Chapter 37.
Jimin's Point Of View:
Yoona's bottom lip trembles and she holds her head getting off me rushing to her side. "Oh no." she panics. "Why did this have to happen now?"
"It's okay--"
"No it's not! I just ruined everything!" She whisper yells sounding panicked. My hands go up to her shoulders and I firmly grip them.
"Yoona just go to class and don't worry about anything," I ask her nicely. "Calm down," She slowly gets out the car and runs to the entrance of the secret car spot.
I rest my head on the wheel trying to gather my thoughts. Since when did my life wrap around girls? Since when did I loose track of all the things in my life? Seolhyun and now Yoona. Great. I was planning on breaking up with Seolhyun in the long run, but not like this. Not in a way of involving Yoona. The situation's already messed up with both girls on the edge of rights and wrongs. Yoona afraid and Seolhyun ready for revenge.
I don't even know why Seolhyun cares for me that much, she's the one who made it clear to me that she's only with me for the popularity that I bring her and the opportunities my dad can grant to her. So why all of a sudden the feelings and tears?
The way her eyes filled with tears ready to blow just paralyzes me. I don't want to be the reason she has a 'heartache' or plainly just suffers because of me. I know I can be a jerk and merely egotistic but I can't help it, I have already trained myself to distant myself away from anything that does not bring me value or something in return. So now how did I bring myself close to girl drama? How did Seolhyun become my so called 'girlfriend'? It's pointless being with someone who isn't of my level. I can't expect for anyone to understand that.
Although now that I think about it, I think I let my guard down when Yoona came in the picture. Her dark secrets and radiant buzz got to me. Maybe it's the work ethic, because I remember how quick she worked her way to the top that made me notice her more. Her mysterious soul and calm demeanor brought me close to her. For the first time in a long time I've been myself while being around her. My actual self without any filters, but not only to her to my friends as well. They've noticed, as quoted by Kookie that I've become less tense and more engaged.
You know when you've been given a role to play you have to keep character all the time. It's what gets the play done successfully... But with Yoona, it's like she's in the audience and every time I look at her it's as if staying in character becomes difficult as it suddenly takes a lot out of me and eventually I have to be myself. Not Jimin 2.0 that everyone knows but the Jimin I've kept hidden for the longest time.
When I'm with her, I am Park Jimin and Jimin. The angle and light she'll never know. I become like a scared boy, because I know her past, I know what she's going through. She is just like me but there's no light helping her. I want to be her light but there's just too many obstacles in my way.
At least I'll be clearing one obstacle away: Seolhyun.
I bite my lip looking at the outside. I can't let Yoona get hurt again by Seolhyun.. I'll have to talk to her.
As for the other obstacle... Think of the devil and he shall appear.
A black Ferrari drives with the engine roaring and the car slicked back. The car parks right next to me. Of course the demon himself would want to torment me.
I get out my car and wait on the hood watching as he and Namjoon get out.
Namjoon sends me a quick head nod, "Hey Small," before going inside the school. Funny how when I have something he wants we are best friends and when I don't I become a leaf in winter.
Hoseok smirks my way and nudges to my car, he starts laughing while I keep a hard glare on him.
"You know Jimin, anyone can be a god. To be a god, you must make people believe in you," Hoseok smiles maliciously. "There's light everywhere, which secures people of darkness. The sun for the morning and and stars for the night but yet there's not even a peak of light in Yoona's life,"
"That's what you keep saying," I say having an intense eye battle with him.
He clicks his tongue standing up. "You need to learn that you can't save Yoona. She's already mine. You hear that? Mine," He walks slowly towards me.
"She's the one who has to decide,"
"She's already dead inside and there's nothing that you or that God of yours can do that will make her whole or live again," Hoseok says darkly.
"She's not yours,"
"She's my descendant. I'm taking her down with me despite all the 'push and pull' efforts from you," He finally turns around walking way. "Just take my advice and go save someone else, probably that failing relationship with Seolhyun,"
Hoseok is out of sight and I let out the breath I kept. Being around a powerful demon, a 'demon of souls' really drains me at times. The thing that makes him powerful is that he can take your soul just like that. A snap of his fingers and you're gone. So how did he get Yoona if she still has her soul? She must've made a promise with him.
I really wonder what kind of promise or pact Yoona made with him. Out of all demons and angels she went for the one that is pure hell bound. Hoseok. Even his name shivers to it's own sound. Another thing that attracts me to Yoona is how, despite what Hoseok said, is how she still has a glimmer of light in her.
"I made a promise in the dream world that she will be free. Free from your fake love and free from you," I mumble to myself.
•
I run up the stairs of the schools sightings. I push open the door that write in big bold letters. RESTRICTED
Seolhyun would be in here. This is where we first mat and where she's always preferred going when she doesn't feel like being 'people orientated'.
I slowly push open the door to the rooftop and spot her sitting on the floor huddled up in a ball. She looks up and meets my eyes.
I sit next to her keeping silent. The first bell will ring any second and I'm determined to leave here with her being in the right mood. She sits up and crawls right in front of me. Her eyes are red shot and her face is stained with tears. She looks so damn sad, I wish to turn around.
My cheek suddenly stings from her hand's contact with my face.
I look at her again and she slaps me hard again.
I try not to hold her wrist because I know she's angry and needs to get all her frustration out. Besides, I know that I can't slap her back so I'll just have to endure.
Her tears form again and she breaks down crying in her hands. I feel awful just looking at her and when I try and pat her back she pushes her shoulders back.
"Why Jimin? Why?" She hits my shoulders, shoving me back. "Why?"
She removes her hands from her face, it looks so puffy.
"I'm fit, I'm hot, I'm fresh, I'm fly.. I'm I'm I'm - oh god Jimin," her voice grows weak.
I look her in the eye and she cries again.
"I'm sexy and cute. I have great hair and all the boys love to stare at me but I only look at you. I'm everything Yoona's not, I dominate this school, you and I dominate together,"
There it is. The little pleasure she gets from my popularity. I look away from her.
"Just tell me why? Why don't you love me? Jimin I just want to know. I just want to know what the hell is going on. And this has been going on for too long even way before Yoona, you don't look at me with stars only lust when you're needy," she says.
"Seolhyun..." Her name rolls off my tongue. "You already know how I feel about you. You already know that... that I don't love you. I only like you," I sigh. "I admit I used you the first few times for my own selfish reasons but I never had feelings for you, just... like you said, lust." I say bluntly.
Her jaw stretches and she boils.
"Seol...I think.."
"You want to break up? Oh I get it. You're done with me. I was just a play thing that you got tired of. You're tired of me and running to Yoona," She says standing up. I don't even follow her when she heads back inside. She doesn't even look back when walking away.
Her thoughts are all over the place but one speaks the loudest: I'll make you tired of her
"Don't even think about it," I say out loud. "You can't make me tired of her,"
She looks back at me, maybe she's shocked that I heard her thoughts or that I just said that out loud. "Fine." She turns around but the thoughts are still in her head, only this time it becomes worse. I sigh.
I'm just a human being but I have strange sightings of hope and powerful peace but yet I can't seem to display it. Instead what people see is an arrogant boy who flaunts all day like the world means nothing to him.
The bell rings knocking me out of my senses. I stand up and fix my blazer, I kick the little rocks on the ground and calm myself down. I can't pin point but I know something bad is gonna happen. Maybe with Yoona.. because from here I can already feel her heart rapidly beating.
•
The door to the class is already closed. I'm not even surprised that I'm late, Mr Xuimin is probably inside the class and he's going to say: 'Jimin you are abusing your leadership privileges'
I put my hand on the handle and push it down getting in confidently with my head up. My lip goes up as I see Mr Xuimin by his desk and his frown fixed on me.
"Park, why do you insist on abusing your privileges?" He asks while fixing his glasses.
I close the door with a smile. "Well I was told from a wise man, you, to use my privileges. And you know how I feel about disobeying the teachers orders," I smirk his way. A few giggles are heard.
"You're lucky your my honourable student Park, sit,"
I wink and walk to my seat. Seolhyun has her eyes fixed on me and when I look at her she looks away to Choa. Sowon nicely bows with her head and I nod. Personally I have no problem with Sowon because she's nice to me but I know she has an evil side which she doesn't show. Choa on the other hand, she's a bitch. Straight up no two faced, bitch. I can sense whether there's good or evil in a person. Not because it's obvious in most occasions but because I can feel their hearts.
Seolhyun... I have mixed emotions about her. I've been with her since...since I became known in the school. She was always kind and had a charm that was undeniably attractive. I guess that's how she was with me and my group, but then I would notice her slight change of personality. It was rare. Until Yoona came around and my abilities heightened. When Yoona came a different personality which I've never seen before suddenly appeared in Seolhyun.
Yoongi warned me that she's been a two faced girl but I didn't believe that until...the whole milk thing happened to Yoona.
The thing is, when you are two people at the same time one of them is bound to trip the other and that's exactly what happened. Seolhyun couldn't keep up with the act anymore and apparently I was to blame because someone else was 'marking' me as their own. I believe she was referring to Yoona.
I sit next to Namjoon and he bumps my fist. I turn my head slightly to the back but Yoona's seat is empty. That weird kid, Changkyun looks at me and... I think he smiles at me.
I nod my head in response and turn away.
"Well sir who can we speak to about all these things?" A girl asks. I focus my attention back to the class.
"Miss Mo I assume you were bunking assembly, because the Leaders of the school announced their portfolios already," Mr Xuimin says, he then looks to me. "Would you kindly tell her who's responsible for discipline and student peering,"
I turn towards Mo Micha and she looks away, her eyes enlarging. This effect I have on people really puzzles me, like they see me everyday at school but they still get shocked or surprised when I look or speak with them. Why?
"Student Peering and the discipline portfolio is kept by Min Yoongi and Kim Yoona," I say. She smiles at me and shyly blushes looking away. I bite my lip.. I think I should crush her dream of whatever image she has of me. "And since you bunked assembly you will serve an hour in detention," I smile at her. She looks at me with a frown and gulps.
"I couldn't have said it better myself," Mr Xuimin adds. Namjoon nudges me and laughs, along with the class.
"Savage," he mumbles. I shrug my shoulders.
Mr Xuimin takes the register soon after, he calls past all the names but stops.
"Kim Yoona?" He furrows his eyebrows. "Wasn't she here?" He asks.
The class is silent.
Did she come back to class when she left me in the car? I turn to Namjoon and he shrugs. I turn to Changkhyun he motions to the floor and I look down, I spot her bag, meaning she came back but for some reason she's not here.
"She's bunking." I hear Seolhyun. She turns to me with a straight face. "So Jimin, does she also get a detention?"
All eyes turn to me, while I focus my gaze on Seolhyun. "I'm sure she has a reason," I say calmly. Choa rolls her eyes.
"Yes Park is right, Yoona wouldn't miss class especially register," Mr Xuimin says. "She's a good girl, unlike Miss Mo over there,"
•
The bell rings indicating the period is over. I pack all my stuff and leave them under the table. It's probably wrong doing this, but no one ever checks.
I exit my maths class and walk into the hall way in the middle. Jungkook runs to me and beats my back.
"Yho!"
He puts his arm around my shoulders walking with me. I shake my head and roll my eyes. "Just because you're tall doesn't mean you can use me like a hang glider," I say.
"It's not my fault your short," he says.
"Big things come in small packages," I say back. He laughs and motions with his finger a small pepper. I hit his shoulder and he laughs harder. Jeez this kid is dirty minded.
He tells me about what happened in his Korean class as we head inside the cafeteria to our table at the back.
A few girls greet us here and there. I do my signature head bow while Jungkook entertains them.
"Annyoeng Jimin oppa! Annyoeng Jungkook oppa!" They say in sync.
I really don't like the attention but its part of my act to keep rolling with unnecessary attention. I nod my head and walk straight to the back. I slump down on the chair and Jungkook sits next to me leaning his back on the wall.
"Really tired," he says. "So what happened between you and Seol?"
"What do you mean what happened?"
"I saw her before register and she looked pissed, I automatically assumed it was you," he says.
"I broke up with her."
"You lie. Really?" His eyes wide open. "Are we celebrating or nah?" He asks ready to throw his hands in the air. I shake my head and laugh. He never liked Seolhyun that much, in fact none of the boys like her they just tolerated her because of me.
"We could celebrate but not while there's tension between her and Yoona. She caught Yoona and I sleeping in my car and went crazy. I couldn't keep playing around with her so I just broke up with her,"
Jungkook's mouth hangs open. "Sleeping in the car? Were you guys that tired? Yoona seriously doesn't deserve all this. Not from you, not from Seol, not from anybody."
"Hi!" Taehyung yells aloud bright and cheerful drawing Jungkook and I away from our little conversation. "Damn! You would not believe what happened in sub class!"
"What happened?" I chuckle at his bright spirit. I drag my fingers across my hair at the sight of Seolhyun and her followers. She sits next to me as always with Choa next to her and Sowon near Choa. Jungkook rolls his eyes after getting an attitude from Choa.
"What happened?" Jungkook asks.
Sowon's eyes suddenly light up. "Wait are we talking about Yoona?" She asks. I look at her confused while Taehyung nods his head eagerly.
"What happened?" Jungkook, Seolhyun and I ask in fusion.
Sowon looks at Taehyung as if asking for permission and he gives it to her. "Well Tae and I are in the same math class. Mr Hyland wasn't available so we had to go to the sub class. When our class arrived, we found Mrs Will's English class already there. Namjoon and Yoona were there. Naturally Tae and I go and sit with them," she takes in a breath. "There was another substitution teacher who was taking in for Mr Kwon, her name is something Bi. Anyway. To start off Yoona was extremely rude--"
"To you. She seemed fine with Namjoon and I," Taehyung interrupts.
"Whatever. Anyway the class was really noisy and everybody was talking like really loud. So the sub teacher Bi something stood up and pointed at Yoona unexpectedly. She told Yoona to get out her class because she was really loud--"
"But Yoona wasn't," Taehyung says interrupting again. "It happened really quick though, the teacher stood up and called on Yoona telling her to leave," Taehyung says getting pumped. A good fight always had him high...does this mean Yoona got in a fight?
"Taehyung can I please tell the story! I live for things like this," Sowon complains. Yoongi and Namjoon arrive at the table and take a seat.
Yoongi has a weird smile with him. "I heard Yoona and--"
"Don't worry Suga buns, we are hearing the story," Choa says leaning on the table and giving Yoongi weird eyes, which he ignores.
"Yeah then go on," he says.
"So as I was saying. The sub teacher tells Yoona to get out. Now here's where it got a little... Crazy... Yoona said no to the teacher. Imagine. The sub teacher tells her again to go out and Yoona says no, again," Sowon says her eyes opening wide. I notice she's using her gossiping voice because Choa is all of a sudden listening.
"What do you mean she said no?" Chos asks.
"I mean like no, no! She said no. The sub teacher tells her, she's being rude, then Yoona says that she isn't being rude because the whole class was making a noise but she only picked on her. Which she wasn't wrong. And then Yoona said its bullshit,"
Taehyung claps his hands loud. "I don't know Yoona that well. But when she said that I literally was on her side,"
"The sub teacher continued on telling Yoona that she's rude. Yoona just couldn't keep her bloody mouth shut labelling the teacher in all kind of insulting names. The Bi something teacher ended up threatening Yoona saying that she'll call her father,"
"Guess what Yoona said?" Taehyung asks.
Everyone at the table asks in sync. "What?"
"Yoona told the sub teacher to call her father and that she didn't care. She gave the sub teacher her dads number twice. She wrote it on paper and actually walked to the teacher and put it in her hand with a phone,"
"That's not possible. She would never do that," Jungkook says. I nod my head with him. That does not sound like her at all.
Yoongi speaks up, "I know Yoona well enough to know that she did not do that. It probably got mixed up,"
"We were in the class, so it's not mixed up and I guess non of you know her because she did it. In our presence. Namjoon you were there, tell them," Taehyung says.
Namjoon nods his head. "I tried calming her down but she was already on fire,"
"What happened next?" Choa asks. I glare at her and she shrugs her shoulders. "I don't like her one bit but I love that attitude. Go on,"
"The sub teacher retreated and sat down in silence allowing the class to speak. Trust me when I say the sub teacher didn't open her mouth again," Sowon says.
"I spoke to her after class. She said she was shocked at Yoona's behaviour," Namjoon says.
We all are. Something's wrong..I hope it wasn't because of what happened in the morning with Seolhyun.
"What did she do next...Yoona, I mean?" I ask. Seolhyun barely looks at me but I see her jaw clinch.
"We carried on talking, Yoona and I. Namjoon and Sowon just kept silent. Yoona spoke normally again, as if nothing happened and that she didn't go savage female just minutes ago," Taehyung says.
Namjoon shakes his head. "You shouldn't have been encouraging her. V just kept boosting about what she did and saying it was 'cool'. She could seriously get in trouble you know,"
Yoongi clears his throat. "Yoona and I are leaders of discipline, I guess what she did was defending herself,"
"There we go again." Seolhyun sighs frustratedly. "Like, why are you all defending her. She's just like the rest of the school. Why can't you punish her equally!?"
"Seol you should already know by now that Yoona has cast a spell on our boys," Choa says.
Jungkook shakes his head and gets up. "Not this again," he walks away to the buffet of food.
"Our boys?" Namjoon asks. "Choa--"
"You shouldn't even speak, you practically stalk Yoona," Choa says proudly.
Namjoon is about to argue but Yoongi stops him. "It's not worth fighting with someone who's not of our level and finds things difficult to understand."
Choa gasps and looks at Yoongi. "Oh please Yoongi you--"
I tune her annoying voice out as I see straight long black hair, which belongs to Yoona. For the first time it's not tied up in her usual ponytail. It's tucked neatly behind her ear and flowing at the back till her waist. It's against school rules but I don't think the girls of our school take that rule very seriously. She enters the cafeteria with Hoseok. I hide my announce.
His arm is around her and he's leaning in her ear speaking while she laughs.
I notice that I'm not the only one looking at her. A lot of people are facing in that direction. Whatever happened in that sub class has clearly spread like wild fire.
I feel Seolhyun's glare on me but I don't bother looking at her.
"Jimin why are you doing this to me? Can't you see she's already taken? I'm telling you that she's not who you think she is, she's probably a more bitter version then me," Seolhyun says whispering in my ear.
I look at her. "So you finally admit you're bitter," She rolls her eyes.
"You don't get it. The point is she's taken and I'm still here for you," She looks at me with puppy dog eyes. I turn my head back to Yoona.
Hoseok kisses her and walks to our table while she walks to her new table.
The reason she moved there is probably because of me. Then again anything she's going through now caused by Seol is because of me.
I hate that she's sitting far away and doesn't want to open to me about what she's feeling. I don't want to force my friendship on her but I really like her, I honestly do. With her situation I can see through her that she needs someone who will hug her so tight that all her broken pieces will piece back together. I want to be that person.
I get a big head sometimes but I'm not naive. Hoseok obviously gives her something to feed off on, she's like a game to him. All her sufferings is an organ piano playing in his ears.
What ever he offered her to enchant her is something dark which she can't get out of. I want– no, I need to help her. I'm willing to do it because I want her to be safe and..happy.
Along the lines of trying to befriend her I might have caught a tiny bit of an influential, its probably just lust but I know deep down its something more...
Hoseok sits down and greets everyone. Jungkook puts the snacks on the table and sits with his own batch of sweets. I take some sweets hearing a different topic about why Yoongi doesn't want to give Choa a chance. Hoseok winks at me when I make eye contact with him.
My eyes wander to Yoona's table at the far end on the other side. She's laughing with Kai. I dislike Kai but I have to tolerate him because he's part of the Leaders.
"You're skinny." Yoongi suddenly says. I look at them. He's looking plainly at Choa.
"Call me again," she dares.
"You're skinny."
"Call me again." Her eye starts twitching.
"You're ski--"
She stands up with force and slaps him hard that the sound echo's around the entire cafeteria. Choa sits back down like the little witch she is and folds her arms. "I am not skinny. I'm fit."
"Fit to be skinny," Yoongi carries on like the slap didn't happen earning a deadly glare from her.
I can't help it when a little laughter escapes my throat.
•
Hoseok and I stand opposite each other and practice our dance, the dance we will be doing at the review alongside Yoona for the opening act.
I'm grateful for the three positions I have. I'm opening the show along side Yoona and later on I'm doing a solo. Then further on with the trio of me, Hoseok and Jungkook we are performing our group.
"I think later on when you do the back roll you can remove your blindfold," Hoseok suggests. I almost forgot my favorite part of this review.
We direct our own dances! Obviously for the groups there's guidance here and there but still, it's our own. Makes me feel like a professional to perform my own choreography infront of great people.
I can't wait for the review, not only can I show off my potent skills to a crowd at large but I get to also show my dad that I'm omnipotent. He doubts my gifts and wants me to be a full on business partner and that's not what I want.
"Sure," I nod my head.
We continue to practice and it goes well. Mrs Noyo walks past us and smiles. "I like how its coming on boys," she says.
Despite my issues with Hoseok, we both have goals we want to achieve therefore we are active and radiant at school including duo projects.
"With all this practice, I hope you didn't forget about the test this Friday," Mrs Noyo says.
Hoseok and I look at each other confused.
Yep we forgot that shit.
I nod my head as Hoseok says in my head and chuckle lightly. Hoseok's mind games are really annoying. If I just knew how to speak through minds I would, instead all I can do is listen to thoughts.
"Jimin would you kindly go to Mrs Kim and Mr Tuan and remind them,"
"Sure. Can I change?" I ask. She looks at my dancing clothes.
"No, you can just run and you'll be back here before the bell rings," she says and walks back to her desk.
Hoseok turns away leaving me. I run out the class to my next door neighbours.
I enter Mr Tuan's class and they are all focused on the board. My eyes fix on the board and there's a beautiful drawing of a girl with her hair flowing in the wind. Her hair loops and spirals. Inside the spirals are words such as; young, wild, free, brave -- empowering words... It reminds me of the picture on Yoona's wall.
"That's the face that I want to get when I look at your work," Mr Tuan says motioning to my face. The class chuckles a little. I politely bow and head to him.
I tell him about the date of the test and he nods his head. "Thank you young Park,"
I bow again and leave his class. I walk further down the hallway and stand in front of Miss Kim's class.
I hear a violin beautifully being played and finally decide to get in. My eyes immediately avert to Yoona's seat. She looks up and our eyes meet. I give her a small smile and she smiles a little looking away.
Why is she avoiding my gaze?
I enter confidently and head to Miss Kim's desk. I spot Mr Kwon next to Yoona's desk speaking to her.
"Yes Jimin. What can I do for you?" Miss Kim asks very wittily. I smirk and shake my head.
"Mrs Noyo's reminding all the dramatic arts students that they are writing this Friday,"
"Oh!" She gasps. "It completely slipped my mind." She chuckles and scratches her head. I bow and turn ready to leave.
"Actually Jimin hold on," she scrambles through her desk for some things. "I want you to give this to Mrs Noyo," she smiles. I take the load of papers from her arms and smile.
"Class don't forget about the test that's coming this Friday," she says. A few grumbles are heard. I can't blame them, I forgot about it too but at least I prepared for it..maybe days before.
"Yoona if you have something to say, say it out loud," Miss Kim directs her focus to Yoona. I also look at her..or at least I think it's her.
There's a strange look in her eye...an angry type of expression. She looks like she's going to kill. Her eyes are dead focused on Miss Kim. She doesn't look my way which means I can't hear her thoughts.
"I'm writing my English paper on that day." She back chats. I raise my brow at her tone. I shift my gaze to Mr Kwon and he looks shocked as well.
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-hope you enjoyed that long chapter in Jimin's POV.
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