One more chapter.. :(

Dan and Phil didn't really have a label. They cuddled, held hands, hugged and sometimes they would even kiss but they were yet to announce that they were boyfriends. Phil would occasionally cry when he was on his own but Dan was always there within seconds to cheer him up. It was like Dan had a sixth sense- being able to tell when Phil was upset.

Phil's nightmares had pretty much gone away since he started to take the medication. They still popped up out of nowhere but they were never as bad and not once had he woke up screaming.

The men fell asleep in each other's arms and woke up in the same place. It was comfortable for both of them and made them happy.

-

Phil downed a glass of water with his pill as he watched Dan make himself some cereal. "I love you!" He blurted out, almost dropping the glass when he realised what he had said. He started to panic, thinking he was taking it all too fast and that Dan might hate-

"I love you too." Phil was catapulted out of his worries and a smile appeared on his face.

-

"Dan, are you okay?" Phil mumbled, standing in the doorway of his friend's room and watching as he angrily glared at his computer.

"Do I look okay? YouTube won't upload my stupid video and I promised it would be up tonight!" Dan was shouting and it immediately sent Phil's body into a series of trembles. However, he stayed calm for his friend's sake.

"I'm sure the fans won't mind if you explain."

"This is like the hundredth time I have let them down this month! They are probably so annoyed with me!"

"You haven't let them down-"

"Yes I have! I can't upload because I'm always too busy!"

Phil swallowed, realising what Dan was getting at. He was the reason Dan was always so busy: he took him to therapy appointments; made sure he was never alone; cuddled him whenever he was upset; always did the things he wanted to do. It was his fault. His mind started going crazy, screaming questions such as what if Dan doesn't like you anymore? What if he has decided you're not worth all the work needed to keep him happy? What if he no longer wanted to be friends?

Phil's eyes were burning with tears and he hadn't even noticed that he was running until he was locked safely in his room. He was trembling all over and his breathing wasn't right. Deep breath in, deep breath out. It was too shaky. The walls were closing in...

He needed to get out but he couldn't run again. He didn't want to see Dan: he couldn't bear to hear him say he didn't like him anymore. That would kill him.

That would be the last thing needed to knock him down and take away his life.

"Phil!" A loud voice yelled but he ignored it, trying to focus on his breathing. "Phil, please! I didn't mean to shout! I was just angry at YouTube not you!"

Phil let out a tiny, weak sob. The tears fell down his cheeks at a rapid speed, reddening his eyes and cheeks. "I'm sorry." He whispered but there was no chance Dan heard it.

"Please come out. I won't shout again..." When there was no response, Dan started to speak again. "I really love you, you know? I'm so scared that one day you won't be able to cope and I'm petrified you will do something bad like.. you know.. You're just so strong and brave and I don't understand how you do it. I want you to be my boyfriend, unless you feel like it's too soon." Phil's eyes widened and he soon realised the sobbing had subsided and, in its place, were little sniffs. "I've loved you since I saw your beautiful face through a webcam. Every single video of yours I watch makes me love you all the more." Phil stood up, wiping his eyes with his sleeve. He unlocked the door and stood there a moment, waiting for Dan to speak again. "I really didn't mean to upset you... That's the last thing I wanted to do. In case you were wondering, my video uploaded literally the second you ran off," Dan let out a laugh and Phil couldn't tell whether it was forced or not. "I really do love you."

Phil pulled open the door and ran into Dan's arms, crying again (but this time because he was so happy).

-

"What are we?" Phil mumbled one night when he was cuddled up against Dan as they watched anime.

"What do you want to be?" Dan was quick to respond, kissing his cheek gently. It made Phil go slightly red.

"Boyfriends?"

"Are you ready?" Dan took both of Phil's hands into his own and looked into his eyes.

"Yeah."

"Then.. boy-" Phil cut him off by kissing him softly.

-

"He doesn't really love you. It's all a game to him." Noah's sharp voice said, his eyes filled with hatred. Phil shook his head, the truth clear to him.

"No, he loves me a lot. He would never lie." Phil responded, his voice filled with confidence.

"It's cute that you think so."

"Don't call me cute."

"You're so stupid. It's amazing how one man can be so idiotic."

"I'm actually not stupid. I'm extremely smart."

"Dan will turn around and say he hated you all along one day."

"He won't."

"You're worthless!"

"I'm not."

Phil felt himself grow taller as he contradicted each of Noah's lies with the truth. He was suddenly towering over his ex-boyfriend and he was looking down at him like he was a tiny ant. "I'm better than you and I always will be. You're rude, disgusting and you're the stupid one." Phil lifted up his foot and stepped on Noah, squishing him.

Phil woke up and he was grinning. He shook Dan who was lying next to him and his eyes soon burst open, fearful that Phil had had another nightmare. "I defeated him, Dan! I took control and I don't think he will come back!" Phil exclaimed, the smile not once disappearing off of his face.

"That's brilliant!" Dan responded with a tired smile. He lifted up his arm and wrapped it around Phil. "Hopefully that means no more nightmares."

"Hopefully."

Phil didn't actually have any more nightmares after that.