School work is a burden, it takes most of my time and then I hardly have time to update.
Advice from a thoughtful student, drop out of school!!! 😒

Lol, Just kidding, please take school work as serious as possible! 😂💙

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It was three days after I kissed Timi.
I didn't regret it one bit but whenever I thought of it, I felt embarrassed but I knew for sure if I had the chance to do so, I'll do it all over again.

I wasn't sure what I wanted but I knew my stomach had butterflies whenever I thought of Timi.
I really didn't want this happening but it was.

About Fisayo, he took it upon himself to come home to beg me, he didn't mind if my mom and brother would be around and luckily for me, my mom wasn't and my brother had a female friend of his to keep him company so he only gave Fisayo a dangerous threat of adding more bruises to his face if he dares touch me.

He spent almost the whole day, kneeling beside me holding onto my leg, asking me to forgive him.
Ordinarily, I would have cried but I couldn't, one because I wouldn't want him to see me cry as usual.... But Timi could.
Two, my brother was around, if I dare cry, the inner devil in my brother would come out and do something dangerous to Fisayo.

"I told you I have forgiven you, stand up" I said calmly, I wouldn't want Mercy or my brother to see him in such situation.

"I won't, until I'm sure you have really forgiven me.. Please don't break up with me "

" I'm not breaking up with you " I said for what felt like a million times.
I wouldn't break up with him, he made a mistake and I'll forgive him.

Timi

I was thinking of Timi again!

I hate to admit that little time with him made me foolishly open my heart for him.

Why me?

Why me?

" stand up" I said to Fisayo removing Timi from my head.

Fisayo wasn't ready to but the expression on my face showed I wanted him to stand by force. He did as I said and I tapped the chair for him to come sit beside me.

"I love you and won't break up with you " I said with a smile.

His expression was worth a million. His eyes watered, why shouldn't they?
What I did was a very sweet thing to do.
I would forgive him anytime, but Olivia.. I'd rather fetch water with a basket than forgive her. I still had a good mind to beat her up soon, she wasn't a good fighter anyway.

"are y-you ss-serious? "

" Yes, I am " I answered with a smile.
His hands gently moved from his lap to my shoulders and he made to bring me to his chest when my brother came out.

" guy guy guy, are you trying to strangle my sister again? " he roared.
The way he said again made me think he knew of the first time Fisayo strangled me but I realised he meant after hitting me on the jaw, he then wants to hit me again.

Fisayo's hands dropped "no no, bro, it's not like that?"

"guy how far, no call me your bro.. I no be your bro! Se mo jo egbon yin ni(do I look like your brother) ? " Dotun yelled.

" please, don't yell " I begged standing up to stand in between my brother and boyfriend.
Dotun looked like he was ready to throw me away just to get to Fisayo and honestly, I was tired of my friends always getting intimidated by my brother. Just when Dotun was about saying something, his friend came downstairs to us.

"What's going on here?... Anyway, babe come back to the room with me, I miss you already " She said as she wrapped her hands around his waist from behind.
My brother's face loosened, he turned back and gave her a small smile and I was glad she came...

" I'll be up in a minute, go back there " he said softly as he placed a quick kiss on her head.

" ohh, okay, I'll be waiting, I love you "

" I love you babe " my brother mumbled ... If only I can tell her there was another girl here yesterday whom he told he loved.

She smiled at him and gave me a small smile before going upstairs.
My brother's eyes were fixed on Fisayo who stood uneasy.

"Benita, come here " my brother ordered. I did as he said because I had no strength for trouble. He held my arm and moved towards the dinning then roughly shoved me to a corner where Fisayo couldn't see us.

" ouch"

"Sorry" he grumbled.

"can you stop acting this way. I'm not a baby " I begged. He had to stop, guys his age were dying for me but here he was being an annoying elder brother.

"Benny, you know I can beat 100 guys for you, I'll rather fight for you anytime than to fight for my girlfriends" he stated.
I giggled at the fact that he knew he had girlfriends and not a girlfriend and I also knew he was just trying to protect me, from what exactly?... From guys that throws things or strangle girls!

"aww, you love me " I teased poking his chest.

"I didn't say so" he answered, I laughed and walked away before he decides to pull me back. I knew quite well that he had always stayed at my door every night during my depressed state and had heard me cry several times and this was his way of preventing such from happening again.

I walked over to my 'boyfriend' and gave him a reassuring smile, I stood on my toes as I placed a light kiss on his lips, 'we'll make this work' I said to myself ignoring the annoying guy on dread standing by the dinning with clenched fists.

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" I don't want to go back to school " Aisha grumbled as she threw her head on Debra's pillow.

"I'll like to tell my mom, I want to drop out sef" Debra answered combing her hair.
We had come to be visit her, just to hang out, obviously without Olivia.

"can you guys listen to me pleaseee " I was telling them about Timi but they weren't interested one bit.

" dropping out would be cool " Aisha reasoned.

" I know right " replied Debra.

" it's thunder that will fire both of you " I cursed. They laughed and we got on talking.

" honestly, I would have broken up with Fisayo if I were you " said Aisha.

" Thank God I'm not like you.. I can count all the guys you've dated this year " I replied.
She shrugged, I was so sure she'd break up with Hakeem soon.

" well, if I were you, which God forbids, I can never be you, I'd have done worse to Fisayo.. I mean after all he did to you, the strangling part, the stapler part and now sleeping with Olivia " Debra says.

" so what are you saying? " I asked.

" well, if you feel like you already like Tolu, why don't you give him a chance? " she asked.

" he's Timi and not Tolu "

" okay, so why don't you give Tunde a chance?"

I rolled my eyes, I knew it was a deliberate mistake and hey, should I really give Timi a chance?
What was I even talking about, what chance?
How was I sure Timi had this same 'butterflies' feeling I felt.

"well, I don't know " I groaned.

" well, I don't know " Debra mimicked. Aisha was sleeping already, Debra took a shirt and shoved it to her mouth.
Aisha opened her eyes and was ready to attack Debra.

Well, what if I tried giving Timi a chance... Fisayo wouldn't mind. After all, he gave Olivia a chance.

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"Hey Timi, can I come over? "

I was bored at home and decided to go and see him, I was tired of the boring texts he kept on sending to me, he hardly called me since that kiss.

" um, I'm not sure now is the best time for you to come " he answered dryly.

" Alright, I'll take that as a yes, I'll be on my way " I answered as I cut the line, I could hear him protesting but I wouldn't hear more of it.
I went to shower again, took extra time to brush again, then did my make up.
My two brothers came to the room as expected without knocking.

" there's this word that had been trending " I said working on my eye shadow.

" what? " Dotun asked as Tife placed some books on my bed.

" knocking " I stated dryly.

My brother hissed as he sat down on the bed and studied me.

" why are you painting your eyes? " Dotun asked

" why are you in my room? "

" because he said he's not able to tell the difference between a written constitution and an unwritten constitution " Tife explained.

" and we came here to meet you since you know all these type of things, pleaseeee, I don't want to fail this assignment." he added.

I put everything together, Tife asked Dotun to help him with his assignment and Dotun was just too 'Dotunish' to know it.

"so you expect me to put unnecessary things in my head? " Dotun asked.
I laughed "when I get back, I'll help you with your assignment"

"where are you going to? ", Dotun asked after Tife took all his books away from the room.

" to see a friend" I was applying my lipstick now, still staring at the mirror.

"can you help me brush my wig, the brush is on the table " I added.
He nodded as he picked the brush and wig which I placed on the bed, he studied it for some seconds and tried placing it on his head before shaking his head in disgust and asking again.

" are you going to see Fisayo? "

" no, just one girl like that " I answered.
I saw him nod again and he helped me brush the wig before leaving the room.
I wore this sort of mixed coloured tight and it's top which was long sleeved and cropped.
After placing my wig on my head, I took a selfie and knew I was ready to slay.

I was able to locate Timi's house.
While driving there, Fisayo called and told me he had an appointment with a therapist/ psychologist or whoever it was he was going to meet.
He needed to see someone to help deal with his anger issues.

He heard me honk so asked where I was driving to
" Um, I'm actually going to see our pastor's daughter" I told you I was a terrible liar right?

" why? "

" um, I need prayers "

" are you not supposed to see the pastor instead? " he asked thoughtfully.

" Yes,... Yeah, can I call you later, there's a trailer blocking my car "

" but the phone's on speaker Beni.."

I cut it before he could say more. I didn't want to feel guilty for going to a guy's house but a little fun wouldn't hurt, would it?

Timi's gateman recognised me from the other day and he let me drive into the compound.
I got down from the car, pulling my hand bag behind me.

Walking in, I felt goosebumps all over as I remembered how Timi pulled me onto his laps.

"my secondary school student " he teased. He was sitting on the couch, a drink in his hand.

"heyy" I replied shyly.

Stop being shy!
This is Timi, the mannerless goat!

"sit down na, why are you acting shy?

"I'm not shy " I lied.

" okay, then sit down ". I did as he instructed, he studied me closely.

" you know it's my job to remind you how beautiful you are" he smiled.

Awww!

" stop acting like you're a sweet guy, you know you're not "

" if I'm not a sweet guy, why do you keep coming to me pumpkin ? "

" please, shut up "
He laughed as he placed his drink down.

" what would you like to eat? " he asked.

I wasn't hungry and I couldn't tell him that, he would force me to eat something.

" pancake " I shrugged.

" pancake? "

" pancake... "

" really, pancake? "

" Yeah, pancake, I just said so " I sighed.

" can you make it? " he asked smirking.

" you know I can't "

We both laughed over it.
" come here let daddy teach you " he said standing up. He offered to pull me up and when I didn't want to, he playfully pulled me.

His kitchen and everything there were almost all white and very neat. I had to say, he was too neat for a guy.
He brought down some things : eggs, flour, milk, sugar and the likes.

"I don't know why you don't want to eat something else... Look, Esther made rice and stew this morning " he said as he pointed at the pots.

" pancake is all I need " I answered.
He shrugged. "okay oh, there's a chair over there, sit and watch daddy perform magic".

I liked the way he said 'daddy'
I pulled the chair as I sat to watch him.
Every step he took, he made sure to explain it to me and when he was done mixing, I realised it wasn't that hard.

It was ready and he helped dish mine.
We got to the living room and he brought 5 alive for me and a beer for himself.

"why can't I drink beer?" I asked pouting

"because you're still a secondary school student and it's not meant for youngsters "

" I'm an adult " I snapped

" are you? " he asked again raising an eye brow.

"I am" I answered still pouting

"hmm"

"oooh, stop na, you know I am " I already felt like a 12 year old, it just felt that way around him.

He laughed shaking his head "an adult wouldn't whine like you do"
He kept on making jokes and I really loved the way he made me laugh.

The feeling of deja vu came up when the door opened and I heard a lady's voice call "baby, I'm back"

My heart stopped beating as the tall beautiful lady walked over to plant a kiss on Timi's lips.
"what took you so long? " he asked.

" Sorry, the traffic " she said smiling.

" aww, who is the pretty young girl? " she asked smiling at me.
She seemed nice but I just wanted to tear her hair from her head.
How dare she kiss my Timi?

Was he even my Timi?
And who was she referring as 'young girl'?

" She's a friend of mine, Benita " Timi answered placing a bit of pancake in his mouth.

Good, I was just a friend!
Friend zoned!
What's wrong me??

"hi " she said to me. I nodded back at her.
I didn't know why I was being like this, I was being jealous.
I had no reason to be, I mean I had my own Fisayo and I happened to kiss Timi by mistake.
There was no reason to be upset because another girl here came to kiss him.... This was the third lady so far.

Ifeoma
Eunice and
Miss-I- don't- know- your - name - but - would - like - to -tear-your - hair - off

I couldn't eat again, there was no need to.
I didn't want to act silly because I knew I'll make a fool out of myself and that would make Timi keep on seeing me as a secondary school student, which I'm clearly not.

He winked at me as he gulped down his beer.
He stood up to leave for the living room, the girl's hand in his.
To him, nothing was wrong but to me, my world was crumbling.
I was badly into Timi already and it was stupidly so sudden.

"Benita, why don't you join us here to watch Tv " she called out.

" no, I'm fine here " I managed to say.

" you can't stay there all by yourself " she pushed.

" Esther sweetie, if she doesn't want to come here, it's fine " Said Timi.

"I don't know why you don't want to eat something else... Look, Esther made rice and stew this morning"

So she's the Esther he spoke about!

Okay, be cool, don't stress it...
You have a boyfriend and you shouldn't think about another guy...
Control yourself!
Breathe.....

Forget breathing, who is she? And what business does she have with him!

It took me deep control not to stand up and smash my pancake against her face and cut off the hand she was using to play with his hair.

I was trying to become the mature lady my mom thought I was growing into and there was no need to start messing up here.
I was being silly by thinking something could grow between Timi and I...it couldn't.
I had to accept I was a friend to him.... It felt so weird because I hadn't had somebody else to call a friend apart from my girls, it wouldn't be bad to let another person in.

He deserved to be my friend, he had always been there for me.
Just look, he taught me how to make pancakes!!!

I drank my juice and cleaned the remaining bits from my mouth before standing up deciding to go and watch Tv with them.

As I sat down to make myself comfortable, Esther smiled at me and I noticed Timi was studying me.
What was he expecting?
I knew he was somewhat shocked that I didn't find a reason to angrily storm out of the house.

I didn't really concentrate on the movie, I was busy with my phone but Esther on the other side was more of a spoiler as she kept on telling Timi what would happen next while Timi listened patiently, the look on his face showed he didn't understand what she was saying but he tried his best not to let her know.

I noticed he kept on throwing glances at me but I acted like I had no idea.

Going through my Facebook newsfeeds, I saw a joke and in an attempt to laugh, I coughed and it led to me almost choking.
Timi jumped to his feet to grab me a glass of water.
When he got to me, Esther was beside me gently patting my back.
He helped put the glass to my lips and let the cold water put everything in place.

I was fine already but I liked the attention they both gave me, I smiled a little seeing Timi worried about me.
He noticed the smile and almost roughly pushed the glass further to my mouth.

I held it back and still smiling, I thanked Esther and assured her I was fine.
Timi angrily went back to sit without saying a word to me.
Esther noticed the little scene but kept whatever she thought to herself.

We spent the rest of the afternoon talking and joking about random things.
Esther was a nice lady, there was no point hating her. She made sure I was involved in most of the conversation she brought up and a point, Timi got bored and stopped talking, some minutes later, he slept off with his head against the chair.

"he's adorable when he sleep, isn't he? " she asked softly twirling his hair in her fingers.

No, he sleeps like a mad man in distress, I've said this before!

" yeah, he is ".

She smiled at my response then asked
"How did you meet my Timi?"

Yen yen yen, my Timi!!
I met your yen yen yen Timi on facebook, would you mind me telling you how we just kissed some days ago, would you like to hear how I grinded on him, I'll tell you now.....

"ohh, I can't really remember, we've been friends for long " I answered instead.

" How long have you known him? "I asked surprising myself.

" I've known my Timi for a very long time, more than two years" she revealed smiling.

"I love him so much and I really don't know why he hasn't popped the question yet.. And I know quite well I'm the only one in his life " she added.

Sorry, what was that?
He has Ifeoma and Eunice too....

I didn't know what to say to her. I was so sure she had no idea that I was just 18 and not the full adult she thought I was.
Quickly going round all the corners in my brain, hopelessly searching for something to say to her, I finally found it...

"ohh.... ". Was all I thought of.

She had an unsure expression on her face, I knew I had to say more.

" you'll be fine, I promise " I finally said.
She nodded and smiled at me, she seemed nice.
Just while we kept on smiling awkwardly at ourselves which I found foolish, Timi woke up,yawning.

" I'm so sure you both planned to sell me while I was asleep " he joked.
Esther and I laughed but Esther's laughter was longer as she lay her head on his chest and while he bent to kiss her, I looked away.

This was me getting mature, I didn't storm out of the house in anger and it still amazed me.
I had come to find out that I had grown feelings for Timi but I didn't want to accept it because it felt so strange.
I felt a bit envious of Esther because she had this annoying yet sweet man to herself.
The man who'd always say how beautiful you are.
The man who'd always have his shoulders ready for you to cry on...
The man who'd always be there for you when you feel like you're in trouble.
The man who'd always willingly want to teach you new things
The man who'd .....

"Benny, you know you can't sleep in my house, you'll have to leave soon " the man I was trying so hard to think good of spat harshly at me.

Who wanted to sleep in his house?

No matter how good it seemed he was, he was still an annoying guy.