So this quarantine times are going pretty well where i had no fears and worries about my upcoming life. It seems like dua to a single side effect everything is getting good. It's just like having a good sleep after having an antihistamine which would as well clear up and make you better. Thus in a way this is really good. At this time all are together. At times I feel that this corona isn't a doom, it's just a boon to humans so that they can actually live their lives rather than Passing lives. Why i say this because people are so busy in their day to day life that they never get out time for their loved ones. That's quite necessary. People get so busy in earning that they forget living. Now are all people exploring all the games again, spending and cherishing memories with their loved ones, giggling and laughing, praying and having food together. The togetherness has just reached a higher level due to this virus.

Isn't it marvellous about this tiny specie that It's just this little but has created an havoc in the whole world. But in true sense its just healing all. So beautiful are the times of this widespread corona as we humans have devastated earth and has badly destroyed nature. Created an imbalance in this world. The glaciers are melting, The Amazon is burning, Ozone is thinning, But now all are healing. I love this period of lockdown as humans when get locked down, all the rest get better. So beautiful has the nature been since these pollution has decreased. Now when i stand in my balcony, I get so glad where i can hear beautiful canary whispers. The morning sunshine and evening sunset now seem more gleaming. All just as we have tremendously reduced the level of pollutants we were giving for the mother earth to inhale.

But during these times what i really observed is I'm ignoring Adam a lot. I haven't called him since almost 2 weeks which makes me really sad about him. He loves when i call. He always asks me that can you not remove a few minutes of your life for this sweet friend of yours. And I'm like NO! Why because now I can not call my guy friends like that as my dad is constantly watching. Still it also feels like there are some times when I only don't want to call. Its always like if he would be having any feelings for me than it should not increase unless we are into any kind of relationship. And how can we get into a relationship, after my dad's approval. And I'm damn scared that my dad would approve him ? That would always be a question though. I worry about this as he is not having a great degree and he isn't a Richie rich as well. Great degree here means that He has done BBA which according to my dad is not such a great degree. According to my dad a good degree means that he should be an engineer or a doctor that too an MBBS as of for Me being a Dentist he would always prefer someone higher or similar to my profession.  That's the only reason i have cut down calls a bit as guys create feelings very early and can't let go off that easily. Also criminals aren't less here.  So basically I'm in a dilemma right now that should I talk to him further or should I not. That's the reason I'm not calling because it's always like never break a relationship after being in it for so long, rather than that control it in the beginning only. Apart from that, i would never call him as my dad is not knowing about me talking to him and than i feel guilty.

When again coming to COVID 19 the air is getting pure and that is what i love the most. Till than giving our relationship a break untill his birthday would arrive and i would call him to wish him at 12am. That's because I have now got a hint about him having feelings for me and thinking his future with me. So i got afraid letting it calm down a bit, i decided to just chat. Whoa! What a difficulty in managing your friends as well. I feel this as the most difficult task ever as this trying to resolve it always ends tangling up.