Yoongi's POV

After she had ran off, I finally fell limp in Namjoon's hold. My heart vaguely throbbed again. What the fuck? Which one of my soulmates was sad again?

"Yoongi..." I let my pissed off expression do the talking as I look over at Jin.

"Listen to me carefully. She didn't push you with ill intent." I scoff at his answer, but notice the others' expressions not match my own.

"What." I hissed out.

"You almost got hit by a car. You didn't hear her or us screaming for you. She saved you. She risked her life to save you." There were a few moments of silence before I let out a small chuckle that grew in volume into hysterical bellows.

Wiping my eyes after a minute, I look back at their hesitant faces and ask, "You've gotta be fucking kidding me. She actually saved me? She pushed me down a whole damn flight of stairs this week! You're joking right?"

After we all stayed silent, Jimin suddenly spoke up with a timid voice saying, "W-We aren't completely sure that she pushed you down the steps. B-but she was the only one there."

"Exactly! She was the only one there."

"Look, we don't know what happened at those stairs but we all saw her save you from the car just now. You could have died if she hadn't've stepped in!" 

I stayed silent after that. That day, I don't even remember what happened. I had suffered a mild concussion which caused a very mild amnesia concerning the event. I just remembered meeting her there and the conversation up to her asking if she was a burden but that was it. Everything else was fuzzy.

My head buzzed as I tried to recall what happened. It took this whole week to grab bits and pieces of the event, but I just can't remember what happened in the end. 

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"She left a box." We all turn towards where Jungkook was pointing. It was a small white and blue present left on the grass by the sidewalk.

"We should return it." Namjoon suggested as he walked over to it and picked it up. However he picked it up upside-down and the cap fell off with a simple black flash drive and a note following right after.

"Namjoon!" Hoseok scolded.

"Ah, sorry!" 

Jimin picked up the cap and the flashdrive, but paused when he saw the sticky note on it.

"Jiminie, don't read it." Taehyung lightly tapped Jimin's back.

"I know I shouldn't've but it says 'When you finally woman up and give this to the Bangtan Boys, I'll treat you to Starbucks.'"

"Huh? What does that mean?" Jungkook curiously peers at the note from above Jimin.

"That we are supposed to see what's on the flashdrive." I coldly responded.

They all looked over at my scowl and folded arms.

"Should we?"

"Well, it's for us, isn't it? Who isn't curious to see it?" Taehyung wondered. No one objected.

"I don't know abo-" Jin started but was cut off.

"It's settled. Let's go look at it now." Hoseok ordered before walking back to the apartment complex with the others following.

I cast a glance back to the road I once walked before letting out a sigh and turning back. Following behind the group slowly, we reach Namjoon's room because he had a large laptop. He input the flash drive as we all surrounded him on the couch.

It was an .mp3 file and we listened intently as he put the speakers up. It was the whole of y/n and I's conversation including Jisoo's intrusion. However, it continued on after I left and revealed Jisoo's intentional thoughts.

As soon as the audio ended, the black screen reflected the shocked expressions of the guys around me. Of course they'd be shocked. All they knew from the event was what I "knew". I abruptly stood up and left the room without looking back.

As soon as I stepped out, I cast a glance at her apartment before going towards mine. I was a bit surprised when it was true that Jisoo threatened her, but everything else I knew.

As soon as I slam my door behind me, I go straight to my couch and plop down on it. Mustering all my thoughts regarding y/n, I bend down and bring my hands up to frustratedly tug on my hair.

I knew Jisoo lied. On all accounts.

I also knew I was being extremely unfair to y/n. On all accounts.

However, why now do I feel a tsunami of guilt flooding my brain. All I could think about is how sorry I am for my actions and behavior towards her.

Maybe it's because of hearing the confirmation of my thoughts by the audio... or perhaps my less than inviting attitude towards her from the start.

I know I had many opportunities to step in and apologize to y/n for my rude responses to basically everything she does.

The truth is that I'm not annoyed by her.

I'm jealous of her.

I've been wary of her since the first time I saw her in the hall and thought she was someone from the university because she was a college girl; however, she proved to become really close friends with the others way too quickly. I had major doubts about her, but eventually those negative thoughts turned into resentful ones as she got closer to our group. I refused to let her get close to me because I didn't want to get close myself. In the short time she's known us, the boys have opened up to her way more than I expected.

I didn't like that.

So as the weeks went on, I kept my cold front up, but at moments I'd feel my resolve slipping and feel a tug in me that wanted to join her laughter or make her smile. I then felt my jealousy follow right after as the others made her laugh harder.

Sometimes I questioned who I was actually envious of.

Jealousy is a funny thing. 

(You know... I was planning on leaving it off right here... but then I thought that was too cruel so enjoy teehee)

That night in the grocery store, I had left early because I noticed dumb, dumber, and dumbest had made a scene and I wanted to escape it before I was associated with it. I stepped out passed the checkout area and saw Namjoon standing idly while checking something on his phone. I briefly mentioned that I was heading out and he said he'd join me.

As soon as we stepped out, the scene with y/n and the unknown male had spurred an unknown anger in me. Namjoon was about to step forward, but I tugged his shoulder and said that he should get the others quickly and that'd I'd handle it until they arrived.

He hesitated, but ultimately nodded and ran off. The rest, just occurred naturally. I really don't know what made me defend her, but I just reasoned that she was still a girl that was getting harassed and as a human, I should help her.

After that fiasco, I realized what I had done after she hugged me. Yet it felt so nice to have her in my arms, that I had to hug her back. And, perhaps, at the time I thought it was a mistake, but now I miss the feeling. 

I admit that.

That night I had overthought my actions and regretted them. I let my guard down and she held a spot in my mind. Officially. I refused to believe it though and planned to make sure she knows that it was nothing, too.

When we spoke the next day, I followed through and felt a small tinge of guilt to her questions because she really wasn't a bother. 

Now that I think about it, really, I just made her out to be one.

With Jisoo's arrival, I was shocked at her words, yet at the moment I "believed" them because I didn't want to face y/n after I told her off. I didn't want the boys to be annoyed with me because of what I said to her and the chance that she might tell them what I did.

So I cut her off first before she could do it to me.

When she tried to explain herself to me the next day, I didn't want to hear anything because I had already lied to my soulmates and I couldn't go back on it. At the time, I was scared because of what I'd done, but I convinced myself that she actually was after something. I know she wasn't but I believed my lie so far that I "did".

Yet in the back of my mind I screamed  at my stupidity alone.

The whole week, I thought that she was getting what she deserved by "pushing me down the steps" and being a "two-faced bitch" but I knew better than that. I actually don't remember what happened before I fell, but I know she didn't do it on purpose. She couldn't have. Yet I went along with the false truth.

And now I feel horrible? My heart ached again and I winced as I brought a hand to my chest. My head spun with dizziness as I thought back on that day. This was worse than any headache I've had before.

I got up to see if I could take some medicine but fell as I felt my heart throb painfully. My head hit the ground, and suddenly...

I remembered.

All my emotions paused as I stare at the ground shocked as the sudden memory of the kiss surrounded my thoughts. The event playing like a film in my mind as the phantom feelings I felt from the event crashed through my system.

Oh man. Holy shit.

She's my soulmate.

Suddenly, I was picked up from the floor and gently laid on the couch as I hear fuzzy voices around me. I could see my soulmates looking at me with concern but I couldn't focus on any of them.

"I've made a mistake."

I hear murmuring in response but ignore it as I continue, "I lied to you all. I knew Jisoo lied to me all along."

This time there was silence as my vision starts to focus and I look up at each of them. They all looked shocked or had blank faces. I didn't mean to blurt out what I said, but it's too late now.

Then I see Namjoon's jaw hitch and an angry expression appear, the same emotion starting to mirror upon the others' faces.

"You knew." I stayed silent as I grimly stared up at each of them. Some looked away from me while others kept eye contact.

"Yet, you continued to provide evidence to back up your lie? And continued to encourage her isolation as we played along to your plan. Now, I knew you didn't like her, we all know that, but this was way too far. We've tried to encourage you to befriend her for so long. She was our friend Yoongi. Just because she's not yours doesn't mean you lie to us to get us away from her."

"I didn't me-" My words died in my throat as I looked into Namjoon's irate eyes.

"What? You didn't intend for this to happen or that you didn't expect your plan to go better than you thought?"

I couldn't respond as I watch Jin lightly grab Namjoon's shoulders and murmur for him to calm down.

"Well Yoongi?"

Is this how she felt when I burst on her.

"Not going to respond, huh. We'll leave. Don't talk to us until you're ready to apologize to her. Count yourself in big trouble." Namjoon turned and ushered Jimin and Jungkook out of the room since they stood near the door. The others slowly filtered out, until only Jin was left.

I hung my head at my oldest soulmate. He was always the one that encouraged me to stop being anti-social and get to know her. I knew he was on the edge when I told him about the lie. He never glared at her, he always just avoided eye contact and never said anything to her.

One time I caught him making her lunch, as usual, in the blue bin and instantly walked up to him. I told him that he shouldn't do this anymore because it leaves a small connection to us. We had an argument that night about us being too cruel on her, and then I brought the 'push down the stairs' card and he shut up. 

I regret that.

"You know... I'm very disappointed in you Yoongi."

I sunk lower into myself as I felt a pang in my heart. That one was from myself.

"I won't leave you alone though. If you still want to come over, you can. The others may ignore you but you know they'll come around soon enough. However, you better apologize to her, no and's, if's, or but's. I'm going to leave you for now, but I won't cut you off completely. I know you are feeling guilty, we all are sharing that right now. Tonight, we'll let the others cool off, so I'll bring your dinner to you later. Then we can talk if you want to. I'll see you soon."

I heard him turn and walk out. Once the door was shut, I burst out into tears. I felt overwhelmed with the information I had to take in and the scolding I've received, even though it was way lighter than what I deserved.

I should've never lied. This is worse. 

I don't know how to face her, and now the others have given me the exact same cold-shoulder as they've given her.

Why am I so stupid. 

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A/N: Woohoo! We hit 100K reads! So here is an early update. 

Ta-da! *Throws glitter in the air and proceeds to do jazz hands* (That's gonna be horrible to clean up)

Guys what the heck? All the votes and comments is like whoa.  

I should've warned for angst... whoops? It's far too late.

Well, well. Question is, who watches anime? If so, why not let me know who your favorite anime character is?

I've had my fair share of anime through the years and I have to say, I'm gonna have to go a bit old school and say that I like Haruhi from 'Ouran Host Club'. But Yoonji from 'Run BTS' is a pretty good second.

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