soda's pov.

pony hasn't came out of his room since he and johnny broke up. poor kid is takeing it hard. he really did love johnny. no matter what we just couldn't get that kid to come out of his room and he's starting to worry me. he hasn't eaten for about a week and hasn't showed. if you listen at night you could hear him crying himself to sleep.

ponyboy's pov

i dident want to leave my room and see Johnny. just seeing him will just make me break down more but i beed food or I think im going to die. i get up and walk out of the room and into the kitchen and made me a PB & J and pours me a cup of milk. i hear mickey playing and smile. i get up and see soda sitting on Steve's lap and two-bit on darry lap. its weird seeing them together. there a cute couple they remind me of.. NO STOP IT PONYBOY! i yell at myself and continue to scan the room.that's when i see him siting next to dally and jake. i felt my stomach turn as i seen a curly hair greaser sitting on his lap.

"HEY,LOOK WHO CAME OUT OF HIS ROOM!" Two-bit yelled.

"pony, you alright baby you look very pale?" soda asked geting up from steves lap.

"I'm fine." i lied

"PONYBOY MICHAEL CURTIS,I HATE YOU SO BAD RIGHT NOW!" Madeline addersons said and she comes over and hugs me. me and made have been friends since well i was little.she was always like a little sister to me and the gang.

"you are the worse little brother ever!"

"sorry." i said quietly

"it's okay.. umm pony-" she stopped

"your friend nathan was drifted and he passed away taking a bullet for one of the people on his team. the funeral is tonight at 6." that when i broke down.

"HE NEVER DID USE HIS HEAD! I NEVER GOT TO SAY SORRY! THE LAST THING I SAID IS THAT I HATE HIM AND HE SHOUTED THE SAME DAMN T-THING B-BACK! DAMNIT!"

"shh, its okay." i was starting to have uneven breathing and my lungs we closeing just as jake come in from smoking bringing a big cloud of smoke with him. my knees lock under me i lose my balance and hit my head knocking me knocking me unconscious

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