That day when Jungkook returned back to Taehyung's mansion, it was already 12:15 a.m. so he didn't get to see anyone which was a relief...he went to his room and directly went to bed after showering ...it didn't take him long to fall into deep slumber as he was very tired ...

'you are different from others my baby ...you are my precious creation ...we only have each other...no one understands us and they just want to harm us ..so always remember ...don't let anyone come near you ...they don't deserve you ...you will only listen to me hmm ..my baby ...my doll ..' 6 year old jungkook's eomma, hyerin said while caressing his hair ...

'but eomma...papa said that we should love everyone then only we will get loved ...he told me to make friends and I also want to  make many fr.ahhh" Jungkook was cut off when his mom yanked his hair ...

'STOP THAT NONSENSE ...I TOLD YOU YOU WILL ONLY LISTEN TO ME DIDN'T I??
THEN HOW DARE YOU DISOBEY ME ...ONLY I CAN CONTROL YOU ,YOU UNDERSTAND??...YOU ARE MY CREATION AND ONLY I CAN MOULD YOU HOWEVER I WANT SO NEVER SPEAK USELESS THINGS EVER AGAIN ...'. Hyerin screamed at Jungkook who was looking at her with his doe eyes which held fear ...no tears but only fear...after some seconds hyerin's face became soft again and she bent down to jungkook's level and again started to caress his hair...

'My baby ..see this is why I told you not to listen to others...I don't want to hurt you again ok? So don't listen to whatever your papa or whoever says ...only listen to me ..only I love you ...
Others will only hurt you,my doll ..hmm ...no one will stay with you but eomma will ...everyone is bad  ...they will make you weak ...they will make you cry and you don't want them to do so right? So you will listen to eomma right ? That will make you a good boy and you are eomma's good boy right ? ...
RIGHT ?? MY DOLL..'  hyerin said in a sweet voice at the start then suddenly screamed in the end making Jungkook close his eyes ...when he didn't hear anything else , he opened his eyes and found himself sitting on his bed with his papa ...he looked at him blankly while his papa was smiling ...

'my little kookie turned 7 today ...I am so happy ...here's your birthday present from papa ...happy birthday sweetheart ...' jungkook's papa,junghyun said with a smile and handed him the gift and Jungkook took it with a blank face ...

'open it ..I am sure you will love it ...' junghyun said and Jungkook opened the box to see his gift and saw that it was a ...
Big pair of scissors ...
He looked towards his Papa's face and his papa smirked at him ..

'DIE YOU MONSTER ....' his papa shouted  while grabbing the pair of scissors and held his neck in a bruising hold with his other hand...he pushed Jungkook down on the bed and put more pressure on his throat..Jungkook could feel his lungs burning from the lack of air ...he was on the verge of losing consciousness when suddenly he felt a wave of sudden fear and terror run over him, making his eyes go wide when he saw his papa raising the pair scissors in his hand slowly ...

' I should have killed you a long time ago...you don't deserve to live ...you are a monster and that is why you are so cold ...that is why you never feel any pain even after getting hurt ...oh and do you know that you are heartless? ...you only care about yourself just like she did ...that is why you are so numb..you are always blank...always stoic ...I am sure you won't feel pain even when I stab you right in your heart.. afterall you are void of feeling anything ...I gave you a chance to change..I gave you a full week  but now I have had enough of you ...you too have suffered enough ...but don't worry my sweetheart ...papa will solve everything...everything will be over soon ...let papa just kill you and end all of this ...everything will end with you..' his papa said in a menacing deep voice  and brought the sharp object towards him in full force but Jungkook held his hand tightly while shutting his eyes tightly in fear ...tears were rolling down his cheeks and when he opened his eyes to look towards his Papa's face it slowly turned into Taehyung's face who was smirking at him with an evil glint present in his eyes ...

'you are heartless and heartless people don't deserve anyone's love or care ...you are a monster ...a fucking cheater ...you ruined my life you bastard ...
So you deserve to die ...let me just finish you and then my life will be perfect like before...DIE YOU BITCH ...' Taehyung said while increasing the pressure on jungkook's neck and  brought the hand which was holding the pair of scissors down with full force aiming for jungkook's heart and  Jungkook screamed at top of his lungs ...

" ANDWEEEEEE!! NO ..NO PLEASE DONT KILL ME ... PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE....I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING ...
PLZ PAPA ...I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING ...
I didn't do a.anything ....sh.she did ..she made me like this  ..I am not a monster ...I didn't do anything wrong ...I am n.not a cheater ..not a m.monster ..." Jungkook woke up from his nightmare while yelling and frantically looking around, hugging his body as if someone was watching him and kept mumbling under his breathe while rocking back and forth in the bed ...

'i am not ...kookie is not a monster ....don't kill him ... please leave kookie alone.. ..I am not a monster...i didn't betray anyone. ...I beg ..you .. plz leave me al.alone ..go a.away ..j.just go away from kookie .." Jungkook hugged himself even more , scared that someone will again try to harm him ...he went in a trance where everything became blur ...he could just see three people ..his eomma , his papa and Taehyung and they all were just saying the same thing ..
'Die die die' ...
he hid his face in his knees and closed his eyes, not wanting to hear anything  and kept on mumbling to himself ... suddenly he heard his door opening with a loud bang which badly startled him...

"Jungkook....." Jungkook heard someone say in a deep voice and when he raised his head to see who it was, he again started to thrash on his bed ...it was Taehyung...

"NO....STAY AWAY ..DONT ..DONT COME NEAR ME ..plz don't come near me ...
I don't want to die. ..you will kill me ...you all want to kill me ...don't touch me ...you will again harm me. ..hurt me ...no no ...you can't come near kookie ...plz no .." Jungkook kept muttering while looking at Taehyung and continuously shook his head telling Taehyung not to come any closer ...he, himself kept moving backwards on the bed and tried to cover himself with the silk sheets ...
Taehyung was looking at Jungkook with wide eyes ...he was on his way to  the kitchen to get some water when he heard jungkook's loud scream so he ran towards his room and what he is seeing is right now shocked him ...he was scared ...he was anxious..but most of all, he was worried ...worried for Jungkook ...
He slowly took some steps towards the younger but the younger kept on mumbling and moving back on the bed ...

"Jungkook ...I won't harm you ... please don't be afraid ..." Taehyung said as he finally stopped right in front of the bed and stretched his hands towards the younger...

"NO ... YOU WILL HARM ME ..you too think I am a monster ...you said I ruined your life and now you want to kill me so that it can become peaceful again ...j.just ...don't come .. don't come near me ...don't touch me ..." Jungkook said, his voice breaking from the how sad and disturbed he was and this state of him somehow ached Taehyung's heart too ...

"No Jungkook...you didn't ruin my life ...I ..I am sorry for being and asshole ..but trust me ..I didn't mean it ...I didn't mean any of it ...plz Jungkook ..just try to calm down for me ..I won't hurt you bub... Plz calm down ..hmm .." Taehyung said as he slowly took Jungkook in his arms ..he didn't even notice that he called Jungkook with a nickname ...none of them were in a state to give any thought about the nickname ...
He kept whispering sweet nothings into his ears and Jungkook was finally starting to calm down a bit ...the younger fisted Taehyung's tshirt tightly and buried his face in the elder's well built chest while sniffling and hiccupping ...
Just as Jungkook tried to relax in the warm embrace and closed his eyes, his eomma's face popped in front of him followed by his papa and then by Taehyung ...they were again trying to kill him and he again started to thrash in Taehyung's hold ...

" No...I don't trust you ...you are lying ...you just want to kill me just like he did...
Just go away ...please ...you don't trust me ...you called me a cheater ...a monster ...you will hurt me again ..you just want to make me cry like you did before ...
JUST GO AWAY TAEHYUNG ... JUST GO AWAY FROM ME ...STOP HURTING ME ...I AM TIRED OF TRYING TO GET YOUR LOVE JUST TO GET HURT AGAIN AND AGAIN ...JUST LEAVE!!!!!!" Jungkook screamed and pulled out of his embrace ...
Jungkook wiped his tears and took deep breaths to stop his cries and sniffles ...he was finally coming out of his panic attack ...he was overcoming the trance he was in and all his surroundings started to become clear ...he realised what he was  doing ...and that made him want to kill himself ...he didn't want to show his weak side to anyone but now he did ...that too in front of Taehyung who doesn't even care about him ..Taehyung again tried to hold him but Jungkook just pushed him away ...

"Jungkook please..." Taehyung again came closer but Jungkook raised his hand, stopping him ...he took a deep breathe and rubbed his face with his palm before speaking ...

"Why? Why do you suddenly care about me huh? Yesterday you were holding my collar, threatening me and now you are showing your concern? ...why?
Because you saw me in a vulnerable state ? I don't need it...I don't need your so-called care ...I was in a trance for sometime and let these filthy emotions control me but now I am out of this stupidity ...so you can leave and continue your life however you want ...just don't come to me and show your fake concern ...it makes me want to kill you... afterall I am a monster... so I can actually do it .. it will be better if you stay away from me ...do not meddle in my buisness because we are just two strangers living under the same roof ...but that too won't be for long ...
Oh right, I almost forgot ...there's a press conference at my company the day after tomorrow at 10:15 a.m. ....I wanted it to be tomorrow itself but the press members won't be able to come tomorrow due to prior engagements so I arranged it the next day ... be present there ...I am saying this because this involves you and your company ... Now please leave ..." Jungkook said...his voice going monotone again and gestured Taehyung towards the door ...
Taehyung was looking at him with so many emotions right now ...the elder's eyes were also slightly prickling with tears and he didn't even know why ...he just knew that seeing Jungkook in this state is extremely painful for him ...and now after hearing jungkook's words, Taehyung didn't know what to do anymore ...he was guilty ...he was ashamed ..he was furious on himself ...so he just turned around and left the room with tears falling from his eyes ...he didn't even have the guts to face Jungkook now ...

'so this is how he felt when I told him that he is no one to me ..that too on our wedding day...this is how much I hurt him all these days ..tsk, shame on you Taehyung ...' Taehyung thought to himself and went inside his room ...

On the other hand, Jungkook stood up from the bed and went towards the bathroom and stood infront of the huge mirror while placing his palms on the counter ...

"look what you have done to yourself ..you look pathetic..this is why ..this is why I didn't want to feel any kind of stupid emotions ...I was satisfied by keeping everything inside me ...if only aunt Taehee didn't convince you to change that day...if only you didn't become a greedy bitch just to feel loved , this wouldn't have happened ....you wouldn't have become so weak and pathetic today Jungkook ...these filthy emotions are the reason you are crying for everything today ..." jungkook said and pointed at himself while looking at the mirror...eyes were red and swollen from crying so much ...he was looking miserable...and he hated it ...

"But not anymore ...I won't let these useless feelings get over me ...I was always a queen who didn't let anyone control me and it will be the same this time too ...it was just a waste of time to think that I could actually change and stay happy ..'' Jungkook muttered to himself all the while looking at himself through the mirror in rage and then he  punched the mirror hard causing it to crack into many pieces ...he slowly removed his hand from the broken mirror just to see the crimson liquid prickling down the cracked part ...he looked at his hand and noticed how his tender skin was harshly pierced by the glass and how some tiny glass shreds were stuck on his knuckles ...

He let out a small laugh while he removed the glass shreds from his knuckles and threw them on the ground like it was not at all painful but the slight tears that gathered around the corner of his eyes said a complete different story...
This is how he was in the past and he has finally decided that this is exactly how he will be in the future too ...and he knows that he will be happ...satisfied this way ...

" Ahhh ....it feels so good to be myself again ..." Jungkook said and again looked at himself in the broken mirror but this time his eyes were shining ...though his face was not properly visible on the mirror now, he indeed saw that even his distorted face held the same confidence that it held in the past ..and his cherry lips had a subtle smirk plastered on them ...
He finally freed himself from the fake hopes and became himself again ...the only difference is , this time he became even stronger ...even more powerful ...

This is who he was ,is and will be ...forever ...
An emotionless badbitch who never listens to anyone ...
A monster who doesn't spare anyone ...
And most importantly,
A QUEEN who makes people bow to him and gets what he wants ..either it is by hook or by crook ..

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