Deep breaths. I didn't know how much just some deep breaths can help you? 

I finished my tea and put the mug on my desk. I kept watching the sky. It's so beautiful. So dark.

I don't remember the last time I was calm. I don't remember the last time that I was generally good.

I don't know did this even start? Why I am so sad? How I end up talking to myself every night?

I miss me. 

Everyone loved me. I was the funniest man in the school. I was the prettiest. The social butterfly of the school.

No I'm surrounded by people who don't care about me.

I wish I didn't care about them too.