this is the beginning of my journey.” Until someone knocked on the door.

“Aleesia, are you done?” My aunt said.

Before I left this room, I took a deep breath.

“Oh, you're here. By the way, for the meantime, just rest until tomorrow. You start on Monday. Are you ready?”

I pretend. “Yes, auntie, I am ready!”