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I was returning to my palace after 2 years and 193 days. The feeling was beyond imagination. It feel like finally I am breathing. Finally my should has returned to my body. The smell of my soil is enough to fill new energy in me. The flowing air was enough to make me feel contended and the chirping of birds feel like the welcoming song. I was so giddy. Finally I was meting my ammi jaan, baaz the bastard and my little baby, my maahroo, my Ishwasa.

 Only I know how hard it was for me to stay there and do all the things all alone. The feeling every time that this might be the last day was so big, engulfing me whole and I was just praying to god to send me to my family before I die. I wanna see their faces one last time atleast. But everything happened according to my plan. 

Still some things are pending but I know that I will do it now that I have pulled myself out of their hell. As the palace door was nearing, my hear was beating more crazily. 

The gasps and fumbled soldiers, the shock and then happiness and then craziness after identifying that it was me was beyond explanation. As I was crossing the borders the streets, whoever was able to identify me was just following me aimlessly, the hails of my name resonated the sky and I was feeling so fortunate that I am so loved by my people.

The commotion was growing only. The hails were growing more strong and I was feeling the sudden chills running down my spine listening to this after whole 2 years. I was very near to the main entry of royal abode now. 

Suddenly my breathing turned fast, my palms sweating and I was feeling uneasy all of sudden.What if something has happened to them? What if anything happened to ammi jaan? What of Ishwasa has accepted that I was no more. What will I do if I did not find her there? What if she already returned to her kingdom? She is so young, she might be ... no no no Ariz. This can not happen.

But you are the idiot who did not leave any single trace of your existence behind. You will the be the one responsible for all the things that are going to happen with you.

Please allah, keep everyone safe. Please god, she must be waiting for me otherwise I will die. I can not bear distance from her, she is my everything. She is like the heartbeats to my heart, the breath to my lungs, the soul to my body.

Soon I came out of my thoughts when the door creaked open and the ones who were before me begin to enter. My anticipation grew more. My mouth ran dry. I clutched the reigns of my Aatish more. 

As soon as I step in, the air around me stilled. The whole world seems frozen when my desperate eyes met the same honey brown eyes. My hairs flowing free in wind and my breath hitched. The eye contact stopped every motion that was going on in my body. Every noise subsided around me just my heart beating madly for her was audible. The lone tear rolled down my cheek when I step more inside.

 She was crying miserably looking at me. Her eyes red and puffy because of crying. Looking at Her hip length hairs open, my brain stopped functioning for some good time. She was wearing a bright pink lehenga in which she was looking no less than any goddess. My goddess

.I jumped down from my Aatish not leaving her gaze even for a mere second and moved inside. Ammi jaan was the first one to grip me in tight hug. The weight of emotions was so much that she could not speak anything nor I. She just cried on my chest and my eyes teared as well. I caressed her hairs and tried to calm her down. She calmed down after hugging and kissing me to her hearts content. I know I am culprit of her. I too kissed my ammi jaan's forehead to sooth the ache of my heart and calmed myself as well hugging her tight. I can not even imagine how hard for her to handle everything but she did and I can never pay her this debt even if I took hundred more lives.

Next in line was baaz. The first rush of emotions made him hug me tightly but when he sobered a bit he broke the hug and punched me so hard yelling at me," Do you even know what we all went through in your absence? Is it the way to do any work? Was it so confidential that you did not think for once telling me the whole thing Ariz? You can not imagine how hard for me to handle the sultanate when everyone was screaming at my face that.. that... you.. are dead" His voice keep lowering and till end he broke down completely. I hugged him while tears escaped my eyes as well. He was the only best friend and a true brother of mine. I have always witnessed him fighting with me, yelling at me but now looking at him crying was a sight I never wanted to witness in my whole life ever

.After breaking the hug I greeted everyone, every minister, attendee, soldiers, guards that were present there. Everyone seems so happy meeting me. Few new faces were also there who was a bit hesitant but I greeted everyone equally

.I looked at my baby again and moved more towards her. I stood just before her and found her big doe honey brown eyes filled with longing and immense love for me. I filled her sight in my heart to my heart's content. I scanned her each pore with my eyes and a strange calmness washed over me.

 She was taller than before. Her features more sharpened, those chubby cheeks were now tight and and glowing. Those big eyes and her plump lips. She was morphed into the most beautiful women anyone has ever seen. My gaze trailed down and I found her each curve taking my breath. She has perfect body. The tiniest waist with waist chain adorned bare only for me to die at the sight. I was mesmerized by goddess of beauty in front of me.

I glanced at her side and found her one attendee holding aarti plate. Ishwasa was totally engrossed in looking at me. She was still at her place not eve blinking her eyes when I broke her trans while saying," Aarti nahi karengi aap hamari BEGAM SAHIBA?

She nodded absentmindedly, more tears rolled down her beautiful eyes and she held the plate from her attendee with her trembling hands to do my aarti. She was about to rotate the thaal when I stopped her with gesture and she stopped looking at me bewildered.

My baby was so much fumbling and she was very much nervous. She did not even realised that she had not covered her head. So I took her chunni from the attendee and spread it over her head. She closed her eyes, calmness spread on her beautiful face and she opened her eyes slowly.I then gestured her to do the aarti and she did it, she applied tilak too and offered me the prasad.

 But I held her hand and forwarded the piece of sweet to my mouth. The softness of her hand and the warmth of her touch instantly calmed my crazy heartbeats. When my lips touched her fingers she shivered and I smirked seeing her getting affected because of my touch.Our eyes locked again. The love poured out and the world narrowed only she was there for me in the whole universe now. 

She was not even blinking. Her eyes were speaking everything that her mouth was unable too. They were happy to see me but complaining as well. They were contended to have me before them but crying as well.

I glanced at her bare feet and a sudden pain shoot in my heart. The floor was so hot and my baby must be feeling pain. I scooped her in my arms without any second thought and she was beyond shocked. She looked around for once and then hid herself in my neck with her cheeks getting crimson

.I took her to our chamber not paying attention to anyone while instructing guards," Do not disturb us."I reached the bed and made her sit on my lap. She was sobbing silently wetting my kurta with her never ending tears. My heart clenched at the sight. I know I have behaved like a jerk. I feel like punching myself looking at tears in her eyes.

'She has been crying like this ever since you left ariz' my consciousness spoke and a tear rolled down my eyes. 

The pain gripped me and I held her very gently from her nape to have a look at her face. Our nose touched and her breath mingled with mine. The sensations erupted in my each pore drowning me into her innocent love.I gazed her face, lovingly, admiring her every pore. She was looking down.

 The soft red cheeks, the pink plump lips, the little chin with a mole on one side is a sight to behold. She is the finest creation of god. God must have created in his free time pouring his capability to maximum and the result is in front of me

. And those eyes... uff allah!!!.

.I gently tuck my finger and thumb under her chin and raised her face.. she looked into my eyes and my heart skipped a beat. My breath stopped. And unknown to me, I whispered," Maahroo"

She broke into uncontrollable cries. The one word from my mouth and she clanged to me like my second skin. Her cries intensified making my hear broke into pieces. 

What have you done ariz? The flower whom you wanted to save even from the single blow of heavy wind, you yourself put it in the beasty tornado. 

I clutched her giving her my warmth and comfort that she was seeking the most right now. I frequently kissed her forehead to calm myself as well. I said soothing words to her as well but she was no near to calm down.

Not able to look at her like this I gently pulled her out of my embrace and offered her glass of water saying," Shh.. maahroo stop crying baby." She looked at me with those innocent teary eyes and I forwarded the glass to her lips. She drank some and I washed her eyes. kissing her forehead.

After few moments of silence suddenly she jumped out of my hold and ran out. I was too stunned to speak."Maahroo, listen to me, what happened baby?"

"Where are you going?"

"Stop, at least tell me the reason of sudden anger."I followed her shouting while she was almost running toward my queen's chamber through the gallery that attach our chambers. She was not sparing a glance at me.She went inside with fast steps and as I was about to enter Anuraj singh stopped me. 

I looked at him shocked

. Did he just stopped me? 

My personal guard stopping me from entering my queen's chamber?

"Let me go Anuraj Singh" I said to him composing myself after shock."I am sorry shahenshah, it was order of Mallika-e-Hind to not let anyone enter" He said duking his head down.

I stood there questioning my whole existence. Too stunned to react

."I am shahenshah, just in case you forget about." I stated in loud voice."I know shahenshah." He replied still not leaving his ground.

"I am ordering you to let me go inside Anuraj Singh" I pretended to shout in anger but he was unaffected.

"With due respect shahenshah, I am obliged to listen to only Mallika-E-Hind and authority above her but right now not any so I am bounded to follow only her order as she is the supreme commander right now." He eluded and I was at shortage of words.

I will see you Anuraj singh just let me take my charge first, and you are dead the very next moment.Control Ariz..Think about something Ariz... 

I stood there for a moment and then an idea struck my brilliant brain and I said," She is crying Anuraj Singh and you know only I can handle her right now. I can not see tears in her eyes anymore. I am very guilty of what I did, she is angry now, please let me go otherwise she will not stop crying." I said each and every word with honesty but with bit of drama just to convince him and guess what? 

It worked! I knew it

!Take this Anuraj singh, you can never be smarter than me

.I step inside and reached the bed room. She was laying on her stomach sobbing silently. Her lehenga from her milky legs was ridden up giving the full look of he alluring calves. 

Am I getting seduced?

Of course! 'my inner sense mocked'

Get a grip Ariz!I scolded myself and softly slept near her with my one hand on my palm supported by elbow. She jerked her face toward me and the I stopped at the sight while the earth keep on rotating. My heart thumped crazily and my breath hitched.She again came in her furious self and she was about to sit when I held her from he tiny miny waist and with a single pull she was pasted with me, our fronts touching each other and faces so close. 

She was laying on me completely.Her little fists gripped my overcoat and I she trembled slightly when my hand slid on her back. I could not help but brush my hand on whole of her back. The warm soft skin was feeling so soothing to me. Her waist was so small. I stretched my hand and covered half of her back with it. She was breathing heavily. Her beautiful eyes shut tightly, her body was trembling under my touch so irresistibly

.I gently held her from her nape and with a swift shift we were laying on bed facing each other. I slid my hand under her head and she settled on my bicep with just one breath distance from my face once again. My heart raced madly. My each pore was screaming to make love to her. My breath picked the pace to look at her soft pink lips.And I loose control on myself when she breathed," Shahenshah" 

Her one single word was enough for the beast in me to unleash. The efforts that I have put to refrain myself from attacking her like a desperate mad man, she shattered in one single moment. 

I could not help but press my lips against her plump ones.The feeling of euphoria burst into my each nerve making me lay frozen with our lips attached. I could not believed that I kissed her. My mind went numb and I trembled slightly.

 Without wasting any moment I hovered over her and I held her soft hands in my hard once only to kiss her palms while extending them to hold my neck and once again tasted the nectar that is going to keep me in cage for rest of my life and I too and happily going to surrender without any second thought

.I kissed her palms to tell her that I am going to cherish and worship her for the rest of my life. This is not out of lust, this is out of uncontrollable love.This time I sucked her lips but softly. My baby is fragile. The feeling was beyond imagination. She squirmed in my hold and the goosebumps aroused on my body.

 For the first time for any women my crotch twitched and she was none other than my mahroo.She was out of breath when I sucked again. My baby is still unaware of many things. I should take the things slow. She was trembling under me breathless. She don't know how to take breath while kissing. 

I need to teach her a lot. 

I could not help but smooch her once agian before pulling myself up to leave her lips.

Oh gosh I am addicted!!

Her face completely flushed. She was still holding her breath. I gently traced my thumb on her cheek saying," Breath baby."She took a deep breath still in hazed state. She seem to be thinking something.

 Soon enough she again sat and tried to run away but I grasped her tiny waist and settled her on my lap.She looked in my eyes timidly and her heartbeat raced when I kissed her cheek lovingly and then other one more affectionately pouring all my love."I am really sorry meri jaan for leaving you like that. But everything happened so fast that I did not have any time to tell you anything." I said and all the anger returned back, I can see in her eyes. She pushed me again in anger but I tightened my grip. 

She gritted her teeth while saying,"Aapke ek baar maafi maang lene se hamare do saal 193 vapas aa jayenge? Bataiye? Aap lauta sakte hai hamari wo raate jo hamne akele ro ro kar bitayi hai? Aap vapas kar sakte hai wo pal jab ham har baar nayi maut mare hain ye sunkar ki aap is duniya me nahi rahe. Aap tham sakte hai us pal hamara hath jab hame har pal ye dar laga rehta tha ki kahi hampar koi hamla na kar de?

Hamari har teej har tyohar aapke bina beet gya, hamara pehla gangaur, karwa chauth sab hame akele hi karna pada aur wo bhi ye sunte hue ki aap to hai nhi is duniya me...Soch sakte hai aap ki kya beeti hogi hampar, jis pati ki lambi aayu ke liye ham upwas rakh rahe the log hame unhi ki mrityu ka hawala de rahe the baar baar.

Kahiye shahenshah, kyu har baar hamara patra bina uttar ke laut aaya? kya aapko ek baar bhi yaad nahi aayi hamari? Ek baar bhi in dhai saalo me dil nahi kiya aapka hamse milne ka? Aapki fikr me hame apni sudh budh hi nahi rahi, na khana khane ka dil karta tha na kahi bahar jaane ka. Esa laga rehta tha ki din bhar bas drwaje par baithe rahe, najane kab aap kahi se aa jaye or hame gale laga le. Par nahi ; aap nahi aaye. Aap nahi aaye shahenshah. Kyu, Kyu, Kyu." she hit him with her little fists and I hugged her tightly once again. She burst into tears and I cried along with her. 

" Will my 2 years and 193 days get returned with your one sorry? Tell me? Can you return me my the nights that I have spent alone crying? Can you return me those days which I spent dying a new death each passing moment hearing that you are not in this world? Can you hold my hand that time when I was in fear of getting attacked every passing moment?

My every festival and celebration went without you. My first gangaur, karwa chauth everything I have to do alone and that too hearing that you are not alive. Can you think of the time, what I went through when the husband for whom I was fasting was being declared dead by people around me

.Tell me shahenshah, why my every letter returned un answered? Did not remember me even for once? Not even for once in these two and half years your heart did not tell you to meet me? In your worry I have lost my self completely, I was feeling no thirst no appetite. I just wanted to sit on the door waiting for you whole the time, thinking that god knows when you return and engulf me in your arms. But no, you did not come, you did not come shahenshah. WHY WHY WHY! " 

My baby has to go through so much that too alone. I was feeling very guilty. I caressed her hairs kissing her multiple times as if saying her sorry. I composed my self and said,"Hame muaf kar dijiye meri jaan. Hame mehsoos kar sakte hain aapne wo pal hamare bina kese bitaye honge kyuki hamare liye aapke bina guzara hua ek ek lamha ek ek sadi jaisa tha. Koi esa lamha nahi beeta hoga in dhai saal me jab hamare dil ne aapko yaad na kiya ho ya hamari aankhen aapke deedar ko tarsi na ho. Wo chaand gavah hai hamara, aap pooch sakti hai unse, hamari har raat kaise aapki yaad me jaag kar hi beeti thi.Par ye tanhai bhi jaruri thi, agar ham juda na hote to sab chize eksath nahi aa skati thi. Hame poora aitbaar tha ki aap, ammi jaan or baaz sambhal lenge sab. Aur hame boht khushi hai or fakr hai apni nanhi si jaan par ki apne kis dafa sab kuch itni dileri se sambhala

.Aur rahi baat har jalse or tyohar ki to ab ham hain na aapke paas, jo hukum karengi ham sir jhuka kar qubool karenge. Kisi baat ke liya mana nahi karenge, aapke sath roze rakhne ke liye bhi tyyar hai ham. Bas muaaf kar dijiye hame.Sahi keh rahi hai aap, ham kuchh lauta nahi skate aapko, ham wo ansuo ke jimmevar hai, wo har dukh ke jimmevar hai jo apne jhela akele. Par Aage ke liye vada karte hai Ishwasa, ab kabhi bhi aapko bina bataye, akela chhodkar nahi jayege. Apke aur aansuo ka karan nahi banenge ham. Bas iss baar ke liye muaf kar dijiye hame bacha."

 " Please forgive me my love. I can feel how you must have spent those moments without me because every moment that I spent without you feel like ages to me as well. Not a single moment was spent in these 2 and half years when my heart did not miss you or my eyes did not long for your one glimps. That moon is my witness, he can tell you how my every night spent in your memories only.But this separation was necessary, if we did not have separated then we would not be able to gather rest of the things together. I trust completely that you, ammi jaan and baaz will handle everything very well. And I am very happy as well as proud on my little life that how courageously you handled everything

.And the matter of these occasions and celebrations then I am with you now. Whatever you will order I will obey with my head hanging low. I will not say no to anything. I am even ready to fast with you but please forgive me.You are right, I can not return you anything, I am responsible for every tear that left your eye and every misery that you bear alone. But now I will not be the reason for your tears anymore. Just forgive me for this time baby. "

 She sobbed on my chest still complaining. She narrated me every story when anyone told her about my death and how she handled the things along with ammi jaan and baaz. Her words were like soothing music to my ears. I was feeling that I am full now. I was feeling like serenity engulfing me. I chuckled in between her constant rants. What can I do when she was looking oh so cute while her cheeks red puffy and her lips slightly swallow. She was complaining while pouting .... oh god!!

! I was feeling like eating her alive.The attendees entered the chamber and she was completely red with embarrassment trying to hide in my arms.She hurriedly covered herself with dupatta and tried to get off my lap but I tightened his hold more. I am not done yet. I am not satisfied yet. Let me look at her more. Her eyes widened and she glared at me so cutely.I pinched her button nose that was scrunched up chuckling and she turned red again. I pulled the curtains around us looking at her uneasiness. I will not do anything that will trouble my baby. Her consent and comfort is most important for me.

" Leave the plates on table and all of you can go" I instructed and after few moments we hear attendees leaving the chamber.I was so enchanted by her innocent shyness. She was looking so ravishing to me

. I lifted her face up and chuckled once again saying," Hame nahi maloom tha ki aapko itna sharmana aata hai"(I did not know that you are this shy) 

She could not answer but bit her lip tightly telling me how much I was affecting her right now. 

Oh my baby has grown up.I picked her up in my arms to tease her and take her to couch while whispering softly in m ear," Hame laga tha ki mohobbat aankhon me hoti haipar dil to woh le gye jo nazren jhukaye hue baithe hain "(I thought love reside in eyesBut my heart is in capture of the one who is sitting with her eyes casted down."

I leaned in again just to tease her but she covered her face with her palms. I laughed out loud at her cuteness. I settled her on couch and made one plate for both of us and begin to make a morsel. I then forwarded the first morsel to her and tears again pricked in her eyes. I was too taken back to those times when I used to eat only for staying alive. Meals without her never felt anything more than a source of survival to me. I have never had dinner in these years.I kissed her forehead and she took the first bite.

 She then made a morsel for him and forwarded to toward my lips. I was so overwhelmed to feel her innocent love towards me. Her devotion is beyond explanation. She is the sole reason for my existence, if I have not promised her to return then I might have not returned alive. 

I held her hand, took to my mouth, taking the bite and then licked her finger which were dipped in curry in mischief and that affected her badly resulting in her uneven breaths. She abruptly looked down biting my lower lip and breathed," Shahenshah".I left her hand while chuckling and said," Achha nahi tang karenge, khana kha lijiye meri jaan"(Okay I will not tease you more, have the meal meri jaan.)..

Then we reached deewan e khas and I looked at the work done by her. I was so proud of her. I was feeling so lucky that I got her as my begam. The way she handled everything so efficiently and in managed way. It was outstanding.She along with ammi jaan and baaz worked real hard and this is result of their constant efforts that our kingdom is flourishing again that too more than before. 

Handling a kingdom after two wars is not an easy thing to do.I am surprised by Ishwasa more.The timid, shy and submissive self of her is one side and this fierce, bold and dominating self is other side. She is everything a man can ask for.I was very thank ful of her. This proves that if given chance a woman can do anything and everything. She can handle the whole kingdom along with her house. She can handle her emotions well. She knows what are her strengths and how to mould her weakness into strengths

.Women are divine.My ISHWASA is divine....

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