I was crying non stop.

It had been a day and he still wasn't awake.

The doctors said that he was under heavy meds and that his time was short. Shorter than expected..

I was absolutely heartbroken.

His parents were outside quarrelling again and I honestly got tired of them.

How dare they fight each other over something stupid

A stupid divorce!

Here lay their son, who was going to die soon and they were worried about who got what when they split.

Fuck them!..

Screw them both!

I hoped that a big ass screw would literally be shoved up their assholes.

They didn't deserve Axel.

Nobody deserved Axel, not even me.

Not even the bed he was lying on.

I missed his butt on my hand whenever we did that tik tok where one of you put out your hand and he would sit on my hand.

His butt was absolutely ginormous and that was the best part.

I cried into his shoulder finding it hard to breathe.

He looked so lifeless and I hadn't noticed just how much weight he had lost during our time together.

His skin was pale and...it just wasn't him anymore.

He wasn't there anymore.

I felt his heartbeat and it was so faint.

It hurt so bad....

He never told me that he was in pain, ever.

I just had to find out from some middle aged woman in a white coat who could barely remember my name.

She said that he was in pain for some time.

He never showed it.

Ever.

              ~Axel~

I was sinking.

I had no strength to pull myself out. I struggled against the waves which pulled me further down into the abyss.

For once I let them.

My lungs burned at the pools which streamed down my throat violating my trachea, preventing all the oxygen from going in.

The ice burned my skin but something was different.

Fire nipped at my flesh, it never burned me.

It got extinguished each time it burned up but it would slowly light up again.

The ember was harmless but I could feel the warmth.

This was odd.

I heard something muffled, as if a whisper at the back of my mind.

It tickled my ears and my heart felt cold.

It felt absolutely heavy.

But something about it was familiar.

After a while, I could distinguish the voice and it was Chloe's.

She sounded so heartbroken.

Why was-

My eyes fluttered open and I heard machines beeping my air supply seemed weird.

My neck was moist and my throat hurt so much.

I turned to see Chloe who was mumbling something inaudible.

She was crying hard, her nose dripping with snot and tears.

She looked awful. Well she was beautiful but absolutely awful.

"Cupcake."

Her head snapped to me and a glimmer of light flashed past her eyes...

"Axel? You're awake."

She jumped in her seat wiping her face hurriedly and mercilessly.

She hugged me tight and I groaned smiling up against her neck.

She still smelled like bacon.

"Welp. Why on Earth would I be sleeping at a time like this?" I remarked earning a chuckle from her.

She sat back in her chair scooting it even closer to me.

The happy expression on her face fell into a sad frown.

"Axel why didn't you tell me."

My eyes trailed away from her.

"About the pain?"

I caught her small nod in the corner of my eye.

How was I supposed to tell her that I was being torn apart by every breath I took?

That the pain meds stopped working?

"Well I didn't want to worry you. We were having so much fun." My voice cracked at that.

She snorted, "You fucking peed on me and told me it was raining Axel."

I laughed out loud immediately.

I tried not to hurt myself in the process but her face was the same.

"I'm being serious Axel."

Okay...

She was never serious.

Ever.

"Axe, I just don't want to get you into stuff that you don't want to hey?If you're not feeling well tell me."

"If you're tired, tell me. But now-" her voice broke and tears started falling again.

I held her hand and caressed her cheek.

"Hey, don't cry."

She shook her head before sniffing and becoming serious again.

"I'm okay. I...I just don't want to lose you."

I was just wondering if this was actually happening.

I was actually going to die.

"Where's Xerry?" I asked curious.

She looked up at me and smiled, "They're at the Glitter Ball."

What?

"You've been asleep for a day Axe. Besides, I told them to go."

But she'd wanted this her whole life, she wanted to go and she didn't.

And I didn't like it. In fact I was furious.

"Chloe you shouldn't stop living because of me." I said seriously.

She sighed fixing her brown eyes on me.

"Axel. I'm still living. But I'm not going to stand by and leave you alone."

I hated this nightmare.

I wanted to wake up and be normal.

To be the best for her.

"I'm only breaking you heart Chloe."

She sighed and for the first time in a while, she looked angry.

Her face turned red and her eyes were full of tears.

"How dare you. How.Dare.You?"She said in a stern voice.

"Axel. Of course you're going to break my heart. But that's because I love you!"

The words hit me right in my heart.

I couldn't believe this.

"What?"

She blinked twice before leaning back.

She had just realized what she had said.

"Yeah Axel, I love you."

She fixed her chocolate brown eyes on mine and fire burned in my skin.

She was my amber turned gold.

She claimed my lips in a deep passionate kiss.

I held her by her waist and pulled her to me.

This time it was different.

This was more passionate. It was like kissing a rose, delicate but at the same time knowing that it might be the last time.