This Chapter is dedicated to TheEnigmaticJesse my poet thank you for your help you and Robbie make a sick team...☺️😏

Robbie's POV...

I was tired from the tour and just decided to drive around, I don't know but something told me to go to the Taylors, actually Ryan my manager has been telling me to have lunch there because their food is amazing.

I saw a yellow beetle car and smiled I wonder who drives that I parked my car behind it and got in the Restaurant and I was taken by a beautiful girl with such amazing eyes, she was a waitress...

Maybe she knows who I am and it might be easier to get her numbers.

Nope, I tried all my charms it didn't work then I realized she doesn't know who I am...I didn't know if I should be flattered or insulted.

While she was still giving me food her phone rang and she went outside...I saw how the other girls are acting they must know who I am I might just get her numbers after all.

I met Jasmine who's her best friend I gave her 3 VIP tickets to my show in New York.

She got me Nia's schedule because she refused to give me her numbers luckily I hid it when she was about to come give me the bill.

Yes, I plan on stalking her tables till she gives me her numbers.

I left after a while and I couldn't get her off my mind but why...I've been having fun with girls but decided to let that go because it still didn't fill the hole Normani left when she cheated and all that nonsense she put me through.

Anyway, I got to the studio and told Luke about her but he just brushed me off saying she's probably not worth my time too...

Telling my mom about  Nia cheered me up and she told me how she's the perfect girl for me they haven't met and my mom is already planning our wedding.

After talking with my manager and making a few songs I left.

Drove to my apartment and made something to eat I still couldn't stop thinking about her fuck this is what Usher meant when he said You got it bad?

I rolled in my bed and couldn't sleep I need to talk to her, I need to kiss those lips....her small body in that uniform...the short dress...her cleavage.....

Fuck I Dont even know when I fell asleep but woke up early.

I showered had breakfast and left I had a few interviews to do then back to the studio to make some amazing sounds.

I was done with all interviews and drove to the Taylors as I was hungry and went to her table she helped me and still refused to give me her numbers damn...

I left again because I'll take my time with her...

6 months later

I still won't give up on her because there's something about her yes I loved Normani but not like this the love that's not based on sex is something magical.

I mean I haven't done anything but here I am lovesick fuck...

Came up with a song Lovesick...

" I think I'm only in love when I'm in a Nia state of mind" 🎶😅

She got me so whipped,
I'm kind of loving it tho
Ain't no living soul can take this girls place she ain't no hoe.

"Let me guess it's for Nia," Ryan said

"Really Ryan " he laughed

"Fight for her man stop being a baby"

"6 months and she still says no"

"Maybe she might change her mind soon"

I left and sat there waiting for her she's late and when she walks in I couldn't help but check her out....like really check her out...

My member reminded Me I haven't been active in a while fuck.

After a while, we spoke and I finally got the numbers I want to take her out but need advice I don't want to fuck this up?

I took her to a small picnic on the beach of course Jasmine suggested that... She was looking flawless in a bikini I just didn't know how to behave...

She has a daughter? Could she be more amazing.

When I saw her beautiful girl I knew I wanted them both in my life.

I want her to talk to me but I realized those walls will take time to fall, I made a deal with myself that I'll take it easy with her because she's just worth the wait...

I've been fetching her from work to her place, I'm banned from meeting Aro I understand her even though it hurts but I guess she has no reason to trust me I mean she knows me through music but not me personally.

I want her to know she can trust me that I do understand her and I'm here for her...Jasmine helps a lot she says we both deserve to be happy together and I agree with her honestly.

She's it for me....

I took her to the zoo it's the little things...I haven't taken her to my place I don't want her to think I want sex don't get me wrong I do want her in that way but that's not all I want from her...

I did something brave and I posted her picture on Instagram, the pic I took of her when I was with her at her place, maybe she's going to kill me but I'll deal with the consequences...

Our pictures are in the tabloids anyway everyone wants to know who Robbi Rod's new girl is and it makes her uncomfortable, she still refuses to say she's my girlfriend but she is.....

I'm finally happy with someone who loves me and I'll always fight for us...Normani sent a message asking if I've moved on and I ignored her...

I was so annoyed I thought of Normani, when we met and how it ended...

Flashback

Norman is my ex we were together for 3 years but on and off honestly I cheated on her I was still a player I didn't know what I wanted I cleaned up my shit and grew up for her that was the mistake ,I did it for her and  not for me...

I cherished her and loved her I wanted to make it up to her when she told me she's pregnant I fell more in love with her I wanted to marry her but my mother and Ava hated her and I never understood why...

Every time I invited her for dinner my mom would look pissed, she said she doesn't trust her...

I was in love...what do they say yes"Love is blind " it was truly blind every answer was in front of me but I chose to turn a blind eye.

My dad has been out of my life he made his choices chose his other family and me and Ava didn't matter but for some reason, I wanted his blessing I wanted his love I felt like I needed it because something was missing...

We had to meet one day and I waited hours for him only for him to tell me he's busy and can't come I gave up on him I went to our house and Normani's because I needed her...

Only to walk in on her fucking some.guy she said was her cousin, oh and the boy couldn't wait to tell me how he's the father of the baby, not me...

I started hitting him and didn't stop till the police came and removed me from him that moment I wanted to kill someone the anger, disappointment, betrayal I sat there at some holding cell crying...

My mom came to fetch me and for weeks I couldn't write I was uninspired I felt numb...

One day Luke came with drugs and I used them I wanted to numb the pain I drank and drank and passed out on the floor...

I could hear faint voices of Ava and my mom and they were crying...

I woke up in the hospital and apparently I was  in a coma for weeks because I overdosed....fuck I'm screwed I let my dad and a girl do this?

I couldn't blame them I chose this...

I wrote a song that moment I had words I wanted to share with the world...

A few weeks later...

I released the song. About the pain...and went to rehab Ryan is amazing he made sure no one knew where I was even my family couldn't visit...I stayed there for 6 months I started loving it there...

I would go to the beach and just think about it all....fame wasn't the problem I had issues before and it just fueled what was already there...

I needed to work on my daddy issues yes men have them too I felt like I didn't know who I was my mom did her best, she did it was me I was the problem I needed to heal...men have scars too...

I had therapy sessions they helped with the pain and anger and I forgave myself first then forgave everyone else I still didn't want them near me...

Healing wasn't easy but was possible...

Nia was like a breath of fresh air the way she taught me how to love without being mine I could never explain...

Does it make me a stalker that I took that pic when I was taking her home ?

I can't help it...