Hey guys so im back again sorry with homecoming friday and just school period i been busy but dont worrt im back don't worry!

Ponyboys pov

Here i am again. Not even a week and im back at the funeral home burying my bestfriend Friend brother. I sat there watching his family go up to his coffin. He was only 15 danmnit. He wanted to be a science teacher. I cover my face again and let out a sob not caring that it was Loud and made everyone look at me. I didn't even care that the gang is seeing me cry for the second time this week. I don't care. I lost every thing. My boyfriend. My best friend and now his little brother. I feel like my life is falling apart. I hardly ever talk anymore to anyone. I don't wanna sleep and i don't want to eat. I know the gang is worried about me and I know i shouldn't stop living just becuse i lost somebody but its all to much.
Mom,dad,Johnny,Nathan and now Jakob. It to much. I know I'm hurting my brothers and the gang. All i want to do is go home and crawl back in bed.

Johnny (yay finally Johnny's pov)

Im really starting to worry about ponyboy, he won't eat, he won't sleep all he dose is stays in bed a cries. He's broken. He lost so much in so little time. His parents, me, Nathan and Jakob. To Tell you the truth i miss him. Ponyboy was my everything and i just threw it away. I don't love caleb, I'm still in love with ponyboy.