Next day: Detention.

It's been a long day and I'm finally glad it's detention. I've never really been here before but one thing I know is that it's isolated. I tick by name on the paper on the door, booking myself in.

I enter the class looking left and right before sitting down. I hope the teacher who's invigilating isn't mean to me.

I set my things on the table trying to study for the music history test that's tomorrow.

To my surprise the librarian teacher walks in very slowly and sits down. She takes her time to open her book and put on her reading glasses, completely ignoring my presence quietly reading her book.

I do the same, going back to my studying, or should I say making  copy notes. The way I've been missing classes isn't funny anymore. It's really disappointing knowing that the class went forward without me and now are on a different topic. It's time to self study and hopefully pass.

There's a gentle knock on the door before a couple of students enter. I barely look at the group that enters before the chair beside me gets filled.

"Hey," I look up meeting Taehyung's eyes and box smile.

I just smile not really in any mood. Maybe it's a bit rude.

A snort comes from the back. Judging by the way it came out I can say it's  Jungkook. I'm right, turning around and seeing his irritated glare fixed on me is uncomfortable.

"There are no cameras around so just greet back instead of being stuck up,"

I try to clear up the misunderstanding but he just won't let me speak. "Jungkook I-"

"You know what Yoona, I pictured you all wrong. I thought you were different but now I see you're like everybody else. Fake," He snickers. "I really wish you weren't like this, we could've become great friends."

"Kookie-"

"Don't call me that. You lost that privilege a long time ago-"

Taehyung turns to his friend to try and stop him. "Dude that isn't cool,"

"Just like her,"

I shake my head holding in my tears and standing up moving further away from them.

Huh, Jungkook thinks now I'm putting on an act for people's approval.

I don't care anymore, if people want to attack me then they can. It's not worth putting up a front when nobody wants to know you.

•

The next day...

"YOONA~!"

I open my eyes staring at the ceiling remembering the dream I had.

I thought I broke up with Hoseok. I thought my curse was over. I thought that I could be normal again but no. I knew it was too good to be true, when he just let me off easy like that. I shouldn't have believed that it was easy. It was a lie. It was fake.

Till this day I'm haunted by dreams of falling off cliffs or landing in a cage with his animal form as he snarls ready to devour me. It's not normal and I don't like it. In my dreams, Jimin's light side no longer appears. It's dark everywhere, just like my room.

The time is already 6am. I don't feel like going to school. What's the point anyway?

I'm no longer a leader, my marks are practically dropping to shame, my own friends are non existent, all the teachers have this grudge on me and worst of all the stares I get. My dad was right, normal school isn't normal. You have to face crisis that stand in front of you and your studies. I should've never been so hyped or pumped for school. After all, I'll still leave and non of them will remember me.

I miss being taught at home. All this drama seriously isn't worth it.

I snuggle deeper in my blanket not even bothering to dry the tears from my eyes.

The worst that could happen today, since I'm not going to school, is that I'll fail that music history test. Miss Kim will be really happy to grade me a fail. As for the English teacher Mrs Will, well her injury apparently is because of that burn I gave her. Mr Jae will most likely continue with his shameful deeds behind doors..and Mr Kwon. He's the only teacher who genuinely cares.. I guess. Mr Hyland.. well I haven't really been paying attention to him. Besides the teachers, nothing else awaits me.

•

I open my eyes stretching my hands. I look at the window sighing when I see it's still light outside. I stuff my face back into the pillow grabbing my laptop from underneath my bed.

The bright screen annoys me for a bit before I adjust the brightness. Into the search bar I type: Wattpad /

I remember once So-hye told me that it's the best way to loose yourself in a book and drown out all your problems. Even though she's no longer my friend, I'll still keep the Kim sisters lessons. So why not try it right now?

I create an account that's simple. Y.

There's a bunch of loops that I have to fill in. I search in for a romantic comedy already attracted to one book: Holiday Affair {-jiminthighs}

Immediately I'm doubled over in laughter dying. The book is so funny. For a pure 4 hours I forget all my problems as I die in the Wattpad swarm. So many books to choose from, so many amazing authors and best of all an awesome community. I join a few clubs where I'm quickly accepted. I sit up on my bed reading through conversations and reading books just enjoying myself. No stress, no worries. And no real life interactions- I'm afraid that once these random strangers see me they might want to leave me all alone, the same way my real so called friends left me.

Later on, I find myself on Google (again) downloading the next season of The Flash season 5. I've been watching this without Jimin... It hurts knowing that those were the good times when everything was normal. When did it all go down hill?

I was normal. Never got into fights, barely said a word but now, it's all different.

I don't know who I am anymore...

I shake my head dusting those thoughts away. This is supposed to be my moment to relax. I begin watching the first episode already feeling goosebumps on my skin. This Nora girl is suspicious

•

My room gets darker and I switch on the lights. My stomach grumbles. I've been neglecting food, a bath and some air- it's so damn stuffy in here.

I exit my room still in my night gown. The house is light and looks very clean. Probably the maids doing there job. I enter in the kitchen ignoring the cook who's there. She's Sunmi's friend and right now I'm not too happy with Sunmi.

I open the fridge looking for something that will make me very full. Red velvet cake, some samosas and a packet of topper biscuits. Placing them all in the tray I take a sneak peek into the alcohol closet. My gaze shifts between apple appetizer and actually liquor. I bite my lip going to the liquor side seeing a whole bottle of vodka.

Umm.. okay.. new begins.

I dive back into my room locking the door. I go to my mp3 player checking out my playlist.. all whack songs.

I type into Google: Best Trap Songs /

Before I know it. The lights are off and the base is on full volume as I begin to jump or doing whatever dance {Any trap songs you know or aesthetic beats}.

I open the vodka lightly taking a sip shockingly slamming myself into the wall as my eyes twitch.

That's some hot stuff.

I force it down my throat again gagging but still swallowing. For a while I'm standing not moving. Allowing all my problems to hit me hard before downing another swig of vodka.

"Mmmhhhmmm," I feel my non existent butt shaking with me trying to sing the lyrics. "Just hit me up! Late night, late night!"

[M/N: I know that drinking a whole bottle of vodka can and will kill you but let's just pretend]

•

The next morning I have an enormous headache not feeling the need to do anything. I roll around on my bed tangling the blanket around me trying not to scream at the pounding in my head.

I can't focus on anything right now but the headache. I pick up my phone from my bedside, which has been charging since yesterday. I quickly unplug turning around to the other side bumping into my laptop.

11:37

My eyes enlarge and I shake my head going back under my pillow.

School isn't worth it.

It never is. The one thing that's worth getting up for is to pee. I groan as I stand up walking lanky to my door unlocking it.

Before I make it to the bathroom I spot Sunmi on the opposite side. Her eyes widen when she sees me. "Yoona? Why aren't you at school?"

I ignore her going in the toilet taking my daily pee.  I wash my hands going out before being stopped by Sunmi and her folded arms. I roll my eyes walking away from her.

"Your father suffers from high blood pressure as you know. I was with him in his office when he got a call from your school." She says. I stop in my steps listening closely to what she's saying. "Whatever that teacher said to him caused him to have a heart attack right on the spot."

I rapidly turn to her trying not to scream at the dropsy feeling making me dizzy. "Why are you still telling me this?"

She sighs taking a few steps forward. "Later on in the hospital he just dropped to the floor completely unconscious. The doctors say he needs to reduce his stress."

"Let me guess, I'm the one he needs to reduce?" I ask.

Sunmi shakes her head walking closer but I halt her with my hand.

I already feel enraged. "Sunmi I don't care if my dad got engaged to you, the fact is you can't tell me what to do,"

I leave her in the hall slamming my bedroom door and locking it. I slide down the wall screaming my lungs out both annoyed at the headache and what I'm doing to myself. I screech pulling my hair before I burst out crying not being able to control myself.

•

Friday

Today is the Review and here I am on my bed staring at the ceiling.

I wonder how all the acts will do from the dancing to the singing all the way to the artists. I wish I took the Review seriously and actually followed through with practicing. I'm feeling bad for leaving Jimin and Hoseok hanging like that.

I sigh loudly my hands going to my face.

I've disappointed so many people. Nobody is even willing to forgive me even after trying. I don't know what to do anymore but drink. Yeah that's my life now, vodka and some lemon on my bedside my lil junkies with red velvet cake and samosas. My phone and laptop tangled somewhere on the bed and I'm always in this night gown that I haven't changed since.. I think Tuesday?

It's better this way. I'm not annoying or avoiding anyone. I like being alone in my own company. Nobody telling me anything.

It feels like I'm in a coma. Dead

By the time I turn my own head I feel a tear roll down. Well I guess that's it, my last drop for today. I've been crying for so long that there's literally nothing left, no more tears to cry.

•

Sunday

BANG! BANG! BANG! BANG! BANG! BANG!

Yoona~

The afternoon shade of pink hue and orange hit my eyes. 

I don't know what's more terrifying, the sound of someone behind my door or the dream that I just had. Some old dream of me being tormented by a familiar voice in the dark room.

"YOONA! OPEN THIS DOOR RIGHT NOW!"

The sound of my dad's voice breaks me away from the bed and rushing to the door. I frankly open the door embracing my dad in a tight hug.

I don't know what comes over me but I break down. A whole river pours from my eyes to his feet. My legs can't carry me anymore as I lay on the floor huddled in my own tears.

Yoona~

I forcefully open my eyes looking around me. I'm on my bed under my covers. I quickly shift away looking to the door that is still closed. Wasn't my father just there?

I quickly exit my room heading upstairs to my father's room. I trip a bit on my feet but still run towards his room.

As I open the door I'm shocked and nearly scream. It's clean.. meaning he still hasn't come home and he's at the hospital. I need somebody right now, I need my dad. I can't go through this alone.

But you're not alone~

"JUST DIE ALREADY! TAKE ME TO HELL! I'M DONE! I'M THROUGH WITH THIS!"

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M/n
Sorry for the jump in days, it's just a filler.
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