Some things might look easier but when the time comes, you realize that they are anything but easy.

Adam and I never had this many arguments in our entire married life, how many we had in these past twenty days.

Having patience is something which we both are struggling to have especially now when we need it the most, we are constantly being snappy and at each other's throats.

We still follow the rule which we have established at the beginning of our married life of not taking arguments to our beds and try to solve the issue before going to sleep because none of us likes to drag the issue to the other day. But this doesn't mean this is not taking a strain on our relationship.

Sometimes we intentionally try to avoid talking to each other because we don't want to fight. We are aware that in this state of mind whatever the talk would be, we will end up having some sort of argument because we may not agree with each other which is happening a lot.

We don't brush our issues under the rug, because even though we argue but in the end, we come up with a solution. However, but at times we feel mentally drained from all the fights that we try to look for ways to avoid fighting at all, even if it means taking a small break from each other.

Honestly, we know this is just a phase because we both are struggling to deal with other issues, so we don't take anything to our hearts. We love each other, and little disagreements are just a part of any couple's life which is not something that can cause us to question our love for each other.

"I might be late as I will be going to check the house's progress after finishing my work." Adam finishes drinking the coffee and walks to wash his mug in the kitchen sink, "Please apologize to Beth from my side that I will not be able to join for dinner tonight."

Nearly every night we all have dinner together, as per mom's wish to have one meal of the day together. Since everyone is at home at dinner time, so that's the time we all sit and have our food together. It is the best part of the day because everything seems normal even Adam and I feel refreshed.

"Okay." Nodding my head, I tie up my hair in a bun and stretch my arms above my head. "I have deposited the check, in our mutual account so now I think we will be easily able to cover the cost of this month."

"Hannah!" He exhales an angry breath, "When I have asked you not to worry about all this stuff because I am managing everything, then why don't you listen to me?" He punches the counter.

"Because it doesn't have to be only you that should be dealing with all this. I have said this before and I am saying it again, Adam, we are equals. So we are going to share our responsibilities equally, I am not going to back down from doing my part even if you don't like it." Standing up I glare at him while slamming my hand on the counter with even more force causing his eyes to slightly widen, "That house is not just yours, it is mine too and you can't stop me from helping you with the finances of our house." I nearly yell at him in frustration because he is driving me insane.

"And don't you think that these stupid tactics can intimidate me." Clenching my teeth, I narrow my eyes at him while slapping the counter again, "Because if once I lose my mind then the destruction which the fire has caused will look nothing compared to what I am capable of doing." Picking up the glass, I throw it across the room and watch it shatters into hundreds of pieces as soon as it hits the floor trying to calm my anger which brewing inside me.

"Geez, Hannah, calm down woman!" His eyebrows shoot up and take a step towards me.

"Let's discuss this calmly because I know when you are angry you don't think rationally." He sighs, trying to hold my hand but I pull it away, "All I am saying that for now, I am managing everything, if I will need anything then I will definitely ask you."

"But if we both are putting our shares together then it will be easier for us to handle the expenses, all the burden will not fall on your shoulders, Adam." I run my hand through my hair and free my hair from the bun, "This way we will also be able to save for ourselves too. I know you were earlier thinking to expand your office because you have hired some more staff, so you will be able to work on that too if we merge our finances."

A headache started to build making me dizzy, while I am feeling annoyed by this constant spat over money. It is not that we are running low on finances it is just that he is overworking himself and not letting me help when I easily can.

Suddenly, the world around me spins and I try to hold something to stop myself from losing my balance. Grabbing the back of chair, I slump back in the chair nearly falling down as I lose control of my body.

The last thing I remember Adam's panicked voice calling my name when everything goes black.

I don't know how but maybe because of stress I fell unconscious. However, as soon as I gained consciousness Adam forced me to go to the hospital to get me checked.

Even though I was feeling better other than the light headache but I agreed for his peace of mind because he had been freaking out.

And now I don't know whether to be glad or upset that I agreed because his current reaction is worse than before. Earlier he was panicking but now he is silent.

Adam's knuckles almost turn white with his death grip on the steering wheel as we drive back from the hospital. On the other hand, my heart is hammering against my ribcage so wildly that it feels like any moment it will jump outside my chest while all the worst scenarios are going through my mind.

The entire drive back home is filled with only silence, I never knew how silence can become so suffocating until now. The car stops in front of the outhouse and I am quick to get outside the car just to get away from this suffocation that I am feeling. I walk towards the door before he can step outside. However, he is quickly by my side as he wraps his arm around my shoulder. His face still has this haunting expression that is sinking my heart with dread.

Tears prick in my eyes, but I refuse to cry because I can't let myself fall weak because I need to be strong for myself. I love Adam, I really do, but at this moment I need to think about myself first.

Adam's silence is making me feel abandoned and for the first time I am feeling scared because if this is how things are going to be then I have to make some harsh but necessary decisions... decisions that may change everything between us.

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