The energy is awful but I can't help it. I've become more afraid of myself then any other person because in me there's something bigger and colder. The Yoona in me is meaner then Hoseok, my demon. I try not to fight her because she's strong.

She hurts me.

I'm not in control of my own body. I'm trapped within myself in a cage made of roses tormented by her lazily walking figure.

She and Hoseok are planning something and all I can think about is Jimin telling me to do the right thing.

Do what is right. Remember that.

I face the dark ceiling feeling a wave of hot flames pouring all over me. The fire doesn't hurt anymore, only when I try to resist. I've gotten used to the little children's voices in my head.

Against my will, I stand up walking to my window. I never know what she's thinking or doing I just feel it. We aren't connected when she leads and controls or as she says, conquers.

It feels almost draining that I can't feel myself being controlled by a demon.

A light fog swirls around my room making it impossible to see.  My nerves begin to shake but that does not frighten the demonic Yoona.

I feel her moving towards the fog completely ignoring my pleads. She steps in the mist and is taken into a darker room. She lands on her feet.

Appearing from the darkness, is a scary animal covered in hairy blood. That stench wreaks!

The animal jumps out of the dark caging the demonic Yoona underneath it turning into a human.

"Yoona~"

Hold up. The voice. That voice. That voice belongs to non other then-

"Hoseok~"

I knew it!

"Yes my queen," his voice is deep, cuddling into me. "I've waited for long. What's stopping you from being with me?"

"Oh Hoseok," she coils. "Just wait a little longer. All her stars are in my hand. I need the last one and tomorrow she'll give it to me,"

"How sure are you that she'll give it to you? That she'll do what we planned?" Hoseok growls lightly patting my hair.

"She will and the best part, is that she won't know. She wants control of herself," I..she smiles. "All I need from you baby is be calm."

The little kids laugh again, the roses shake around the cage and lastly Hoseok howls loudly.

I have to try and break this curse.

•

The next morning I surprisingly wake up as myself not feeling like I'm locked up in a cage. I also feel empty and weird, I'm feeling hot inside and heavy all around. Yep, this pain is familiar to the times when Hoseok was mad with me.

When I enter in the bathroom the floor is cold, giving me some relief and assurance that it really is me. Although when I walk past the mirror I notice her.

I eye myself in the mirror.

The demon stares back. Observing, keeping watch..marking.

Although it's my face reflecting back, I see past the eyes and mouth to a crooked tooth bloody face with hair that's covered in black slime.

Her name is...Yoona.

All the hate that was built in me and all the times I obeyed to her, she became a part of me until her true colours came out. Revealing this bloody ugly she woman.

I wanted safety but not this kind. Not like this.

Blinded and fooled by his delicate fingers, the same fingers to rip my soul and take it away.

All this time, I truly was in danger but couldn't see it was right in front of me.. In me.

To become like her.

Today, for the first time in a while I have control over myself. I believe that now.

I have to make it out.

"Get out." I order.

Make me.

I hear a sinister laugh that echo's in my head.

Where did Jimin poo take you?

"Heaven."

You're still coming with me to hell

"I'd like to see you try me,"

Is that a threat? Yoona dear you're not in positions to make threats when I am the one who inflicts pain. You don't realise it but I am your tear, your fear, everything that you don't like and want. I am here to ruin you and claim this body.

"I'm keeping my body and you will go back to hell."

She laughs. You will loose and I will make you my bitch in hell.

•

I walk outside to the car with my flats still feeling slightly dizzy. My hair in a tight bun and my school uniform in check. Never thought I'd wear this long dress again, I thought I even threw it away. So is my blazer, I finally found it and it's clear again.

I know what I'm doing today. I'm going to break amends with Hoseok and end this toxic relationship that he's made me go through for so long.

"Good morning madam,"

I jump hearing my drivers voice. "Oh..good morning to you too,"

It's been so long since I've felt myself actually being myself. Hearing people much clear and having colour back to my vision instead of it always being black and white.

"Good day today, I assume,"

I nod my head taking in a deep breath.

I can do it. If not for myself then for everyone I love. I've put everyone through hell and lost lots of bonds, trust and respect.

Making amends with everybody in order to forgive myself is what I'm gonna do today.

•

I wait in the secret parking lot of the guys. Seolhyun is already here and just as I stand by the car pole Jimin's car brushes past some trees entering in the area.

He parks his car and gets out. I can barely look at him as a human being but then he decided to be an angel and traumatize me more. He takes his school bag and with a little smile he nods his head at my direction walking in the school.

I don't even know if I trust Jimin after knowing him for a short period, but he revealed so much to me more then anyone ever had. Hoseok has been in me for all my life and I've always believed that I was safe with him, that I needed nothing else but him. So that makes me trust Jimin more.

My eyes had been closed for so long that I can't even tell what's right and wrong anymore. I can only tell that my life is toxic. Everyone tried warning me, Seolhyun, Min-yo, Kai even Jungkook.
I didn't know that the one who gave me power was also the one to make me weak.

After waiting for a while the engine of the Lamborghini roars and parks right next to Jimin's car. He comes out, Namjoon smiles at me.

Oh no, what ever happened to him while he was in that trance.

"Hey Yoona," he greets me smiling brightly.

I awkwardly laugh with his arm around my shoulder. Hoseok comes closer and Namjoon leaves.

"Hey babe," he kisses my cheek. "That was a really good trick you did on Namjoon. Took me hours to crack him out of his fantasy," he chuckles. His eyes go up and down my figure noticing my being. "You look different today,"

He notes. How ironic that he would tell me I'm not different, but today he's the one saying it.

I look into his eyes taking in the brown that tries to cling on me.

"Hoseok," I start looking away. "I... It won't be easy for me and you'll think it's strange, when I try to explain how I feel,"

He holds both my hands and tilts his head to the side. "Say it babygirl,"

"I want to break up with you,"

His eyebrow furrows upwards and he chuckles. "Want?"

"I mean, I can't be with you anymore. We have to break up,"

His face shows no reaction instead a little smile plays on his lips.

"You are toxic and now I know that. I'm sorry Hoseok but...I don't want you in my life anymore. Literally and figuratively. Neither in my head or have any control over me ever again," I say. "I want out. Breach the deal. Please,"

The smile still rests on his face and he nods his head letting my hands go.

"So?" I ask lightly.

"You're free to go,"

I frown. I didn't think it'd be this easy at all. He's just letting me go without a reason?

"Hoseok-"

He presses his lips on my forehead and mumbles in my ear giving me a brief hug. "It was sweet while it lasted,"

And then right before my eyes his body vanishes to mist. My mouth hangs open but I step back trying to go back to the school and leave all that crazy out side. He just disappeared into thin air!

I can't believe it's really over. I thought it'd be hard.

I find my register class and enter inside. Mr Xumin isn't yet here..in fact I don't know when last I entered this class.

I've been so busy bunking classes and not attending register. I might get a suspension for this. It's okay though, right now I should be accepting punishments.

A few people look at me but I rush to the back with my head down avoiding everyone's eyes. Choa's annoying laugh can be heard along with Sowon.

This feels like milk throwing all over again. I take a seat next to my partner, Changkyun.

"Hey stranger," he greets with a smile. Never gonna forget that bass.

"Hey," I smile back.

"It's been a while hei,"

I laugh in response nodding my head. I look ahead feeling negative energy.

Jimin is right in front of me. His black hair nicely combed and his maroon blazer, well it's still the same as before. I just hope too that our friendship can still be the same after I'm done cleaning my mess.

I guess, it's back to square one.

"Would you look at that," Mr Xumin's voice taps me out of my thoughts. "Miss Kim has suddenly joined us today,"

He looks at me and I nervously smile looking back to my fingers on my lap. These nails look so much longer and clean and filed then how they looked back then, chapped. I guess this is cool.

"You've been 'absent' for almost a month now. Lucky you our honour student spotted you," I face back to Jimin's head smiling.

"Thank you for coming to class today," Mr Xuimin smirks.

I nod my head not even saying a pip.

"Alright Chen, you're taking the register today," he says. I furrow my eyebrows as he walks out the class.

Some other guy that I've never really seen before stands up with a weird smile and begins reading the names.

He gets to my name and I raise my hand. "Her-"

He looks up and smirks. "It's either you here or you not!"

"I'm here. I'm here." I frown at how loud he's being.

I see Jimin's head moving to his direction but he doesn't say anything.

"That's right," Chen smirks. "You're not the only baddie now,"

I glare at him but strangely I'm not feeling any movements in me. Hoseok should've - oh.

My eyes close and I put my head on the table as he goes on. My eyes feel so droopy and I allow them to close for a little bit.

•

I'm walking on a dark road. My body moving on it's own. My feet have no shoes but oddly they tap on the ground as if I had. I try looking back only to be ripped back to the front. I stop walking noticing the road is not finished, still under construction.

I snap my head to the direction of little kids laughing. Not this again. My whole body lunges forward and I scream falling.

Yoona~

"Yoona!"

I jolt up clutching my heart. My lips tremble.

"Yoona?"

I turn my head to the voice of Namjoon. He chuckles and rubs my shoulder. "Did you just get a morning nightmare?"

I nervously laugh with him looking around to the empty class.

"C'mon let's go to class,"

•

Break time:

I nervously walk through the doors of the cafeteria. I can't help but feel like everyone is talking about me or judging me. My heart beats rapidly while scanning the cafeteria.

So-hye, Min-Yo and Kai are sat near the glass window very far from where we usually sit. I quietly make my way to their table. Min-Yo is the first to notice me and shuts her mouth quickly.

"What do you want?" So-hye asks clearly irritated.

Before I can even reply or sit down Min-Yo stands up and grips my arm. "You're not welcomed here."

My eyes enlarge and I feel like crying. "Guys I'm so-"

"Save it and leave us alone." Min-Yo says sitting back down and speaking to Kai and So-hye about other things completely ignoring my presence and going on as if nothing happened. I turn on my heel heading to the table where I see JB and Mark and the others.

Momo snickers while seeing me and I quickly leave the cafeteria feeling uneasy.

Never once have I ever thought about going to the toilets during break time. But here I am huddled by the sink pretending to wash my hands every time someone comes. Other then that I refrain from looking at the mirror seeing a quirked up smile on the face of Demon Yoona.

It's only for today. Tomorrow everything will fall into place. I keep telling myself.

•

I head to the last class of the day spotting a familiar face that I haven't seen in a long time. Someone who I'm not even happy to see. The Bi something teacher. The teacher who wanted to call my dad because I was being 'rude'

She spots me and frowns intensely. I head over to my seat behind Namjoon and sigh.

Please let there be no drama.

I pray.

"Good afternoon class, as you can see Mrs Will your English teacher isn't here. Therefore I'll be the sub teacher-"

"Miss Porsha!" Some random kid yells causing the whole class to laugh.

She gives a firm look, clearing her throat. "I'm Miss Bi Micha but in short Miss Bi."

The class falls in deep silence as she hands out work for us to do. After a while the noise climax begins to rise.

All through out the time I keep my head on the table avoiding any obstacle that will draw her attention to me. Namjoon however doesn't get it as he turns behind his seat and asks questions here and there about the work. I answer in short answers trying to help him but also not trying to get the teachers attention.

I still can't believe Namjoon has a crush on me. It's cute at the same time kind of funny.

"Sit down!" Miss Bi screeches to the girls in front of her. "Sit! Sit! Sit!"

I quickly put my head back down avoiding her.

"You bloody little things are making a ruckus! Can't you hear yourselves!"

The class isn't even that loud but yet she's screaming.

"Hey! Are you so bored that you have to sleep?!"

I quickly sit up grabbing my pen pretending to work. I hear a few people laughing silently as I shyly pretend to work again.

"Do you think this is funny?" She asks.

Namjoon fidgets in his seat making me look at him. The target. "Me ma'am?"

"No." She moves away from her desk coming down the isle to Namjoon and stops by... "You!" She points at my head.

"You know what? Leave."

I gap my mouth open staring at her. First of all I didn't laugh and I bet she knows that. Secondly I know that I shouldn't fight back and just surrender but this makes me mad.

I stand up without much activity picking up my bag and the work papers on the table.

"Oh and guess what?"

I turn around looking at her smug smile. "I still have the number that you gave me for your father. So I'm going to use it,"

"Please don't-,"

"BLOODY GET OUT!!"

I walk out the class finally letting out a long sigh. My back slides down the wall. I put my hands on my face shaking my head.

Now I know my dad will loose his mind.

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