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Thus, at that moment, when I went close to her, her breath became my breath.

Telling her the truth that has occupied every cell of my body since the day I met her is a complete bliss. Her black orbs, still within my vision, cast their spell perfectly. As they drew me deeper, I withdrew to catch my breath, to live, and to witness the bloom within my heart. 

I am aware of something, yet not entirely; this is my current state.

But, what a possessive brat she is ! 

It's good that she doesn't let any other girls, even her friends, get near me. 

I believe her 'head over heels' is also her truth.

But every rowdy act of hers melted away the moment I neared her. I chuckled, fetched my bottle, and at the same time I felt a pang of guilt for crossing the boundary too. That was also the reason why I left the place before I lost control due to the intensity of her gaze.

The cinema dialogue of, 'Enna kannu da!' finally makes some sense to me now.

(Such beautiful eyes !)

However, I made a mental note to avoid looking into her eyes whenever she's around or near me from now on, no matter what.

I returned to my cabin and continued preparing the question paper for the first-year internal exam. After an hour, I heard a knock on my door and turned to see Charan, Kamali, and Yuvan standing there.

I gestured for them to come in, though I was puzzled. As they entered and greeted me, I nodded in acknowledgment and asked why they were here. But they exchanged glances and murmured among themselves, causing me to narrow my eyes.

"Charan?"

I called him, and the three finally looked at me, smiling.

"Ennaachu?"

(What happened?)

I asked them.

"Sir, adhu vandhu.."

(Sir, that is..)

Kamali started but stopped. I raised my brows with a smile and asked,

"Guys, what's wrong?"

"Sir, adhu.. naanga indha month 29th, 30th, and December 1st IV poga plan panneerko"

(Sir, we have planned a IV trip on the 29th, 30th of this month, and the 1st of December.)

Yuvan said.

"Oh, that's great, guys. Poitu vaanga. Enga poringa?"

(By the way, where are you going?)

I asked them.

"Coorg, Chikmagalur and Goa sir"

Kamali replied to me:

Goa? 

Did they get permission or not?, I thought.

"Ohh. Permission'laa vaangiyaachaa?"

(Oh, did you get permission?)

"Yes sir. HOD sir kitta ketto. Okay solleetaaru"

(Yes, sir. We asked the HOD sir. He granted it)

Charan said. I smiled and nodded my head, saying,

"Good. Happy'aah poitu vaanga"

(Enjoy your trip)

"Sir aana adhula oru satta sikkal irukku sir"

(Sir, but there is a small issue with it, sir.)

Kamali said with a gesture of 'small' using her fingers. I chuckled.

"Satta sikkal aah?"

(A small issue?)

"Avala vidunga sir, satta sikkal, pant uh sikkal ntu iruppaa. Naan direct aah point ku varen sir"

(Leave her be, sir. She'll say 'small issue' and 'big issue' for anything. I'll get straight to the point, sir.)

I looked at Charan, amused by his mokka(lame) comedies.

"Neeyaa Charan idhu?"

(Is this you, Charan?)

I asked him, but before he could reply to me...

"Ivanukku idhu matum dha sir vela"

(This is the only thing he does, sir.)

Kamali said, and they began their word fight. Yuvan and I sighed, watching them.

Uff !

"Sir sorry sir. Naane soldren sir. Engalukku Manikandan sir'eh koopda pudikala, Elangovan sir kitta ketto avaru yedho kovil'ku poren nu solleetaaru, so neenga konjo.."

(Sir, sorry, sir. Leave them. I'll tell you, sir. We didn't want to call Manikandan sir, so we asked Elangovan sir, but he said he's going to some temple, so if you could...)

Yuvan said.

"Naanaa?"

(Me?)

I asked, surprised. It have only been two weeks since I joined this college. With Charan and Yuvan, I felt a friendly and brotherly bond because we had played a football match together as a team but others didn't even know about me well.

While I was thinking, they looked at each other and started pleading with me.

"Sir please sir please sir pease sir please sir"

"Hey hey guys irunga cool. Enakku varadhu pretchana illa. But innoru staff yaaraadhu varaangalaa? students'le yethana peru varinga?"

(Hey hey guys, calm down. It's not a big deal for me to come with you people. But is any other staff coming? And how many students are coming?)

I asked them, as it's not a big deal for me. I always go to some destination once a year to feel relaxed, and I thought this could be something like that

"Sir motham three days plan sir, location naan solleeten sir, Rekha mam female staff, neenga male staff, 39 students sir, Okay dhane sir?"

(Sir, it's a three-day plan in total. I've already told you the location. Rekha ma'am will be the female staff, you'll be the male staff, and there are 39 students. Is that okay, sir?)

Yuvan asked me, explaining their plan.

"39 students ku rendu staff podhumaa?"

(Are two staff members enough for 39 students?)

I asked them.

"Sir adhellaa naanga paathukuro sir. Neenga vandhaa mattum podhu sir"

(Sir, we'll take care of everything. It's enough if you just come with us, sir.)

Charan whined at me with a smile. I chuckled.

"Romba kolaiyaadhinga da. 29th dhane sonninga? naan enakku schedule epdi irukku nu paathuttu soldren"

(Don't whine too much. 29th, right? I'll check my schedule and let you know.)

"Sir 29th mattum illa. 29, 30, 1.."

(Sir it's not just, 29th. It's 29, 30 and 1st)

Kamali said to me. Charan and Yuvan sighed while I smiled.

"Adhu avarukku theriyum nee po"

(He knows that, you go)

Charan smacked Kamali on the back of her head.

"Charan!"

I gave him a glare. I didn't mind their verbal arguments, but physical fights in front of me were not acceptable. He lowered his head and apologized.

"Sorry sir"

"Seri ponga"

(Okay, leave)

"Sir, calendar'uhm ingaye dhane irukku? neenga paathu solleetinga'naa naanga matha details'uhm unga kitta solleetu poyiruvom, apro naanga anga class ku poi adi vaanga theva illa"

(Sir, is the calendar here? If you check and let us know, we'll provide the other details and then proceed. That way, we won't need to go to the class and face scoldings from our classmates.)

Yuvan said. I chuckled.

"Seri irunga paathu soldren"

(Okay, wait. I'll check and let you know.)

I checked my schedule while they talked among themselves—Kamali and Charan were arguing, and Yuvan tried to calm them down. After checking, I looked at them and cleared my throat to get their attention.

They stood straight and smiled at me innocently.

"Sorry, guys. I have an important online seminar at PIP college on the 30th. So..."

Their faces fell instantly.

"Sir please sir. Adha December second ku kooda postpone pannikalaa'le sir?"

(Sir, please. Can it be postponed to December 2nd instead, sir?)

Charan asked me, and I shook my head.

"Important seminar Charan. Postpone'laa panna mudiyaadhu"

(It's an important seminar, Charan. It can't be postponed.)

I explained to them.

"Sir kaettu paarunga sir.."

(Sir, please ask and see if it's possible...)

"Illa Kamali, I can't, neenga venaa Manikandan sir kitta kelunga. Illanaa naan Elangovan sir kitta pesi paakuren"

(No, Kamali, I can't. If you want, ask Manikandan sir. Otherwise, I'll talk to Elangovan sir and see)

I tried to help them because I felt helpless leaving them in a situation like this.

"Sir.. neenga vandhaa nallaarkum nu nenacho sir"

(Sir... we thought it would be better if you came, sir.)

Kamali said.

I smiled.

"Enna Kamali pandradhu? Enakku schedule full'aah iruke"

(What can I do, Kamali? My schedule is completely full.)

They looked at each other, then back at me.

"Seri okay sir naanga kaettu paakuro. Thank you sir"

"Thank you sir"

I nodded my head, and they left with sad faces.

I sighed.

After finishing the corrections for the second-year papers, I headed towards the lift to go to the first-year exam duty. When I entered the lift, I saw Seetha and Kamali inside. They looked scared, thinking I might make them leave the lift, but I let them stay and entered the lift.

"Sir ungala paaka dha sir vandho"

(Sir, we were here just to see you)

Kamali said it as if I would believe her words.

"Nambitten Kamali"

(I believe you, Kamali.)

I said and turned front. From the side of my vision, I saw Seetha snickering, and Kamali nudged her.

"Nejama dha sir soldren. Please sir, konjam enga request'eh reconsider pannunga"

(I'm telling you the truth, sir. Please, sir, try to reconsider our request.)

I sighed.

"Important seminar Kamali"

"Seetha'uhm varla sir. Neengalum varla. Naangalaa paavam illayaa?"

(Seetha isn't coming, sir. Neither are you. Are we not to be pitied?)

I squinted and looked at Seetha, who was trying to hide behind Kamali from my view.

"Nee yen pola?"

(Why aren't you going?)

I asked her. She stood beside Kamali and,

"Mmm.. illa summa dha"

(Mmm... no, it's, just like that)

Her voice came as a soft whisper. I frowned.

What's wrong with her? Is she worried about not going on the trip or something else is bothering her?

"Summa yen pogaama iruka? last IV dhane? poitu varlaa le?"

(Why are you staying back? Isn't this the last trip? You should try to go.)

I asked her, but before she could reply, Kamali said,

"Ava yendha IV'kume vandhadhu illa sir"

(She hasn't come to any IV trip, sir.)

Seetha nudged her and whispered for her to be quiet.

"Setha amaidhiyaa iru Kamali"

(Please stay quiet, Kamali)

But I could hear her since we were in the lift, and her voice echoed slightly.

I looked at her, and she met my gaze before lowering her head when I raised my eyebrows. So, I turned my attention to Kamali and asked,

"Ennaachu Kamali?"

(What happened, kamali?)

Seetha grasped Kamali's hand but let go when I stared at her.

"Avanga veetla avanga appa vida maatenguraaru sir"

(Her father is not letting her go for the trip with us, sir.)

I looked at her, and she fidgeted with her dupatta, twisting it around her fingers.

"Oh, why can't you talk to him?"

"Naan sonnaalum kekka maataaru sir. Namma Kinnakorai church irukku le sir?"

(Even if I talk to him, he won't listen, sir. Isn't there a Kinnakorai church, sir?)

She asked me, and I nodded with a hum.

"Adhukku pakkathula irukka library ku padikka book edukka polaa nu kettadhukke avanga appa venaa nu solleetaaru sir"

(She asked if she could borrow books from the library next to the church for studying, but her father said no to that as well, sir.)

I looked at Seetha, who immediately averted her gaze from me to Kamali. She grasped Kamali's hand and whispered to her as,

"Mch, Kamali, summa iru please"

(Please be quiet)

I narrowed my brows. Why is she whining to her like this now?

"Ennaachu ippo? Naan venaa pesattumaa?"

(What's wrong now? Shall I have a talk with him?)

I asked as I stood on the third floor, between the lift doors, stopping it from moving.

"Veliya vaanga"

(Come out)

I said, and they followed me out.

"Naan pesattumaa?"

(Shall I have a talk with him?)

I asked Seetha again. She looked at me and shook her head.

"Appa kekka maataa"

(My father won't agree)

She said, still lowering her head. I blinked and said,

"Naan try pandrane? Unakku aasa irukku le poganum'nu?"

(Let me try. You wish to go on the trip, right?)

"Irukku dha. Aanaa.."

(Yes. But..)

Okay. Then she must go on the trip, no matter what.

It's her life, and she should make her own life-decisions. At her current age of 21 or 22, she needs to develop her decision-making skills.

"Apro enna? naan vandhu pesuren.."

(Then what? I'll come and talk with him)

I said and turned to leave but stopped hearing,

"Yeppo?"

(When?)

I turned to her with a smile and said,

"Inniku evening, unga veetla"

(Today evening, in your house)

"Yeng'aathulayaa?"

(In my house?)

She asked me shockingly.

"Aama. Pinna enga vandhu kekuradhu? Unga appa've venaa inga vara sollu. Illanaa phone number kudu kekuren"

(Yes. Then where should I go to talk with him? If possible, ask your father to come here and meet me. Otherwise, give me his phone number, and I'll contact him.)

She gasped.

"Aiyooo. Vena vena vena. En appa avalo dha. Neengale paathel'la? Unga kooda konja neram ninnu kodai eduthuttu pongo nu solla ninnappave epdi avaa pakkam enna iluthukuttaar nu?"

(Oh no, no, no. I'll be in trouble with my father. Haven't you seen how he pulled me towards him that night when I was speaking with you, just to take my umbrella with yourself?)

Is that so? I don't remember. I actually forgot about it.

I sighed and asked her,

"Mch, appo enna panna soldra?"

(Then what should I do now?)

Smiling, she nodded her head before saying,

"Paravala professor. Naan manage pannipen. Aasa padradhu ellaame ellaarukkum kedachuraadhu le? I can handle it. Naan happy aah moonu naal leave pottu veetla irundhuppen. Avlodha"

(It's okay, professor. I can manage. Isn't it true that not all our wishes come true? I can handle it. I'd be happy to take a three-day leave and stay at home. That's all.)

She shrugged her shoulders, but I wasn't convinced. 

Why should she sacrifice her own happiness like that? I'm surprised to hear she hasn't gone on a trip for the past three years. How could she be like that? Won't she feel sad seeing her classmates go on the trip while she remains a mere spectator of their experiences?

Me and Kamali just stared at her in disbelief.

"Seri ippo enna pannalaa nu soldringa?"

(Alright, what should I do now?)

She asked me and Kamali after giving us a look. 

I clicked my tongue and gave in to her wish.

"Seri un ishtam. Enakku duty irukku. Use the stairs"

(Okay, then it's your wish. I have a exam duty now)

They looked at me in disbelief but headed to the stairs. I smiled and went to the hall.

My thoughts were focused on how to ensure she could go on the trip and just like that I completed my hall duty. Afterward, I returned to the staffroom to find Charan, Yuvan, and Elango. I frowned and entered my cabin, with them following behind.

I turned to face them.

"Enna da?"

(What now?)

 I asked Yuvan.

"Aayush, neeyum poitu varlaa le? pasanga aasa padraanga le?"

(Aayush, you may also go with them, right? They're eager, you know?)

Elango asked me and I sighed hard.

"Seminar irukku, Elango. Neeye venaa vandhu paaru. Indhaa.."

(There's a seminar for me, Elango. You should see for yourself. Here, look at this...)

I clicked on the calendar app on my phone and handed it to him. 

He checked it, returned it to me, and then looked at the boys.

"Yuvan, Charan. Manikandan sir te poi kelunga. Time waste pannaadhinga"

(Yuvan, Charan. Go and ask Manikandan sir. Don't waste your time.)

"Sir avarum engayo poraaraamaa sir. Ippo neenga varlanaa naanga plan'eh drop pandra maadhiri aayirum. CSE ellaarum poraanga sir. Naanga polanaa tease pannuvaanga sir"

(Sir, he's also going somewhere else on that day. If you don't come, it's like we'll have to drop the plan altogether. Everyone from CSE is going, sir. They'll tease us if we don't go.)

Charan whined at me, and I became frustrated with their continuous begging and pleading. 

It felt as though I was intentionally refusing myself to go on the trip with them. But for a god's sake, it was a situation I couldn't change.

"Charan enakku vela irukku, summa velayaadeetu irukkaadhinga"

(Charan, I have work to do, so don't keep bothering me like this anymore.)

I said to them angrily.

"Aayush enna ippo? Seminar dhane? Namma andha college principal kitta kaettu paakalaa"

(Aayush, what's wrong now? Just a seminar, right? We will ask that college's prinicipal)

Elango said.

"Enna da neeyum puriyaama peseetu irukka?"

(Why are you also talking without understanding, dude?)

Elango got silent, taking a deep breathe.

"Ennaala mudiyaadhu guys. HOD'eh venaa kooptu paarunga appo"

(I can't do anything, guys. Please go and ask the HOD if you need.)

Saying this, I sat in my chair, and Charan and Yuvan left. Elango also went to his place. 

I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair, but frowned when Seetha entered my cabin, after a minute.

I took a deep breath, as I was genuinely concerned that someone might start rumors due to her frequent visits to my cabin.

"Sir"

She called me.

"Enna?"

(What?)

I asked.

"Professor, konjo andha schedule'eh thalli vaingalen?"

(Professor, could you postpone that schedule?)

She asked.

"Adhellaa mudiyaadhu. Veliya po"

(No. I can't. Just leave)

"Veliya poradhaa? Sir, naan serious'aah peseetu irukken. Andha college ku call panni kelungalen december 2 ku seminar'eh change panna mudiyumaa nu?"

(Leave? Sir, I'm talking seriously. Please call that college and ask if it's possible to reschedule the seminar to December 2nd)

"Mudiyaadhu"

(I can't)

I replied curtly.

"Yen ipdi adamamt'ah irukkingo? Avaaa paavam. Evlo kashta padraa theriyumo?"

(Why are you being so stubborn? They are in a pitiable situation. Do you know how much they're worried?)

She asked me, I frowned.

"Yaaru?"

(Who?)

"En classmates dha"

(My classmates)

I sighed at her reply.

"Adhukku naan enna pandradhu? naan onnum venum'ne varla nu sollalaye. I have a seminar, and my schedule is full. I can't just leave my work to join you all"

(What can I do about that? I didn't refuse to come with you all on purpose. I have a seminar, and my schedule is full. I can't just leave my work to join you all)

"Yen ipdi selfish'aah nadandhukurel?"

(Why are you being so selfish?)

I felt a surge of anger at her words.

"Seetha, I'm not being selfish. You're the one behaving like that. I have a seminar, can't you understand that?"

I yelled at her. She looked at me quietly and didn't say anything in response.

So, I asked, 

"What?"

"Enakku munnaadi yethana peru vandhu kettaanga ? Ellaarkittayum ipdidha kathuninglaa? Yen enna paathaa mattum katheete irukkel?"

(How many people have come to you before with similar requests? Did you yell at them like this? Why are you yelling at me alone?)

She asked softly, and I exhaled, seeing the disbelief in her eyes.

"Seetha.."

"Naan kekka vandhadhu en thappu dha. Ennamo pannungo"

(It's wrong of me to come and speak with you. Do whatever you want.)

She turned, opened the door and left my cabin.

Fuck. 

I'm just trying hard to make her understand my situation. But why am I shouting at her like that?

Why couldn't you just explain things to her calmly like you did with others, Aayush?

I scratched my forehead and opened the window, calling out to one of the students passing by in the corridor. I asked them to bring Seetha from the final year. As they turned to leave, I frowned at the sound of the cabin door opening and bit my lower lip to keep from smiling. I told the students to leave and closed the window, turning back to see Seetha who was fidgeting with her dupatta and lowering her head.

"Inga dha irundhen. Neenga enna pandringa nu paaka"

(I was here to see what you would do.)

She said, and I raised my eyebrows in surprise.

"Did you become invisible?"

She nodded her head and I sighed.

"Yeppo use pannanumo appo use pannaadha."

(Don't use it, when it's necessary)

I said sarcastically at her.

"Adhellaa enakku theriyum. Neenga yedhukku enna kooptu vida sonninga?"

(I know that already. Now, tell me why you asked those students to bring me here?)

"Naan andha college'le pesuren nu soldradhukku"

(To tell you that I'll speak with that college.)

She grinned widely.

"But on a condition.."

She frowned and asked,

"Enna?"

(What is that?)

"Neeyum IV ku varanum"

(You should come on the trip too.)

I declared, and she began to whine at me.

"Professor. Yen ipdi pandringa? Appa vida maataa purunjukkongo"

(Professor, why are you doing like this? Understand that my father won't let me go.)

"Appo neeyum en situation'eh purunjukuttu, kelambu ingerndhu"

(Then you should also understand my situation and leave from here.)

She sulked and walked away after giving me a sharp look. She's been giving me those looks a lot lately. I shouldn't give her too much space.

I know it might seem like I'm just her puppet, but I act this way because I don't want to upset her with my comments about her strong feelings for me. That doesn't mean I have the same feelings for her—I see her as my student, and that won't change even after she graduates.

And yes, I do have a soft spot for her, similar to the way Vinitha mam has on her. I think it's natural to feel that way.

I don't want my unrealistic expectations to completely ruin me. I'm afraid of trusting someone only to be left alone and devastated. My insecurities and trust issues hold me back from becoming too attached to the person I admire, who is now my student which was unrealistic I mentioned before.

Right now, the "what ifs" occupy my mind more than anything else.

What if she leaves me just as my mother did, leaving me to face this harsh world alone?

What if she finds someone better than me to love?

What if she leaves me after her parents disapprove of her feelings for me?

And there are many more that I can't even put into words. I'm already feeling broken, and I don't think I could handle another blow to my life. It would be devastating and could be the end for me. I don't want that to happen and also don't want to make anyone feel guilty for that.

Let me take some time alone and build trust with the person before getting closer. Until then, I can't make any drastic decisions that could lead to my complete destruction.

But now, why can't I reconsider everyone's requests? I twirled my phone between my index and thumb, unlocked it, then opened my mail and WhatsApp. I sent a message to the PIP College principal that said,

"Hello, Sir. I hope everything is going well with the seminar preparations. I'm writing to ask if it would be possible to postpone our seminar scheduled for November 30th to December 2nd due to some emergencies"

Let's see what happens next.

I went to have lunch with Elango, and later that evening, while working on the NAAC project, I received a reply from the principal as,

"Okay, Mr. Aayush Kumar, we can postpone the seminar to December 3rd since we have other seminars on December 2nd. Take care."

A smile curved on my lips as I told Elango the news. He hugged me and thanked me. After that, I went to meet our department HOD to inform him that I would accompany the final year students on their tour. He thanked me as well and sent a message to the official group as,

"Students, I have some great news. Aayush sir will be joining you on the trip. Have a wonderful time and make sure to pack everything you need."

And the students who hadn't sent any messages in the official group until now started responding with messages as,

"Thank you @ Aayush sir"

"Dheivame @ Aayush 😭"

(God)

"Enga tour'eh kaapatha vandha kola dheivam ley @ Aayush 🙏😂"

(A savior who has come to protect our tour.)

I chuckled at the messages and, after finishing the NAAC work, we headed home. While preparing pasta for myself, my phone rang loudly. I answered the call and kept it between my ear and shoulder as I continued chopping onions.

"Hello"

"Thanks"

I heard a soft whisper at the next moment, that made me pause my chopping for a moment, then resumed it, saying,

"Don't take me wrong"

"Haan?"

"Ellaarum vandhu kettute irundhaanga. Konjam frustrate aayiruchu. Adhaa unkitta katheeten"

(Everyone was been coming and asking. It was a bit frustrating. That's why I yelled at you.)

"It's okay"

She said, and I just hummed in response, not knowing what to say.

"Mmm"

After a few minutes of silence,

"Bye"

She said. 

"Bye"

I replied, and after a moment, she itself ended the call. I placed my phone on the counter and resumed my cooking with a smile on my lips.

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