You readers would be thinking what stupidity is this, Can a girl not decide by her own about the Life she would have. Yes she has all the right, but my dad is a bit ancient in his thoughts. Now people are moving towards western thoughts but we Indians have always been very cautious and usually it's just that parents are the ones always deciding about their children, whom to marry and where to go. Yes in a way that's correct as no experience better than them can be with anyone else. And we young minds at this time have hormones and age affecting are brains and so we can never have perfect decision. Thus all i feel is having a permission and than talking would be quite better and also no one would be under guilt. All would be satisfied along with me. I always wonder why he always cling to ancient ones. But for him it seems like everything, and once you be a bit forward he would consider you flying in air, and the next statement he would say is definitely this one, "say on ground...No need to fly high"

I many a times try to understand why....why so inferiority in thoughts, and i always try explaining, but next i hear is that u should not speak much in front of your elders. Although they are wrong. I always hate this inequality i face at my house. This time of lockdown being a crucial time for all and at this time should a mother not expect everyone to help. But no! My so well and good brother is a couch potato. And he would never help untill he's not told to. So what, should we not make him help? Atleast we'll have to do thid for 21 days so that it may form into a habit. Still whenever i would raise my voice in this matter i would always be shunned up. And my dad would always end it up saying that "Now these children are no more children. They are grown ups." So deliberate! Still why is it so that everytime when Mike won't do his work  my dad would do it, but it's just one day i asked him to do my work, And a wonderful reply i get is "Are you not ashamed of saying that to me, It's your work you should do it!" Damn! I get so angry when i type this... consider my anger when it happened. Its always that this partiality is done.

Now another point is that its not only partiality, it's as well gender inequality. Where me being a girl is always made to work no matter what. I never got that why am i always never allowed to be out of my house late at night. That point was just beautifully kept in front of me by my so called best friend Shane. Shane just asked me why does this happen that your dad would not allow you to be out of house after 10 while your brother can go at 12 and come at 1. Why so? And at that time i wasn't able to answer that question except that my father is like that, so leave it. I have always been a girl who can never see anything wrong happening in front of me. Now if someone does wrong to me i would cut off him/her from my life. But how to cut off my life from my life. Its since the childhood that i have always been listening to every word of my dad may it be right or wrong, but i would always consider that right. But now it seems that i shouldn't be doing tht. I'll have to raise my voice. But than whenever i raise my voice i am always made to shut up.