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"Fisayo "

" babe... " he said a bit uncomfortable as he stood some feet away from me.

" whose is this? " I knew the answer but I needed him to tell me, he was the type that loves to tell the truth, he had to prove it to me now.

" I.. It's not like I won't, I just....

"shut the fuck up, no don't shut up, why don't you explain why you're confused? " I yelled.

I was the type that used to tell my friends that when I get married and find out my husband cheats on me, it wouldn't lead me to divorce him and same thing applies when I have a boyfriend, I would listen to what he has to say and maybe forgive him later. I just wouldn't let a mistake ruin everything I have tried to built.

And now I wouldn't let just the fact that Olivia's purse was on his table make me come to an unreasonable conclusion, but the fact that he was stuttering meaning he had done something wrong made me want to kill him.

"Fisayo, talk to me " I screamed.

He paced back and front, pulling at his hair.

" It was a mistake "he started.

" what was a mistake? "

" she came here yesterday, I didn't want her to.. I have no business with her obviously but she came here "

" then what happened? " I asked calmly, I didn't want his guilty face to get to me.

" she.. She, I em, I was a...

"you were what? " I yelled as I threw the purse at him.

" I was frustrated, maybe because I couldn't manage with your no sex rule again " he fired harshly.

" oh"

"Yes "

He came towards me, his face a bit softened.

" look babe, I regret what happened yesterday and I'm really sorry, Yes... Olivia came here, look she isn't a good friend at all, I admit... We had sex but believe me it was all her doing " he softly explained as he held my waist trying to bring me closer.

" I love you so much and we can make this sex thing work out if you'll give me the chance, I'm so so so sorry, I'll do anything you want, just name it, please, I swear, it was Olivia's doing" he added as he placed his chin on my hair begging.

He had sex with Olivia? And he claimed it was her fault.
Maybe I can try to forgive him, I could try.. I had always told my friends I'll forgive my boyfriend or husband when he cheats on me but it was easier said that done.

This guy just cheated on me, something I can never do.. What if I did?
Okay, he said he loves me, I'll just forgive him and get back to kissing him, maybe we can work out the sex thing, maybe I'll give in today....

"I love you " he says again.
He gently rubbed the small of my back, I wanted to tell him I'll forgive him but when I looked up at him, I didn't see him, I saw uncle Chinedu.. I jumped back in fear, I was scared, he reached out to touch me again but I felt disgusted by his touch.
I was trying hard not to cry.. He shouldn't see me cry.

"stay away from me " I yelled as I ran to grab my bag.

" baby " he came after me.
I avoided him by every means possible and finally succeeded in leaving the house to my car.

I started it and just kept on driving ahead. I didn't know where I was going to but I kept on driving.
My best friend had sex with my boyfriend!!

I thought best friends were like family and wouldn't want to do anything to hurt you.
Maybe I shouldn't even have friends.. Maybe friendship wasn't my thing.
I might just have to do away with Aisha and Debra. Or just chill till when I'm not angry so I can make a better decision.

My face was tears soaked and I wondered how I was able to still see ahead, I might just hit somebody because my brain wasn't functioning well. Or maybe I wouldn't hit anybody, my driving was quite impressive all thanks to Timi. Yes Timi!

Timi, Timi, Timi... He kept coming back to my life one way or the other.
I wanted to cry to somebody, I couldn't bear it alone.
I couldn't call my brother because he might just end up calling guys to beat up Fisayo.
I couldn't call any of my friends because I had started losing hope in friendship already.
I'll just call him, I didn't like the idea a bit but it didn't matter.

I parked the car and called him, he picked at the first ring.

"Isn't this my young secondary school friend calling? " he said high pitched.

" Timi...

"Benny are you crying? What's wrong? Where are you? "
Listening to him worriedly asking where I was made me cry harder, why was I able to cry freely around him?

I looked around and realised where I was, I didn't know I had driven that far, far from home big time.

" I'm close to that bridge beside the barracks " I said trying not to cry again.

" you drove there? "

" Yes "

" are you okay? "

" no "

" do you want me to come around or something? "

" Yes that was why I called you " I yelled crying again.

" okay okay, hold on, I'll be there in some minutes, would you be okay?"

"I don't know"

"I'll be there Benita, hold on....don't do anything stupid " he said and hanged up.
He said he'll be here in some minutes, he was probably close by.
I turned the stereo on, maybe music would cheer me up.
I glanced at the mirror thing, my face was messed up, my tears had successfully smudged my mascara all over.
I hate it when my make up gets messed and I quickly remade my face back with the make up from my bag.

I looked prettier now.... I'm pretty but Fisayo still cheated on me! I started crying again, I just had to quit this having a boyfriend thing. I just can't continue again.
Fisayo already made sex more irritating for me, it's best to just become a reverend sister, my brothers would surely give my parents grandchildren.

I should tell this to my dad , he'll probably take me to a Catholic church and tell them my newly found desire.
I would just give up my short skirts, trousers, bum shorts, make up and the rest of my wonderful life to become a reverend sister... Can't work.

I continued crying, give me a gun somebody, I need to shoot my brain out!
I sent a text to Aisha and sent the same thing to Debra.

*Olivia slept with Fisayo, in case you don't hear from me, I killed myself.

Still crying, I thought of everything that happened, Olivia betrayed me!!

I got a text interrupting my thought, it was from Aisha.

* I can't talk now, I would have called. You said Olivia slept with Fisayo.. You mean sex right? Look babe that shouldn't make you think of suicide. Let's hang out this weekend, I'll spoil you bad and I'm sure you'll forget about everything.

Aisha didn't get that I didn't need spoiling or whatever, I didn't even know what I wanted.
Debra's text came in.

*now, I have an actual reason to kill Olivia.
Anyway, you said you want to kill yourself, can you at least wait till after we go to Wizkid's concert next week then I'll gladly give you a knife or something.

PS: I'm in one boring church program with my mom, the pastor has just been spitting on the mic since. Would call you later.

These girls were my actual friends, why did I think of leaving them before?
I laughed a bit thinking of what Debra said , but Deb's little joke wasn't enough to remove the ache in my heart. I cried more.

Fisayo actually confessed sleeping with Olivia!!

I thought of calling her that moment or forgetting Timi then drive over to her place, get her out of the house or leave her in the house then beat her bad in the presence of her mom, screaming the world's curses at her and the worst that would happen is her mom calling my mom and reporting to her and then my mom would ask for an explanation and I'll truthfully tell her everything since I was a bad liar.
I would make sure to get Olivia and I in trouble..
Our parents obviously thought we were their well brought up precious virgins, well I was. Then finally, my mom would kill me.... I wanted to die anyway.

Still crying I was about starting my car when another pulled in right at the front of my car.
An handsome young man on fitted black suit, black tie and shades stepped out, he dismissed the driver and came towards my car.

He knocked on my window, I opened the door stepping out, I was so aware of my messed up face and people passing by but hey! I usually don't care about what people say.

I stood on the tip of my shoes as I threw my arms around his neck. I didn't know why I did that and I didn't care, I just did anything that came to my head.
He didn't hide his surprise, it was written all over his face.

He slowly brought his hand and hugged me back patting me gently and that made me cry harder. How was he able to make me cry?

"it'll be fine pumpkin " he said.
He led me to the passenger seat, good he wanted to drive.
I got in and waited patiently for him to get in.

When he did, he listened quietly as I still sobbed. He reached out to place his hand on my shoulder and gently squeezed it.
" please, stop crying " he begged. It seemed he felt uncomfortable around crying women.

I didn't listen, I just wanted to cry out my pains out, the betrayal, my stupid reverend sister desire, everything.

" you're acting like a secondary school student " he said with a little smile.
I looked up at him, still sobbing, he frowned at his failed joke.

" where do you want me to take you to? "

" I don't know, anywhere " I cried as I buried my head in my hands. My face was swollen already and my nose just started dripping, I couldn't let him see that.

" I'll take you to your house "

" no, please don't.. I can't go home like this "
The last thing I wanted was my mom to see me crying or worse Dotun finding out.

" take me to your place " I said.

" are you sure?"

Going to his place would be perfect, the day was still early.
My mom wouldn't suspect anything, I told her I was going to visit an old time make up artiste of mine and besides she had a guest coming to see her this afternoon, I was so sure she'd be back home early this afternoon to attend to her friend.

"Yes, I'm sure" I answered.
He nodded and started the car.

I watched as he drove along and I started wondering; I was actually doing something before he asked me questions... Yeah, I was crying.

I let out a loud sigh as I continue my crying.
Timi panicked as he threw a worried look at me

"Benita "

" leave me "

" you look ugly when you cry "

Best thing to say to a crying girl.

" you think I'm ugly? " I yelled as I stopped crying, I was used to him calling me beautiful and not ugly.

He smirked "no, you're actually beautiful"

"but you just called me ugly. "

" did I? When? "

He was being silly but I couldn't help smiling.
He smiled back and adjusted his tie.

" why are you on a suit? " I asked after some seconds of cleaning my face.

" today's actually my wedding, I thought I told you "

Wait, what? Married? Probably to Ifeoma or Eunice.

" oh" I mumbled.
"I'm sorry I called you, you should go back" I hurriedly added, how on Earth would a person be absent on his wedding day.

He laughed, gently tapping my wheels.

"you're so gullible Benita, I got your call while I was busy in the office " he explained. It sort of relieved me to know he wasn't actually getting married.
Thinking of it, it was so sweet of him to leave his work to come and help a stupid heart broken girl.

" Oh God, I really believed that" I laughed, he joined me laughing.

" thanks for coming " I added softly.
He smiled and nodded at me.
My head ached from the cries, I relaxed on the chair and watched as buildings ran past us.

We got to his house soon.
His house was quite cool, not what I imagined... Even though I didn't imagine anything.

A gateman let us in and after he parked the car, I made to put on my shoes while he got out. Before I could open the door, he already did that for me.

I smiled weakly as I pulled my bag carelessly, he shook his head in disapproval as he collected the bag from me and led me in.

Timi's house was really beautiful.
It was painted white,there were attractive art frames that hung all over.
The chairs were made of pure white leather, in the centre was a small circular rug with different shades of white which formed spiral.

Our house was also nice but his looked different, it felt a bit like heaven not like I've been to heaven.. But it just seemed safe with the white stuff all around.

"make yourself comfortable and please don't cry again " he said as he placed my bag on the table. He excused himself and I sat down and tried to relax myself. I was tired of crying already.

Crying wouldn't solve the issue, I picked up my phone, Fisayo had not even called. Sometimes it seemed I was the only one doing all the work in this relationship or maybe he was trying to give me some space.

Timi came out some minutes later, he was on a black shirt that stuck to his body and a jean.

"what would you like to drink? "

" sniper" I just had to kill myself and end my misery.

"sniper, that chemical? "he asked unsure.

" Yes "

" do you want me to at least put it in the fridge to make it cold and refreshing? "

I couldn't help laughing as I threw the newspaper on the table at him.
He laughed and gathered the papers on the floor
"Hey, don't mess my place up ".

He walked to the fridge and got me a glass of something cold, he didn't bother telling me what it was neither did I bother asking him what it was, hard to say I trusted him not to give me something bad.

You once trusted Olivia and she added something to your drink.!

He walked to the bar and took a glass of some alcohol for himself then came over to sit beside me.

"Let me guess, you had a fight with Olivia or Your boyfriend, what's his name again? " he asked.

I sipped the content from my glass, it tasted like something made from coconut or so. Coconut isn't really my thing but the cold drink helped cool my nerves.

" it's actually the two of them " I answered. He looked at me for more explanation and I took a deep breath and did my best explaining to him all that happened, how I haven't had sex with my boyfriend, how I was scared of it and how Fisayo turned my virginity against me by sleeping with Olivia. I also told him about uncle Chinedu.

" it's really surprising to know you're still a virgin " he says sipping his drink.

" I know right "

" but I knew right from the first day I saw you, gimme credits " he says smirking, I laughed as I hit his chest. I loved the way he was able to make me cry and laugh.

" tell me about this Chinedu guy"

What? No, I couldn't, I'll just get sad and start crying again.
Only my friends and Jude knew about it, I just couldn't bring myself to even tell my family. I was so young and naive then.

"I'm not saying I can actually help you but talking about it again and giving it a deep thought can help you get it off your shoulders " he added as he held my small hands in his.
I wasn't used to him showing affections because he was always being rude and stuff, I couldn't possibly tell him my secret, he wasn't my friend... Or was he?

He gently rubbed my palm and it was strange receiving this gestures from an older guy, he was 26 and I 18.
Does he have feelings for me?
What was I thinking? He wouldn't have feelings for someone like me, he was way older, he was a first class business man while I was just in my first year in the university depending on daddy's money.
Besides he had a girlfriend already... Ifeoma, Eunice...???

"you need to let it go Benita, you need to move on.. Not because it stops you from having sex but because you really need to let it go " he said.

I didn't like the air, I wanted him to insult me, call me foolish, a secondary school student or whatever but just not show me this calm part of me.

" will you give it a try?" he asked again.

The tears dropped from my eyes as I nodded.
"It happened 8 years ago... "