Well memories are wonderful when you are lonely. Question comes as to why do we become lonely. Well times do come when you  are not always surrounded by people you love or vice versa . It's a matter of happiness when you are never lonely or have never been but that is not about my life. My life had a part where i was the loneliest of all. One can as well describe me as the introvert one. But who at that time knew what introvert means !! I was a child just growing.I never felt that happiness or a happiest memory which i can describe right now. I don't know if there's a problem with my memory or something, as sometimes I do hear points from my mom that i was the most troublesome. Well the memories seem to be the happiest when my mom describes them. So yea proved that i have good memories but they aren't in my memory bank. That's because one always would remember the worst more better than the best.

Being frank enough I consider my childhood as something which i missed to live. At that time i was never into living my childhood, enjoying it. What i atmost remember is the knowledge which i gained and the times i used to study. Yea i was a ranker, scholar all good words describe me but do they actually define me now. What's the best result i got from all of them? I always question myself this. Well i was into television as well which i remember was my favorite due to those dramatic serials i loved. Really a waste of time!! Serials are good at some extent but that too would depend on which serial you are watching. I feel sorry for myself as about not knowing anything about music and movies. Yea that happens because not everyone has got phones since their childhood!! I never remember whether have i talked to myself a bit about what I am and who I am. I was much into like competing everyone. That competitive spirit i feel was because my mom took tutions and in that there was a girl who was quite good, so felt like if a girl younger than me could do, i must do. I don't know why my ego kept to be the since the day i was born. I think that's because of my zodiac - LEO.

Seems to be very egoistic and dominating at times. This personality made me a little bit away from the term called friendship. Than circumstances arose which made me to believe that there is a term only called friends with benefits. That was the time which was really not a good one for me. That hurted me but at another side made me the strongest of all. I come under that group of people who can't just express my emotions  very easily. So the strong part held me, still i was broken from the inner core. Just like coconut, hardest from periphery and most soft from core. That represents me now as well but now i am a full blown flower, happy and contained.
I barely remember my memories of childhood as i don't have such good ones to share or cherish. That would be my biggest regret that i wasn't able to make my childhood the best and vibrant one. Another reason i don't remember those days is that why to fill my sweet little brain with those thoughts and memories which are not cherishing at all. No need to remember them as i would always describe them as the time passed and became a past. And we should be in the present. And we should work for making our present beautiful rather than remembering past. Still cherishing the best of your memories would motivate you to move ahead in the best way you should.