(a//n) basically^^ me rn if we're being completely honest 😂

"Mikeyyyyyyyyyyyy! I want foodddd!" Luke was sitting on the couch winning like the 3 year old he is.

"Then get it yourself. I don't see anything broken." Michael yelled from the kitchen.

"Calum carry me!"

"No. You can get up yourself."

"If Ash was here he would take me." The room fell silent. Ashton didn't respond to any of our text. He didn't come to the house. He went MIA since last night. I felt bad.

"Fine what do you want. I'll go get it." I spoke trying to break the silence.

"I want a hotdog."

"No. Fucking. Way. Hemmings. Addi if you get him a hotdog there will be no more midnight cuddles." I gasped at his response.

"You know that would hurt you more than me Clifford. Just let the boy have a hotdog." Luke gave Michael the puppy dog pout. I followed and did the same. And we finally broke Michael.

"Finnneeee. For the cuddles. That's all."

"YAYAY!" Luke started clapping and hopping up and down in the couch.

"Yeah yeah whatever." He mumbled under his breath.

I walked into the kitchen. Michael had walked in right before me and he was making himself a sandwich. "Are you ready for school next week?" It's Wednesday and we started school back up on Monday. And I honestly am not ready for this to happen.

"Not really. I don't want to have to do all the makeup work from the week before we left."

"Yeah." I walked over gesturing for him to give me a hug. And he did that. He pulled me into a soft hug. "I missed your hugs."

"I missed yours too." I didn't want to move from my position. I wanted to stay in Michaels arms forever. He was so warm, but I knew that we couldn't. It wasn't right, or fair, to anyone. So I tried to pull away, but Michael wouldn't allow it. "Don't leave me yet."

"But I need to get Luke a hotdog."

"Can't he wait? We're having a moment here Addi."

"Fine." I smushed my face into his chest. I was shorter than he was by a few inches, so his chin rested on my head. He mumbled something and kissed my forehead before continuing his sandwich making process.

Michael

I mumbled an 'I love you' to Addi but I doubt she heard it. I need to say it. We then separated and finished what we were doing.

"Mikey! I need your help!"

"What is it now Luke?"

"Don't hurt her. She's I'm a bad place right now. Don't try and do anything."

"Tell me something I don't know." I walked back into the kitchen to find Addi on the floor. "You okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine. I just needed to sit."

"You know we have chair. Or have you not lived here for the past four years?" We both laughed.

"Can you help me up?" She lifted her hand and gestured for me to help.

"Yeah." I grabbed her had and she jumped up.

"I better give Luke his hotdog." She walked away with her head down.

"Okay." I stayed in the kitchen and was left with my thoughts.

Why did I love Addi so damn much. I want to be there for her whenever she's down or needs a shoulder to lean on... And I am. But I feel like that's not enough for her. I feel like she wants more from me. I don't know what more I could give to her. She said that she wanted to be just friends. And I'm perfectly fine with that. The only problem is that I have to see her everyday... I have to see her when she's heart broken, ecstatic, or angry. I never get to see one side. I want all the sides to her, but I feel like I wouldn't beable to open up to her.

"Hey Mikey?"

"Yeah Addi?"

"Can you bring me some root beer?"

"No problem." I grabbed the root beer from the fridge and walked over to her. She was sitting next to Luke. Out of no where the doorbell rang.

"I'll get it." Addi got out of her seat and walked to the door. "Um, hey." She said awkwardly. I couldn't see who was at the door so I walked over.

"Ash!" I was about to pounce on him.

"Hey. I was in the group text and I wanted to hang out. I'm sorry man. I didn–" and I punched him in the face. Oops sorry not sorry.

"Mikey what the hell?" Everyone but Ash said in unison.

(a//n)

Okay so I haven't posted in a long time... I know that this chapter is a lot shorter than the rest and I'm really sorry. I bet y'all can all guess why I haven't posted... I have writers block.

I don't just have it for this book but alllllllll of them... One of them isn't mine but she can't write bc her dad is an ass... Who said that. But anyway I will be trying to post a lot more... I'm gonna try and write a couple chapters so that I can post them when I can't think of anything and its been awhile but yeah. Sorry again for the short chapter.

Bye babes

Kat💕