[Dream]

~"My spiritual crystal."

I'm knelt down with my hands on my thighs as I sing to an empty dark auditorium. It feels and seems like it's the day of the review. However, everything is dark and it's empty. I choose to ignore the oddness and close my eyes, allowing myself to continue singing.

~ "I can't find myself anymore
I want things like they were before.
But I don't know myself anymore.
With you love was simple
My spiritual crystal
But now life is limbo
I'll wait for tomorrow"

The spotlight bursts open forcing me to open my eyes. A dark spirit appears in the middle of the stage and begins dancing. As it dances it turns to a form, a human body form. Hoseok. He dances to my acoustic performance with all white clothes. His dance to my song is electric and hard.

He lets my voice lead him as he dances for a purpose...to be noticed. I continue singing.

~"Ohhhh continental drifter
Still I'm hero in my hometown
Now I'm all layed up with you
Sentimental trickster
Maybe in another life time
Life time
Life"~

Another spirit appears and dances behind Hoseok. Just by technique I can immediately tell that the figure dancing is Jimin. His face is still foggy but I already know it's him. And by chance Jimin appears, standing behind Hoseok. He follows the same movements, the same contemporary dance as Hoseok but there's more...life and meaning to his dance.

His eyes, like Hoseok, are focused on mine as he too is also waiting to be noticed. I close my eyes and keep singing.

~"I'm clinging for my life line
Life line
Life,"

They do a flip and both land on opposite sides of the stage still facing me. There's a spotlight beam for each of us. A pure bright white with golden flick, a miracle blue light on Hoseok and a dark almost red light on Jimin that blends with the darkness.

They both concentrate in dancing on the empty and soundless stage.

I stare right ahead my eyes adjusting to the darkness.

There's a crowd, hooded figured men.

My heart pounces and I feel myself standing up. My feet slowly move forward, instantly making both boys turn towards me bringing their hand out.

I'm bewildered for a moment and look to what they are offering me.

Jimin's hand reveals a red blindfold

Hoseok's hand reveals a blue blindfold

"Come to me." The both say.

[End of dream]

•

I rub my eyes tiredly, confused about what I dreamt. "What did I just dream about?"

I scratch my head sitting up on my bed. My room in pure darkness. I check the clock on my phone and see it's 2:46 am.

Too creeped to fall back asleep, I swing my legs off the bed and head downstairs. Creeping quickly to the kitchen, I don't bother turning any of the lights on and just drink water.

The darkness in a weird way, keeps me safe. I have no worries with the absences of light anymore.

As I head upstairs I spot some light another hallway. My dad's study room still displays a lit lamp. I hope he's still not busy at this hour.

Soundlessly making my way towards the door seeing its slightly open. A see movement and hear a low pitched voice which captures my attention. I stop near the door peeking inside.

Sunmi strongly in view, straddling someone. My eyes enlarge when a pair of familiar rough hands embrace her soft back. That! Witch! At 2am? Really?

My heart drops and so does my jaw.

She straddles my dad her head tilted to the side.

Low moans coming from her as he kisses her neck... I stumble back by the disturbing sight that has probably scarred me forever. My heart in distress I run up to my room, slightly closing the door. A figure emerges from the dark corner of my room and stands forward.

I guess this is Hoseok's new way of interacting with me.. It's like he just appears in the dark shadows.

His dark and shiny hand stretches out. I grip onto it and walk closer placing my head on his shoulders.

Don't worry about it Yoona~

"Hoseok. I don't know what's going on now, I'm so lost. In everything. Nothing is making sense."

He's quiet while his fingers roam around my back. Being this close to him makes me feel warm. He carries me to the bed and lays me down.

"I've been getting warnings like crazy from everyone.. Even Seolhyun. Hoseok is this right? Is what I'm doing right?"

He smiles down at me and I return a hesitant smile. I grip his white blouse and bring him in for a peck on the lips.

"As right and perfect as right now.."

His smile never ending as he leans closer to my face.

•

At school

When Dramatic Arts period ends Hoseok tells me to go to the Dance studio. It's right next to the music class.

I stand by the door waiting patiently for Hoseok. Finally he walks out bearing the biggest smile on his face.

Hoseok always laughs but not like J-hope. J-hope is too happy too extra, while Hoseok is dark, with extra dark humour, laughing to himself about Lawd knows what and he is extremely more than what J-hope is.

His human form defiantly blends in with everyone. In fact his human form is the exact opposite of who he is. J-hope and Hoseok, completely different but yet one person.

I take in his appearance. Toned body, strong jaw line, long face and built in smile.

"Yoona!" He yells in excitement. He hugs me lifting me up.

I automatically bring my arms around his neck feeling his breath by my ear.

"Yaa! J-hope leave Yoona alone. Your squeezing the life out of her!" I hear Jungkook saying behind me. 'J-hope' puts me down but rests his hands on my waist.

What am I squeezing if you don't have any life left? I am your life.

I hear his voice in my head.
Both my hands still on his broad shoulders.

"How are you feeling?" J-hope asks softly in a bubbly tone.

I'm feeling much better now that you're here. I answer in my head.

"Cheesey~" he sings out loud in his J-hope voice.

"C'mon Hobbie. Don't be weird." Jungkook rips me away so that I face him.

He smiles and scratches his head. "If you're ready to go to math, I'll follow you,"

I loop my arm around Jungkook walking with him. I can see his cheeks tinting pink. I laugh slightly turning back to Hoseok. He secretly blows a kiss and I accept it.

I spot Jimin with his head down and he passes Hoseok walking the opposite direction.

He didn't even look at me..

The Yoona in me is crying out, screaming his name. I try forcing my head away but I feel my heart aching. The weak old Yoona in me is pushing with her whole strength.

Ji-Jimin!

He stops in his tracks turning around. Our eyes meet..I can feel myself giving into his stare but I sharply turn around breathing heavily.

"Y-Yoona? Are you okay?" Jungkook holds me tightly. I nod my head feeling slightly weak.

"Don't worry Kook," Hoseok holds my hips from behind. "I got her,"

Jungkook glares at Hoseok but let's go of my arm. I turn to Hoseok gripping his hands. "I don't want to be weak, but his eyes..pierce me."

Hoseok smiles kissing my lips. The kiss is long as his fingers tangle in my hair and bring me close. He licks my lips breaking the kiss, "Be strong," he smirks and let's go of me and runs to his class. "See you babe,"

I regain my confidence standing straighter. The hallway is empty and I know I'm late for class. Mr Hyland is going to have a raging fit.

I'm quickly yanked by my arm into a closet. The door closes and I look at the culprit.

My heart beats through my chest, I feel butterflies in my stomach by his soft smile. His eyes are hurt but he's still smiling.

Hoseok's kiss of strength seems to be fading away as I take in Jimin's smile.

"L-let me go-"

"No." He says. He presses both his hands on my shoulder. "Look at me Yoona,"

There's a force I feel that pushes me to look in his eyes. I try resisting but the Yoona in me does not stop until eventually my eyes are on him. His light greyish bluish? Eyes..

I can feel my heart slowing down and my mouth burning.

"It's okay..it's okay," He assures. "I won't hurt you-"

I bite my lip not being able to withstand the sours around my mouth. "Jimin I said let me go!"

My mouth burns with every word I say.

"I can't let you go since you called me,"

"I..."

We stare into each others eyes and I feel anger and pain and sadness and happiness but the one that stands strong is..regret.

"You only hear me now?" I ask being conflicted and overruled by the Yoona in me. So when she's in pain she's able to have over power me? I need to destroy this weak Yoona.

He shakes his head. "I-"

I push him back feeling my strength slowly coming back and Yoona's weak body going back inside.

"You made it clear that you can't leave me. So I'll leave you." I pull the door open not looking back.

Nooo!

I dial down the scream in me and bite my lip. Walking with my head high.

By force, I'm shoved back onto the wall with Jimin right in my face.

"Can't you see I'm trying to save you Yoona!"

I look away from his eyes, allowing enough anger to build in me so that I won't be able to loose strength.

"I've been trying so hard to be patient with you but your just too stubborn. You don't realise it but I'm not the one hurting you and once you realise who it is, you'll be broken and let down again." He let's me go. "I'm done trying! I'm done."

He frustratedly brushes his hand on his head turning around mumbling, "I'm done. I'm done. I'm done."

Don't leave me.

Shut it! Let him go! Finally he can stop caging me in his presence and let me be!

I roll my eyes still striding and taking my time to get to class. I get near to his class and I spot Mr Hyland leaving the class. I sneak in the class catching everyone's attention.

"Your Queen has returned," I state to the faces looking at me, causing a few chuckles.

I take my seat taking out a random book..actually this book is no longer random. I've been too lazy carrying around all those books and sheets so I decided to just stuff all my work in one book and prasco the random book.

"What are we doing?" I ask Jungkook. He stops writing and faces me.

It's a stare contest as he does nothing but observes every inch of my face.

"Kookie?"

He chuckles sarcastically and shakes his head. "There used to be a lot of cuteness to that nickname, I loved when you called me that. But now, it's revolting,"

"Pardon?" I try understanding..

Oh great! Gang up on Yoona Day still hasn't died.

"I never thought I'd say this but I have to. J-hope no matter how big and bright his smile is, he's a bad influence. Ever since you've been with him, little by little you change,"

"Kookie don't -"

He cuts me short. "Only my friends call me that."

"So now I'm no longer your friend?" I ask feeling attacked.

He just looks away focusing back on his work. I look to Seolhyun's seat and she has earphones in her ears. She catches me staring and gives me a dirty look before focusing on her work.

"Whatever." I get up shoving my things inside and going out the class bumping into Mr Hyland.

"Eh eh you bugger get back here! We are about to write a test!"

"Test the speed of my feet as I walk away." I roll my eyes going out the school behind the bushes to the boys car park.

Desperately hoping Hoseok's car is open I pull the handle.

"Shit!"

The car lights up and all the buttons go up. What the-

"Keys to my car just like the keys to your heart." Hoseok says behind me, I turn putting my hands on his shoulders. "What's wrong?"

He pulls me inside with him in the backseat making me sit on his lap.

"Hoseok.. Am I changing?"

"Again with this question?"

I sigh. "It's really getting on my nerves when people tell me that. I just wish-"

"- that you couldn't hear them."

I turn my head back looking at him. How is it that when I'm with Hoseok I feel in control but when I'm out of his presence another...me is taking control. Once our eyes meet he begins to laugh kissing my cheeks before laying me on his chest.

I used to swim but not it's like I'm ready to sink. Sink into...

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