"Mikey! Wait!" I yelled again running after him. He jumped into a strange car and they drove away.

"What the hell just happened?" Luke mumbled under his breath.

"I don't know. I want to find him, but how am I supposed to find him if he doesn't want to be found." I looked at Luke with puppy dog eyes cueing him to help me.

"What do you expect me to do? I'm caught up in this mess too ya know?" He said picking up his phone and typing in someones phone number.

"Who are you calling?" I peered over his shoulder, looking at his phone.

"Ashton. I thought that's the first place he would go." He said putting his phone to his ear hearing the ringing I grabbed it and hung up. I then typed Calum's number.

"No! Michael knows that i was with him last night. Remember you told him." I looked at Luke and gave him the look of death,"I think he came here thinking I was at Ashton's." The phone started ringing and Calum answered right away, like always.

"Hey Luke! What's-" I cut him off.

"It's Addi! Is Mikey there? I need to tal-"

"Addi, I don't want to get in the middle of whats going on between you two." I sighed and hung up the phone.

"What am I supposed to do now? I don't know where he is. I don't know what I'm supposed to say to him. What should I do Luke?" I walked into his room and shut the door. I changed into actual clothes and Luke talked to me through the door.

"Addi you need to show him that you love him, and only him!"

"But what if I don't love him and only him. What if I don't know who I love anymore?"

"What do you mean? Why would you love anyone else? Who could you...." He trailed off into his own thoughts, "Is it me?" He whispered.

"WHAT THE FUCK! LUKE! NO IT'S NOT YOU, YOU DUMB ASS!" I said coming out of his room and slapping his arm.

"Then who is it then?" he yelled at me, "I need to know!" he was forcing me to tell him now.

"You swear not to tell anyone?" I asked with the straightest face I've had since I was 14 and my parents were in the hospital.

"I swear that I won't tell anyone Addi. You can trust me."

"Okay... Well... Um." I was stuttering.

"SPIT IT OUT ADD-" I cut him off.

"IT'S ASHTON!" I yelled back at him.

"What do you mean? You and him! Did something happen between you two last night? Is that why you came over by yourself?"

"Well... We might have possible... Maybe made out with him."

"You guys did WHAT?!?!?" He screamed.

"What am I supposed to do? Do you think he'll tell Mikey?"

"Who Ash? He wouldn't tell a soul. He's really good at keeping secrets." I didn't know what else to say. I grabbed my purse and my keys, and I started to walk to my car when Luke slammed the door, "You can't leave! You have to figure this out. You have to know where he is. What you're going to say. Who do you love?" We stared at each other for a minute until I moved his arm and walked out of the door.

"I don't know and that's what I'm going to find out right now." I went to my car started it and One Direction was blaring through the speakers. I shut it off right away. I didn't want any reminders of Mikey. I went my house.

"Mikey?" There were sobs coming from his room. What is wrong with you Addi? I knocked on his bedroom door, "Mikey? Can I come in?" He didn't answer. I slowly opened his door. He was laying facedown on his bed. I walked over and sat next to him on the bed.

"Why did you do it Addi?" What is he talking about? Did ashton tell him? No don't ask him that. Ask him what he's talking about.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean why did you sleep with Luke?!" He turned to look at me. His eyes were red and puffy. He had been crying since he left.

"I-I didn't! I stayed at his house because I couldn't come over here and have your parents asking question." I stated hoping he would believe me because it was the truth. Just not the full truth.

"Are you serious?" He sat up and looked at me.

"One hundred percent serious." I looked at him and hoped he wouldn't see right threw me. I didn't sleep with Luke... But I did kiss Ashton, and now I have to live with that.

"I came back for you Addi." He paused before saying anything else and just looked at me for a full minute, "I didn't mean anything at the hospital.... I was drunk and emotional, and I don't know–" he kept babbling and I couldn't take it. I grabbed his face and kissed him. Did I really just do that? No stop. You can't. But I want to.

"Mikey?" I started breathing heavily.

"Yeah Addi?"

"Do you still love me?"

a//n

so I love all of you and don't hate me.... Why does one direction have to kill me! Their history music video came out and I cried.

LESS THAN A MONTH TILL SLFL!!!! I want to go so badly...

Sorry this is a long a//n and a shorter chapter. I've been having writers block. But anyway...

Bye babes 💕