Day 9

I was voiceless when I heard it. I don’t know how, when, and why, but I feel bad for myself. The scenario is so quick. After knowing that my mom has already decided on my position in the job, I don’t know what to do. I know they need money as of now, but specifically, they forget to inform me.

I am now here in my room, thinking and crying because even though my goal is to help them, they still abandon me.

My tears were overflowing, I feel that I am not part of our family because of that fast decision without my opinion. Until someone knocks on my door.

“Wait a minute!” I shouted and wiped my tears.

Then my sister opened the door and came to me. “Hello sister? Are you okay?” she asked me with a worried face.

I did not speak or say anything. My tears betrayed me, it overflowed again like a shower, it was non-stop.

“I understand your pain. Sometimes parents are heartless, but I believe they know what is better.” My sister explained while trying to calm me down.

I breathe and hug her because I feel the heavy burden right now.

“It’s okay to cry, it’s okay to not be okay and release it. Your emotions are valid, Alessia.” She smiled.

“Thank you, sister! I hope that soon our mom will be vocal and make sure she always communicates with us.”

“If ever not, be brave and do what’s better.”