Janvi Point of view:

Do Life really have to treat me this way! or is it just this way I deserve !

" Take Care Janvi" this voice is what echoing my head again and again

"Maa did you also heard him saying 'Janvi' ? I asked for the nth time.

" yes beta .." she said as confused as me....
"What if he recalled his memories" maa asked with a needy smile on her face...
" Then he would have not left for the tour MAA" Vikroon elder sister said as soon as she heard what Maa said..

" oh... yes right?" Maa said disappointed...

I really wish this is a dream. "okay Maa I have some work! I'll leave ..Bhabhi you should eat before going"
" Beta... wait " Maa called when I turned I saw Bhabhi holding her hand and she looked at me nodding her head as if she heard my mindvoice ehich is controlling my emotions.

I came up to my bedroom when my footsteps stopped seeing Vikroon's room... once upon a time it was 'our' room. I walked towards his room
It was just in the flow of moment that I took further steps towards it...
As I came across his room..reality struck hard on me seeing the changes his room was in.
Things change...when your life style change
It was hard still I took steps forward because that was my man's scent that had been spread and filled in that room. Love welcomes me like newly blossomed flower..

I sat I his bed and again glanced 'our' room which is 'his" room now...
My eyes captured all the changes in this room and fell on his closet..
In an urge I moved forward to open his closed when I noticed another alterations breaking my heart .
I know I shouldn't expect him to even not buy new clothes and fill up his closet but still I couldn't mange the overwhelming thought that says
'he is living his own life' doesn't it sound weird that a married woman feel something like this about her husband. life is unexpected journey... I found his favourite jerkin that he always wear during is pre-match as he consider this lucky one. secondly he doesn't share this with anyone .

I had my childish craziness peeping out as I took his jerkin and tried wearing myself. It was not my size though, I am fat. so I locked the room and tried wearing it by removing my kurtha and it perfectly fitted mine. it's truly a bliss to wear your husband's tshirt. life would have been totally different for us by now if things were normal. this wardrobe would also would have been filled with my clothes as well as our baby's clothes would also have been together with his.

thinking about babies makes me blush... reminding another conversation of ours before his tournament.

" Vikroon ji do you love kids?" I asked as we were walking around our lawn watering the plants when we were hearing the kids making noise near our home in the streets asking their parent's permission for cycling but their parents were opposing as it was a busy area during evening as some party is going in the bungalow opposite to ours.

"kids? so soon? Jaan? all you have to do now is focus on your career.. I don't want a name like "a selfish husband" who married a woman in an unexpected situation and made her bear babies when she was studying or working through her career development. he said looking at me and rolling his eyes and smirking his mouth as if kidding his ownself.

" ohhhhh.. what a pathi I have got?" I said as I hit his shoulder playfully as I walked past him when he held my right wrist and quickly moved me towards the wall pushing in the wall. he kept his hands on either side of my shoulders placing them flat in the wall behind.

He moved his fingers placing it on my cheek " To be very frank... I love you so very much.."as he catched my flying fringes and places it behind my hair... " the exact truth is that 'I. am. a. very. very. very. selfish. husband.' " he continues placing his hands on my cheek again.. I raised my eye brows for that when he placed those fingers on my eyebrows and with his thumb he traced my eyebrow line like tracing those line calming those. I felt that totally relaxing and I really loved it as I unconsciously closed my eyes and resting on his other hand which was keeping me in place..

" See I really like exploring you. I know how your body is reacting to my touches and proximity, even now you like me doing this right? I know how cute woman you are enjoying small and yet beautiful feelings... frankly that makes me fall for you more.. I really love that. I want to take it step by step and also I want to know what you like the most? what you want the most? what you need? these are the things I try focusing on. this is my one reason to push having babies."

I opened my eyes looking his eyes that looks into me.."is there any more reasons? because this doesn't make you selfish.. it makes you more decent man..." I asked more like a whisper when smiled and pinched my left cheek..

"yes BIWI.... the other reason is.." he said and came near my ear making me squeal..

" but this reason will really make me evil...so let's not talk about it!" he said moving away from my face when I help I t-shirt when I stood on my toes and pecked his lips as quick as possible leaving his eyes pop-up. " you cant leave me like that!... you are responsible to answer Mr.Vikroon Kohli...now I am not just Janvi .. I am Janvi Kohli so you need to work on respecting me too.." I said pulling his t-shirt ..

" damn my wife is taking up the role of wild cat sometimes.." he said as he smirked when his left hand moved towards my waist and his right held my left cheek..

"okay listen... 'I CANT SHARE YOU...' " he said making my eyes widen.. i know he is possessive but this...

" see... I want to show you the world... I want to explore more with you spend more time with you... having kids, will divert your attention to them. I want you all by myself for atleast some time then we an plan... " he said pulling me into him "there is also another reason that is... I want to have you in that when I feel like.. I want to take things so slowly so that we can get physically involved when that urge really needed...is this okay Mrs. Janvi Kohli' he said looking into my eyes as if imprinting those words deep within..

"you are..... you are undefined human on earth.." I said when he laughed out loud...

" adding on I really love all your confused reaction .. just seeing your eyes and reactions make my day" he said laughing when I pinched his abs..

"how can you say such thing Vikroon Ji.. I mean how come having kids means I wont give attention to you?" I asked still awestruck by his approach

" I wont lie... that's how I felt.. I am just waiting for that moment... come on Jaan let's go in the flow. just trust that " he said and closed his eyes leaning on infront making his forehead touch mine. taking a deep breath. I can find

I can sense that he is feeling doubtful or confused, maybe emotional. I hugged him making my face bury in his neck..

"I can understand .. you don't need to explain more... Yes lets take this as we go in the flow.!"

he hugged me back... "love you so very much... you are my everything..." he said

after releasing me he looked into my eyes " how much do you love me?: I asked.....

he shrugged looking at everywhere and not me...

"hmmmmm... okay let's negotiate it deeply...." he said moving forward staring at my lips...

Before his lips landed on my lips I quickly turned my face away making his lips collide on my left cheek... when he smiled seeing me.

"I said 'no' baby now but haven't said any 'no' to kisses and hugs" he smirked again...

I already have a kid right in front of me now... I thought to myself.

"but...don't kisses make me pregnant?" I asked with a dilemmatic facial expression when Vikroon smile turned into a state of confusion...

"Jaan. I mean.... I.." he shrugged and I can exactly catch his mindvoice which was exactly his voice too

" Jaan don't tell me you don't know how to have sex..? I mean.. I .. I I mean don't say you don't know how to make love?... Are you one of those 90's kids?" he asked blinking his eyes rapidly and me here trying hard not to laugh...and replied

"isn't this means making love? ohhh then I must be wrong? " I said moving away from him by removing his now as he is in the peak of confusion that he didn't protest my movement and I turned my back talking as I could help laughing seeing his eyebrows twitching and turning

"Or should I see porn to gain more knowledge about this? ohhhh No. I have my another friend in college who has better knowledge about protection and self pleasure in sex and related activities... let me ask her she might suggest some articles or objects related to it... I think that would do..." before I could even finish my words Vikroon held my left hand and turned me to make look at his face which is still confused but also occupied with anger? or irritation?'

" what the fuck are you saying?" he asked and his grip on my upper arm tightened..

"are you kidding me Janvi... you're 22 fucking years old and you say you don't know what sex means?" he asked raising his voice where I was being embarrassed as he was loud that even the kids and parents whom were there near could have heard us... I reacted quickly by keeping my right hand on his mouth trying to shut his mouth and raised my eyebrow indicating we are in His Majesty's Lawn but he pushed my hand away but this time spoke with audible tone..

" my. arm. is. paining." I said slowly and harshly when he left my hand but didn't let me even investigate my arm when he bent down and carried me in his two arms taking me inside the house...

"vik"

" don't you dare open your mouth until we are inside our home... then you will know who your husband is?"

he said speaking under his breath making me control my laughter more...

after going inside he put me down and looked at me...

" Jaan this is ridiculous and what's that thought on porn or articles... fuck leave that article what do you mean objects.. is she an wholesale dealer for sexual toys and vibrators... what the fuck?" he asked now purely clouded with anger... but I couldn't control more so I busted out laughing.. his reaction quickly changed and he was confused more now..

"Vikroon ji.. I was just kidding.. I am a Psychologist do you really think I don't know what making love is? I study about hormones and emotions how can I have no knowledge about those... I was just making fun! you liked my confused state and I love yours..." I said putting my tongue out and I started running around.

he was coming back to reality .."what?.... let me make you feel what confused Vikroon can do..."

he said and rushed towards me but I cant dodge my husband who is fit right.... he caught me and then we ha another mesmerising kiss for minutes...

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I just slept in that room ...In his room that day.. not thinking twice because it was my room and I am still his wife...

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a week later:

nearly a week passed I was busy in internships and case records flying home and centre. I took this time diverting myself to career but still earning for him.

I just slept there in his room a day because I feel more lonely in his room without him because all his clothes and pillows remind me his scent. so I would go to his room before bed and feel our togetherness we had before when we slept and spoke in this room.

my fingers would always try to message him, earn to reply to all his Instagram stories still I cant.. I couldn't .

It was during the midweek when Ma'am called me saying no forcing me to take a day off as I am working continuously. due to her concern and Ahana and Smiley I took a midday break and went home.

when I entered home it was normal ad silent as usual. I know Maa would be in the kitchen so I voiced myself as I walked myself in.

"Maa I came back home. Ma'am was so strict asking me to take a day break today , I couldn't say no so I just thought I would spent some time with you" I said as I moved to wash my face and hands." do you want to go to any specific place Maa or need my help I can do anything today.." I said but there was no response..

"maa.?" I called again.. when I heard the most expected voice...

"She just went out accompanying Dhi as my sister wants her need for a moment.." as soon as I heard this voice and the reflection of his face in the mirror I quickly turned to see whether he is really standing there or is it a hallucination..

"hi...." he said smiling slightly with his hands locked in his shorts and his sleeveless t-shirt showing his tatoos.

"wipe you face..." he said that's when I realise water is dripping from my face... I quickly wiped it.

" just came home today by 9am.. you left early... " he said and shrugged..

" take your time today... I don't know when Maa would be back..." he said and scratched his neck. he started to climb the stairs I didn't look that direction as I couldn't say anything.

"JANVI" I heard that voice and word which is a good enough reason to make my eyes widen and turn in that direction." when I saw him standing still in the steps.

" my guess was right.... you have two names right... ?" he asked smiling at me.

" don't get scared ..it was you who told your name is Janvi.. you wwere not conscious that time....." he shrugged more and didn't complete it properly..." its completely fine to have two names.. people used to call me cheeku, they are my close friends and family. so its fine..." he said quickly as if he said something different.

what? did I say?

" when did I say...?" I asked when his cellphone rang..

"sorry..an important call" he said and continued climbing stairs.. answering his call when I heard one name he was uttering "Natasha"....

did I say something on the night I drank .. did he just know my name...and did it not effect him?

should I be happy he knew my name or sad it didn't affect him?

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feeling awkward is so bad.... I felt like self avoided by my ownself. I never showed myself because he would walk away and not be present in any place whenever we were at home...

I thought days passing would make us come closer.. but it just made us withdraw and distance ourselves more.

I would wait for him to be in the hall whenever I go out of the house in the morning for centre but he would just smile by not even looking at me properly or just exclude me as if I am no one by talking with Maa and Abhishek Bhaiya.

everyday I used to come home just so I can see him once a day. another one week passed on.

it was during the end of April when coming from centre I saw home with guests. I was feeling awkward to enter home as I don't want to hear any unwanted questions. I was about to leave the home to go and stay with Ahana as it was already late evening when centre was closed, when Bhavna Bhabhi saw me and pulled my wrist inside without asking or saying anything.

inside I saw Natasha and another man sitting. I found out it was her dad.. he saw us and greeted us and again sat down. where maa and Vikroon were also sitting.

" As it was taken forward by our children. I thought we could make this a proper alliance wishing them better future" he said when Maa and everyone where silent. Vikroon had his eyes fixed on his hands that was knitting on his knee.

"Bhabhi whats going on" I asked when she just held my hand hardly.

"We can understand Sir .. but Vikroon needs to get on field again.." before even Maa could finish.

" I trust my son in law more.. he will reach soon. but lets make the engagement happen soon and have the marriage next month" he said in one big blow when Vikroon raised his head and his eyes landed on me. my confused look got more confused seeing those eyes of pain which was showing something I couldn't gather. what is happening.. its just a meeting right? what's this thing about marriage? I was mentally raising questions when Vikroon is just looking at me as if he also couldn't process anything now. he didn't even knew I was here...

"Vikroon and Natasha marriage can be a better reputation for him as well as Kapoor group of industries.." he said and Natasha was blushing and looked towards the direction of Vikroon that's enough to make me feel and understand what was going through and why everyone were silent. when my eyes landed on Vikroon again he was just emotionless and stern sitting there as my eyes were filled with tears.

" you can think and we can further talk about it JI..." Natasha Father said standing when I was ataring at place as I couldn't reciprocate anything.

" I hope this gives my daughter a beautiful life and proud to have a son in law like Vikroon Kohli" was those words of that man who spoke like a rich man and father for a daughter.

"another woman.....is he is gonna get married! why is he silent? does he like getting married?'"

before I find answers to these questions I just took my bag and ran towards the stairs rushing to my room not caring whether those people are still there are not.

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sorry for a very late update guys..

why does Vikroon remain silent? does his heart change? do he wants to marry Natasha wholeheartedly?

this is not the complete story guys I will upload the same chapter again with Vikroon point of view with more twists on why he is going to marry Natasha...

until then,

Janu aka (real name?)

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