Ch - 78

(Listen hamdard from ek villain while reading this chapter.)

Sidharth lift his head up from her lap and look at her with immense love, he will never tell anyone before about that day or what he feels because he don't want to be weak in front of anyone. But today, the girl who sit in front of him, is his life.

And he can't hide anything from his own life, today he want to cry and vent out everything  hidden inside him. He still remember, that time when he only cry with omru but didn't say a single word.

He get up from her lap and hug her tightly by taking her completely on his embrace. Sana also wrap her hands around him and kiss his chest. Sidharth put his chin upside her head and says, "You know that day, i was playing in my room after knowing that they were coming."

"Then suddenly chachu came crying and hug me tightly, i didn't able to understand what happened to him and asked him continuously. Then everyone came into my room one by one. When they informed me about that, i. ...." His voice chocked in between.

Sana also sobbing continuously , she cupped his face and kissed on cheeks. Sidharth hold her hand above his cheeks and says, "I was not in a condition to react, for a second i thought they are making me fool. I run downstairs, because i thought they will be waiting for outside."

"But they were nowhere catterpillar, i try to found them everywhere, fear start taking place in my herat slowly. I don't know when i start running on the streets in order to find them. And after running for sometimes finally reality hit me that they were left me for......forever."

Said so he clinged onto her and start sobbing more by putting his head above her heart. Tears didn't stop flowing from her eyes, heart ached to see him like this, yes she is the one who asked him to vent out all hidden emotions but now it's difficult for her to see him in this condition.

She always see a happy, flirty, loving sidharth, he never before cry like this nor she want him to be like this. But somewhere it is important because he hide all this in his heart since childhood. She keep caressing his hair.

Sidharth says while hiccuping, "I.... i start blame myself for all this. Agr m zid nHi krta toh woh aaj hote na baby." Sana bit her lips to control her sobbs because she need to take care of him right now. He can't blame himself, because it's all written in destiny.

Cupping his face in between her palms she said, "Was you the pilot of that plane? Han bta? Or you was that break, jo stuck ho gya tha? Bol? Or you was responsible  for the climate? Han? Bta i want answer in words?" Sidharth look downward, his nose turns all red due to crying, eyes puffed red and the same with Sana.

She uplift his chin and says, "Muh khol kutte, give me my answer." He look at her with an angry, sad mix pout and says by narrowing his brows, "No. But." Before he complete sana put hand on his mouth and says, "Only answer to my questions, faltu bakwas ki toh muh tod dungi sidharth."

He twist his lips and look at the other side like an angry child. Sana slimes a bit by looking at this sensible sidharth, who act like a baby in front of her and says, "Now tell me, that if they didn't return that day, toh kb aate. And remember no bakwas."

"The vary next day." Said sidharth and look at the sky. Sana hold his hand and says, "And the climate is also same the other day, a plane crash is happened that day also. " Sidharth look at her in a jerk with questioning eyes. "Dadi told me everything before, i know." Said sana

She cupped his and says, "It's not your fault bebu, everything written in the destiny and we are not holding any power on it. Stop blaming yourself every time for all this, maine tujhe pehle bhi bola tha tune kuch ni kiya."

"You was a ten year old kid, who wanted his parents on birthday. Saare bache krte h zid, tu koi ek lauta nhi hai. I also show this type of stubbornness so many times. Tune bhi kiya tha. And you only who told me ki, woh tere khusi k liye aa rhe the because they always wanted to see smile on their sidharth's face."

"Aur aisa sab soch k, kya dikha rha hai unhe. Everytime when you blame yourself, you hurt them to no extent bebu. Not any parents want to see their child like this, aur tune kabhi dil se nikali hi nhi yeh baat. People go away from our life but they never left us."

"They want to live in your memories, but what you did saari bad memories rakhi unki. What about the all happy moments you spend with them, unko bhul gya." Sidharth nodded his head in no and says in soft voice, "No, catterpillar kabhi nhi bhula." a drop of tears fall from his eyes.

Sana wipes it and says, "Then why keep reminiscing all bad ones, ache wali kyu nhi batayi. See they are also hurt, that's why not shining today." She said by pointing her hand near the stars.

"They want you to forget all bad memories and only keep the happy ones with you. So close your eyes and remember the best memory you have with them and exchange the bad one with this. Use nikal kr kahi dur kachde m phenk de.".

Sidharth nodded his head, close his eyes and smiles after sometime, "You know, once i participate in snow sledding competition. But i was too bad that time. All parents standing in a place hooting for their children. Meri halat kharab thi kyuki i don't know what will happen next."

"I also started sliding with other children's and fall thumped on the snow within a second. I saw everyone laughing at me, but suddenly two more people fall on my both sides and they were mom, dad. They start laughing at themselves continuously for cheer up my mood. "

"Soon i also start laughing, throwing snow each other and completely forget about the competition. After sometimes everyone comes there and pretend to fall . We laughed like maniacs that day. This is one of the best memory of my childhood." Said sidharth smiling, and look at sana.

Sana chuckles and says, "hayeee. See, how much they love you, tujhe dukhi nhi dekh sakte kabhi. Now forget everything wrna maine bhi hurt ho jaana hai." Smiling he Wipes her tears and says, "Thank you for all this baby, it's feels so light today."

Sana hit his chest and says, "One more time you said thank you, aur main yahi se niche phenk dungi tujhe." He chuckles and rub his nose with her, " You look like a cartoon catterpillar haaha." Sana smiles and says, "Kutte apni dekh, joker lag rha hai."

She pulled back, open the selfie camera of phone and says by looking each other face on the camera, "See sidharth, we both look like cartoons. Hahha." He nodded and says, "Yes biwi, we are cartoon couples."

Just then sana saw something and says, "Sidharth see shooting star." He turned his head and look at sky. Sana hold his hand says by closing her eyes, "Wish maang jldi." He look at her and smiling and thinks, "Keep her with me always."

Sana look at him and says, "See i told you na, if you become happy then will also. Dekha proof bhi diya." He nodded and put his head on her lap by wrapping hands around her waist.

She peck his forehead and put her head above him. Sidharth close his eyes and says,

"Rehna har pal, har lamha,
Yuhi tum saath banke humdard mere,
Tere wajah se hi hai yeh saanse meri
Chalna hardam yuhi banke sahara mera,
Kyuki tere bagair namumkeen k jeena humara,"
I love you naaz.

I love you to sidharth..............

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Let's see what happens next!!!