Maine

As soon as I left RJ, dumiretso ako sa table namin. Ivan has this questioning look but did not dare to ask me naman. He just continued telling me stories about him and his adventures. I on the other hand, just listened pero deep inside, I was thinking about my confrontation with RJ. A part of me wanted to take him but the other wanted to just let it go. Umandar na naman ang pagiging pessimist ko. As much as I want to change it, pero it's haunting me most of the time. I wanted to change that kase it's a hindrance to my happiness.

I never saw, RJ again tonight. Maybe he went home. His date was clearly scanning the place based on her actions. Maybe he left without even telling her. I know I am to be blamed for what RJ did but good thing, that Janeth doesn't know.

Few minutes before midnight, I decided to tell Ivan, I wanted to go home. My Mom and Dad were still busy chatting with the other guest so I told them, uuna na ako ng uwi. I was drained. Pagod ako, not physically but emotionally and spiritually. Hearing RJ love me is draining.

When we finally got home, I bid Ivan goodbye and did not ask him to stay pa, because it was pass 12am and I'm so tired. I know he did understand that. So when he left, as I was opening our gate, someone grab me from the wrist.

"RJ, what are you doing?"

"I wanted to talk to you. Please, can you come with me?"

"It's late na. Baka hanapin ako ng parents ko. Susunod na rin yun pauwi."

"Please.. Dei, I wanted to talk to you pa. I missed you so much. Don't you miss me?"

"RJ, I do.. pero it's late.."

"If you do, then come with me.. please?"

So I had no choice but to go with him. He opened the door of his car and let me in sa shotgun seat. As he drove off, I texted Manang Ruby and told her, RJ invited me to talk. She's one of my trusted people. I know she will not tell Mom and Dad about it. I told her not to tell Mom and Dad that I was not home, though. She replied na okay naman and no problem. Hinihintay daw din talaga niya kami umuwi.

Buti na lang gising pa si Manang. She told me to text her and tell her pagpauwi na ako. Natuto pa akong magsinungaling sa parents ko.

We went to this place sa Antipolo, overlooking. Nakaset talaga ang mood for our talk. Pinili talaga niya yun place na serene.

"Why did you bring me here?"

"Dei, I know hindi pa tayo officially together. Di pa nga ako halos nakakapagsimula manligaw, pero bakit ganito? I mean bakit parang hindi pa nagsisimula e matatapos na agad?"

"I know, RJ. Pasensiya na pero hindi ko rin alam."

"Do you like me? I mean if you woukd say yes, ako bahala sa atin. I will lead the way. Just don't walk away from me. Please. I love you, and ngayon ko lang naramdaman ito sa isang babae."

"RJ, I like you, too. Pero..."

"Pero ano?"

"I'm scared. Ngayon ko lang nararanasan ito. I was never intimate with anyone. Hindi pa ako nagka-boyfriend kahit kailan. And I'm scared about this."

"Don't be, please. I will take care of you.. Do you believe me?"

"Paano yun Janeth? I think she loves you pa rin."

"I don't love her anymore. Actually, I never loved her the way i loved you. Akala ko lang yun dati,maybe infatuation lang. I was still yoing that time."

"What if you're infatuated din lang ngayon? I mean paano kung akala mo lang na mahal mo ako kase na-challenge ka sa akin?"

"I don't think so. I've never felt this to anyone. Nakakahiya man aminin pero kinikilig ako, kalalaki kong tao pero nararamdaman ko yun butterflies and somersaults sa stomache ko pagnakikita kita. Do you feel that, too?"

"I do.."

"So pareho tayo ng nararamdaman?"

"I think.."

"Mahal mo rin ako?"

"Siguro. I don't know?"

"Di ka sigurado?"

I saw his sadness when I told him that. He became quiet.

"RJ, I mean, what if I am?"

"What do you mean?"

"I... I think I am.."

"What do you think?"

"Nakakainis ka ha!"

"Ano nga? Puro one liner kase sagot mo e.."

"I think I do love you, too. No I mean I know, I love you, too."

"Really? I love you, Dei. I love you!"

"Wait! Huwag kang sumigaw! Ano ba?"

"Happy lang ako, mahal ako ng mahal ko."

"Bakit kase nawala ka na lang bigla?"

"I'm sorry. Di na maulit. Let's not talk abou that, please."

"Okay.. RJ? Are you sure?"

"Sure of what?"

"Na mahal mo ako?"

"Oo, bakit? Hindi ka naniniwala?"

"Natatakot ako.."

"Don't be. I'll show you I love you."

"Paano?"

"Basta! Ayoko sabihin.."

"Okay. Let's go home.."

"Sandali lang. Can i kiss you na?"

"Wait! Di pa pwede! Hindi pa ako marunong.."

"I'll teach you."

"You will?"

"Come.."

A/N Just imagine na lang po.. I know you know na. Pero kiss lang naman.. No SPG ang mga stories ko, I simply can't! Di ko kaya, promise.

No proofread. Sorry😆