Kill me and take me away on an island far from here
I want to be in complete solitude
No one to ask me why or how
No one to criticize the way I live my life
No fake mask for me to where
No audience for me to entertain

No worries
No regrets
Just me and my wishes

I don't want any contact from anyone
I want to be far away from everyone and anyone

If nobody could search for me that would be nice
If nobody could muster up false tears and fake stories of our friendship and love
That would be terrific

If I could fly far far away and never look back then I would cry
Cry what?
I don't know. Tears of joy or tears of sorrow?
Regret or carefree?

Why should I give other chances when they refuse to hear me?

Why should I obey others when they won't even look at me?

Why am I here?
Only the island I live in knows
How did I get here?
Only the magic that took me remembers
Who I am?
Only the locked away past of my mind remembers

If it were just me on that island I would cry.
I would get mad and destroy things.
Then I'd be ashamed of myself for doing so.
Then I'd be happy because I'd realize.

The island is the only place where I can let out raw non-manufactured emotions without others shouting frantically to calm myself.

I do not wish to be calm.
If I am calm over anything the only calm I'll seek to be
Is the calm before the storm.

That's right. If it storms on the island I'll embrace it. Others would want to get away from it and take shelter. No,not me.

I'd accept it for what it truly is. A masterpiece. A chaotic thing. A catastrophe. A disaster. An unaccepted and feared force of nature that no one truly wants.

No one except for me. I'd never leave it. Even if it fights me, causes me to become ill, or destroys my property. I won't desert it.

Because unlike others I know it and understand it.

One day, someday this will happen. Just me on this island that changes weather every day from sunny to rainy. And if someone were to find me
Only me and the island would know what to do with them.

But maybe, just maybe

I would accept them too.