For the past few days, I wouldn't easily go along with their efforts. I had things to do myself, so I wasn't always purposely avoiding their antics.

The boys have been trying to contact me throughout the rest of the week by trying to talk in class, passing through halls, streets, the apartments. They even sometimes knocked at my door but when I refuse to respond they eventually give up.

Except once, when Taehyung fell asleep at my door after two hours straight of trying to get me to come out and eventually playing on his Nintendo switch on the floor in front of my door.

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That particular day, I was having a bad day because I received a less than intended grade on my last report for English and was adamant on keeping to myself.

It broke my heart once I let out a small crack of the door hours after he first tried. Usually if they knock, I went to my room and ignored their words by listening to music or distracting myself somehow. At least he wasn't leaning on the door but the wall next to it. He gave me room to step out if I wanted to.

He was curled up in a ball and hugging his knees to his chest. His head was laid back against the wall and tilted a bit. The floor and position must be uncomfortable. I closed my door and panicked on deciding if I should wake him up and help him to his room or to bring him to my couch and let him sleep... or talk.

After a minute, I just decided to lead him onto my couch because he might've been too stubborn to go to his apartment without confronting me. I rushed over to the closet in my room and bring out two fluffy blankets before bringing them to the couch. I laid them out neatly and went to get a pillow before I heard voices right outside my door.

I quietly stepped up to the peephole and saw the top of Namjoon's form crouched down to, what I was assuming, Taehyung's sleeping form. It was out of my peripheral vision but I could slightly hear their conversation in mumbles.

"I know love, but she doesn't want to talk. We can't force her to. You can't possibly sleep any longer in your position, it's very uncomfortable. Let's go."

"I'm fine Joonie. She has to leave her apartment at some point! And I'll be here to greet her. I really really miss her. I feel bad."

"We all do. But at this rate, you are bothering her because you are forcing her to confront you. We will be able to catch her with due time sweetie, but for now let's go cuddle. Want to watch a movie with Hobi and I?"

I guess Taehyung nodded because I see Namjoon stand up while helping Taehyung up as well. I duck under the peephole when I see Namjoon glance at it. I know it's tiny, but he could've seen me.

I heard shuffling, so I took a look back. Both of them were walking further down the hall until they were out of my view. Taehyung was slumped over and leaning on Namjoon. Namjoon was rubbing the back of Taehyung's neck and murmuring words softly to the younger. Taehyung lightly held the Nintendo Switch in his other hand.

After they left, I backed away from the peephole and stared at the ground with my head leaning against the door. I miss them too. All of their company was what I got used to during the first weeks that I arrived here. But it hurts that they ignored me and said those words to me throughout last week, only to have a change of heart after I saved Yoongi and heard the audio. I can't just easily let them in if they can't trust me enough. They dropped me from the group real quick and I took the backlash without their support.

With my depressed mood, I returned to the couch and slowly refolded the blankets. I was so close to letting Taehyung in, which would be followed by the rest. I sighed and brought both blankets back with me to the closet.

I started to play music and worked on a bit of coding assignments to distract my mood.

That appeared to be the worst of the attempts to confront me. Throughout the week, I was skillfully avoiding them in the halls and at the apartment.

Although, I recall a close second was one time when Jungkook chased me down the hallway after I got off my scooter.

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I had just gotten back from leaving the campus and parked my scooter in the garage. Pulling my bag over my shoulder, I pushed the elevator button and patiently waited for it to arrive. Once it did, the doors opened to reveal Jungkook leaning on the wall. I stepped to the side to let him out, but he didn't move from his spot and motioned for me to enter with him. Warily stepping in, I looked at him weirdly as he smiled in response.

"Hello y/n! What a coincidence to see you here. Isn't it surprising for us both to be at the elevator."

I sighed and turned my body towards the wall. It's not a coincidence if there is only one elevator that went to the garage. Heck, there is only one elevator for the whole building, which I find is a bit shocking. There never is a problem with malfunction or too many people, so I guess it works.

I hear Jungkook start whistling a catchy tune and I enjoy the notes that disrupt our silence.

The elevator just passed the lobby before I heard Jungkook suddenly ask, "Can I come over? We can hang out!" I freeze and am reminded of his words when I had asked the same question a while ago. His response still stung, all of their words did. "Stop bothering me alright? No I don't want to pretend to amuse you by purposely losing at the games. It's such a burden to have you over. And you honestly think I trust you? You bother me."

I spaced out until the elevator arrived on our floor. Glancing over, he was looking at me expectantly with hopeful eyes. I slowly shook my head and dashed to my apartment. I hear his rushed footsteps after me. Curse my apartment for being at the end of the hall!

"C'mon y/n! I'm sorry for my horrible attitude. Please hold up!" I quickened my steps as we passed the second row of doors. Halfway there y/n.

"Y/n! I really miss you! Can we just talk?" He was catching up due to the patter of his feet not too far behind mine. I near my apartment and I never typed in my code so quickly. Thank Jesus it was correct because I heard the lock click as I rushed to open it. Briskly stepping in, I turn to see Jungkook right in front of me, panting just as hard as I am. The distance we covered wasn't far, but we were running like crazy.

I shut my door as I see his eyes tear up and his mouth utter the words, "Please let me in."

The door closed with a thud and I immediately stepped away from it. I don't want to be tempted to look at him. I quickly entered my room and simply chucked my backpack onto the floor by my desk. I go in front of my bed and spread my arms before gracefully letting myself fall into my sheets. 

Every time they try to apologize, it hurts. I want to tell them that I miss them too, but maybe they are lying when they apologize. I don't know anymore because my mind is fighting against my heart.

My mind repeats their harsh actions and words over and over, as if the scenes are stuck on replay.

But my heart longs to cuddle and hug them. I just grew too accustomed to their presence, I guess.

Out of the whole week, I only briefly responded to one of them. It was just at the moment as well. Jin had caught me after my job.

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I had just finished my shift on Sunday. After I finished changing out of my uniform and apron in the changing room, I grabbed my bag from the break room and said my goodbyes to Hwasa and Wheein. Mina and Jihyo had already left, but I took my time so I don't have to see the guys. Just in case.

Exiting the front entrance, I start walking the path to the apartment complex. I forgot my earbuds, so I shrugged and went with the sounds of nature at night. 

A few minutes later, however, I still notice the sound of footsteps behind me. I passed by several people, but these sets of footsteps had been following me for a bit too long. I slowly stopped under a streetlight to check my phone and see if the person would pass me. I hear their footsteps near me and stop in front of me.

Alarmed, I look up, only to see Jin's broad smile plastered on his lips.

"Hello y/n." I slowly nod and raise an eyebrow in question.

"I-, well, uhm. I wanted to make sure you got back safely from the cafe when I saw a man follow you as you exited. He was, uh, staring at you from outside."

"What! Where?" I announce while cautiously looking around the area.

Jin's eyes lit up as he hesitantly said, "I was, well, joking?"

"You- You can't joke about that Seokjin!" A pout instantly replaced his shy smile.

"I know. But I really just wanted to hear your voice. Or at least have a reaction out of you. Just something different from ignoring us. I'm sorry."

"Oh." I let out. As we just stood under the street light in silence. After a few moments, I peeked up at him to see him looking at the ground with a pout on his lips and a sad look in his eyes.

"Let's head back. It's already dark." I said as I wanted to leave the awkward atmosphere.

"Oh yeah huh. Okay. Let's go. I can lead- unless you want to! Or we could walk together. But you wouldn't be comfortable. I can-"

"You're rambling. It's okay. We can just walk together if we are going to the same place anyway."

"Oh yeah sure! Good idea." He was following behind me as he talked but he jogged up beside me, leaving a big gap between us. He was walking on the edge of the curb as I walked in the middle of the path.

After a few moments of his tottering over the edge, I state, "Stand next to me! You're going to fall at this rate!" He jumps a bit on my demand but regains his balance and catches up besides me. He left a decent gap between us and we continued to walk in silence.

"So, how did you find out where I work? Do the others know?"

"Ah, no. I found out because I asked one of your friends. Hwasa, I think?"

"Wait, how do you know her?"

"Ah, I recalled seeing you one time with her near the apartments. I saw her again by coincidence at the supermarket and asked if she knew where you worked. She said you guys worked together at that cafe."

I just hummed in response. I wasn't exactly perturbed by him finding out, but just a bit surprised that he would give the effort to. We never discussed our jobs before.

From the side, I could see him glancing at me several times, but I just leaned my head up and started to focus on the bright stars. I was looking for several constellations. Hopefully I don't bump into anything or trip.

"You know y/n. I'm so very sorry for my actions. I really am. Gosh, I'm such an idiot. Please don't shut us all out forever. We all just- We didn't think of the entire situation."

I kept my eyes on the stars, even as I felt his gaze burning onto my side-profile as we proceeded forward.

We continued to walk in silence. I found the big dipper and the Sagittarius constellations. I was also thinking about his woeful statement. I know they are all regretful and sorry for all their actions. I could obviously tell they were trying to apologize by their several attempts to contact me. I'm just not ready to hear them out.

Call me petty, but I want them to feel bad just a bit longer. They have each other to console, while they all just dropped me like it's hot. It still stings to be reminded of their words without my wanting to remember. Memories just hit me and hurt me a bit more. 

Even if I were to forgive them and we become close by some chance, will that event happen again? It's a scary thought.

Jin lets out a deep sigh and I see his head drop down to face the floor. We could see the apartment complex now. Just about five more minutes of walking.

"I think I'll eventually forgive you guys. I'm just scared to."

Jin didn't respond after that, but started watching the stars with me too. I risked a small glance in his direction after he hasn't said anything for a minute.

He had a small smile on his lips and his eyes shined with... hope? I didn't know you could show that emotion through a person's eyes but my gut told me that that was what his eyes were speaking. I turned back to the stars and recognize the Columba constellation.

We entered the bright lights coming from the entrance of the apartment lobby. He opened the door for me and allowed me entrance first. I smiled at the old man behind the counter as he let out a small 'welcome'. Jin followed me into the elevator and we silently waited for our floor to arrive. 

I looked up at him, in the corner, and saw a smile still sitting on his lips. I glanced up and our eyes made contact, to which I quickly turned my attention to the buttons. The elevator announced our arrival with a happy 'ding' and we both proceeded to exit.

I thought he would have followed me to my apartment to see if I would open up and talk to him, but he turned towards his door which caused me to slightly turn towards his direction.

"Good night y/n. Thank you for speaking to me. We'll get you to forgive us. Promise."

He flashed a bright grin before briskly entering his apartment. I turned after the door had shut and slowly walked over to my door.

I will forgive them. Just not now.

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I sat at my couch, stuffing my face with popcorn and watching an episode of Meteor Garden. It's a pretty sad one at that and my feels were surfacing as the episode progressed. I reached into the bag only to grab a handful of kernels. I looked inside to see I had finished all the popcorn already. Oh.

Carefully pausing the show with my non-buttery fingers, I stand up and enter my kitchen to throw away the popcorn bag. Walking over to the sink, I wash my hands and dry them. Setting the towel down, I continue to pat my hands on my sweatpants to get any of the water out while walking out of the kitchen to the living room. Just as I round the corner to my seat, three consecutive knocks were made on the door. Oh boy.

I hesitate and question which one of them it would be today. It is Sunday so, the majority of them could be knocking. After a few seconds, three more knocks were sounded. 

I quietly walk over to the peep hole and look through to see someone I didn't expect.

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A/N: I'm sorry my updates keep getting posted later... and later. Oof, but we are chugging along. 

I can't believe it's already almost three months into the year. And we are almost at 8K votes? I really haven't been keeping up to date with the exponential increase of reads and votes but that's a freaking lot of activity!

I also didn't thank those that commented on the tips to help calm down, but thank you! I really appreciate it and I used some of them and they really helped me relax :)))

Question Time! What do you do to relax? More tips please💜!

Personally, I enjoy dimming the lights, turning on my fairy lights, snatching my dog, and either writing or watching Youtube/Netflix. Food is always a means to fully getting into my zone. If I am writing, I love putting lofi music or a soft kpop mix.