Now is the time when I'll have to stand up and step up for myself. Atleast someone has to do this. I know that would hurt him but is it not necessary. I have always been taught since childhood that making boy a  friend is wrong. Now i ask why? According to him all men in this world are ass holes. U can't be best friends. Because that would always end up in a relationship. You can't ask freely of any help to even your besties as that is so incorrect. You can't do because they would always tell and gossip about that at the back. Who would explain that its not true? NO ONE! You'll have to experience it. And that's true. Previously i would never have said that because i never had such great bunch of people who i have right now. I have always thought that the best way to get out of any relationship fear(which occurs usually when I become friends with boys)  is by making him a brother. So once you say bro everything is sorted. Damn easy right. No ... Really No... And that's when i gave this thought a rethink. Not really true. This doesn't work and this I'm saying as i heard a very good point from my friend Randall that "Relationships are always from the heart. Untill and unless your heart would not agree to that you would never be that. So one sided feelings are just not pondered upon. 

So from then i feel this reality. Its so true that you by calling someone a brother won't prevent him from Loving you. Ok next big thing is that someone giving his everything to you and being there just for you, why should you always doubt in such a beautiful heart. I know that i am extra soft with those who are sweet to me. But does it seem that i would always end up in a bad ending. AND WHAT IF ONE ENDING IS BAD IN LIFE. ITS JUST ONE ENDING AND STARTING OF ANOTHER CHAPTER. TRUST ME THE NEXT ENDING WOULD NEVER BE BAD. Also another thing i would add on this is that nothing happening in your life is bad. Its always a good point whose importance you'll get later on in life. At that time you'll know that the ending which i thought was the worst in my life wasn't the worst, It was the best and in fact it wasn't the ending, It was the start of my happy times.

Yes trust me this would one or the other day happen to you. Although it might take years at times still it would always be for your good. And so rethinking about my life now I feel that I should give a bit more time to me and Adam in that case. Because he's something that i have always wished for, still i would never rush to any decisions as I'm bad at decision making. But I'm atleast sure that i should give him a rethink as he deserves that. Also I would never ever want to loose someone who loves me. And yea I was his first sight love. So he's someone who need to be pondered. He's extra sweet at his words and as well towards me which always makes me worry about fake and real. Still i would never be putting him in the fake list. That is not him. He wonderfully understands me. No rush, good talks, he's always balanced and this is where I get unbalanced at times. Yet this decision is final. At times I think that i should start sending him all the memes which i have saved for my soulmate, but i would wait untill our relationship blossoming out into a good one and being official. Giggling at this ! Still.