A//n how does that happen?^^

Michael

"Mikey! Did you hear me?" I did hear her. I heard her loud and clear. Why wouldn't I? I felt like I couldn't say anything. I love her. Come on Mikey say it.

"N-no," what the hell Mikey why did you just say that!? What is wrong with you! "I mean yes... B-but I don't think I can trust you." MIKEY STOP TALKING. You're gonna ruin everything. Words were spilling out of my mouth and I didn't know why. I wanted to say I love you with all my heart and I want to marry you. But the exact opposite came out. Now she's gone. I've lost her forever.

"O-oh I u-understand. I did somethings and I c-can understand why you're doing this." She got up and left. After the door closed I heard small sobs coming from the other-side. I walked out of my room to walk to hers and her door was shut. I tried turning the knob and it was locked. When I put my ear against the door I heard muffled sobs.

I softly knocked on her door, "Addi. Can I come in?" I heard shuffling all around the room. After a few minuets the door

"What do you want Michael?"

"I want to talk to you."

"Why? So you can hurt me again? Or so you can make me sob till I die of dehydration?"

"Addi let me expla–" the door was then shut in my face.

"Bye Mikey." She was talking through the door. I wasn't just gonna leave. I then heard a plop onto the bed and more quiet sobs.

"I'm not leaving. I'm staying. I hope you won't leave either. I just want to tell you what happened." With that being said she opened the door and let me in.

"Why?" Does she just want me to blurt it out? "Blurt it out Clifford!"

"I DIDN'T WANT YOU TO LEAVE." I yelled. It was very true. I never wanted her to leave.

"You really suck." She walked out of her room and to the bathroom.

"Talk to me Addi!" I need to know what's going on."

"What's going on? You know what's not going on? This. We aren't happening again." Tears were welling up in her eyes and they started welling up in mine also.

"W-w-what? You don't mean that Addi. Do you?" We both looked at each other and she cried. "Fine I'll just leave."

"I thought you said you would never leave?"

"It doesn't seem like you want me to be here. So does it really matter what I say?" She looked down at her floor.

"I love you Michael, but you already hurt me once."

"Is this really what you want?" She looked at me in the eyes. Hers were red and swollen.

Addison

I didn't want him to leave. I wanted him to stay. To tell me that he'll never leave me, but he already hurt me once. And I think I hurt him too. He just doesn't know it. When Ashton kissed me I felt, what's the word, captured. I felt like he and Michael have been battling over me and he had just stolen me from the tower.

"No it's not what I want. But it's what I need. I need some space." I didn't want to get Michael's hopes up. If he didn't have a chance against Ashton don't make him assume. And if Ashton didn't have a chance against Michael don't lead him on. I don't know what I feel for Ashton. This is going to become a big big mess.

"Addi. You complete me(ss). I don't know what I could do with out you, but if this is what you want then I guess I'll have to deal with it." He left the room shut the door. I went in my room to find my old friend from 9th grade. The trusty razor that I kept under my sink. I laid it on the counter and just stared at it for a minute.

Flashback (yay!!)

"Oh look it's the fat one!" Now I was used to this. I've always been bullied my whole life. I was put down. Stomped on. Everyone made fun of me. Except Michael.

"Hey do you wanna go home? You don't need this right now. With everything that's going on."

"Mikey I'm fine. If they want to make fun of me let them make fun. I already have to go to therapy this afternoon, which
your parents shouldn't be sending me to. I'm completely fine."

"No you're not Addi. I see it in your eyes. You're not okay. I walk into your room and you're crying. Let's just go home." Mikey was trying to push me to go home. He didn't want me to be upset.

"Mikey can we just stay till lunch? Then we'll leave?""

"You sure?" I wasn't sure. I wanted to go home and reopen the cuts I had made earlier this week. I haven't told Mikey yet. I will. I just don't know how. Do I just tell him?

"Earth to Addi?" He waves his huge hands in front of my face.

"Yeah I'm fine. Let's go to class." Michael walks me to my class, which is in the totally opposite direction if his class.

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It's lunch time now. We've had 3 periods and we have 4 more. I see Michael and immediately walk over. He's sitting with people I've never met.

"Mikey can we go now?" All the guys look at me. Mikey turns around.

"Yeah. Whenever you're ready we'll leave. By the way this is Luke, Ashton, and Calum." He points to each boy as he says their names.

"Hi nice to meet you. I'm gonna steal Mikey from y'all for the day but we'll be back tomorrow." I then pull Mikey up and we walk out the doors.

"What the hell Addi. We couldn't stay for 2 seconds for you to officially meet them?"

"No because I need to tell you something when we get home." I look down at the ground. Mikey's face turns from a scold into a concerned look. "Mikey don't say anything till we get home."

(a//n)

Sorry it took me so long to update. This was a really hard chapter for me to write. On top of that there's so much school work and crap like that.

My question is why are there so many essays in my school. Okay. Have a good night y'all.

By babes

Kat💕