Jimin is the type of person to never get scared by simple things.

It's hard to really intimidate him to the bones, making him quiver and be cautious about his next moves. He's endured so many dangerous scenarios from his crew, got gun pointed a few times and have been beaten so severely to the point he couldn't even breathe properly for days.

But this...... This is a different type of fear he feels right now.

And it's incredibly new.

Hearing the door banging from the other side by strong fists, fierce yells and shouts storming through that was like a force pushing Jimin backwards every single time with every rising tone and angry snarl.

It's Taehyung.

But...... It doesn't sound like him.

The voice behind the door was so aggressively husky and bold, words trailing almost like in cursive writing but so strong that felt as though it was rattling the door rather than the fists.

And that's what terrified Jimin.

Taehyung is never like this. He's never showed such a hostile side to him at all besides the time he had to break up a fight.

Did Jimin perhaps cross the line a little?

All those thoughts crashed down when a familiar squeaking voice followed the loud banging, clearly trying to stop or detain Taehyung's angry tantrum.

Jeongguk?

Shit, Jimin began to even grow scared for the innocent to what he's probably witnessing with Taehyung right now. Sure, Taehyung would never hurt him, but at this point who the fuck knows for sure by how he's behaving?

If he even hurts Jeongguk-

Nothing could've been done anymore the second the door abruptly bursts open. For a good second Jimin actually believed Taehyung had the strength to break it down, but in reality he tweaked the door knob with a paper clip, but obviously Jimin wasn't focused on that.

He was far more into scrambling back against the wall in utter fear the second he sees Taehyung storming into the room while slamming the door shut behind him, murderous dark eyes in his glare with a fist up. However he can't really get far because Jeongguk is physically holding him back, pleading Taehyung to stop behaving this way.

It's almost as though the Taehyung they knew was gone.

He's so pissed.

But why?

Why now?

It doesn't make any sense-

"YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!" Taehyung shouts angrily, trying to reach Jimin but Jeongguk holds onto his fist back when he raised it, "I TRIED TO FUCKING HELP YOU AND THIS IS HOW YOU FUCKING REPAY ME?! GHOST YOURSELF FOR TWO WEEKS!"

Jimin flinches to his tone and presses himself more against the wall, trying to control his trembling hands but it wouldn't stop. His throat is in knots, not allowing him to utter a word back no matter how badly he wanted to.

Meanwhile Jeongguk is wheezing hard. His chest feels as though it's being punched so brutally that even the voices in his head is growing louder, not seeing anything clear anymore beside his tears

Memories....

So many memories.

Shouting...... So much shouting.

Make it stop, make it stop.

"YOU COULD'VE JUST DENIED THE FUCKING MONEY! I COULD CARE LESS!" Taehyung's yell is quivering now, his own eyes burning hard, "BUT YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO LEAVE ME AND JEONGGUK! DID WE NOT MEAN SHIT TO YOU?!"

When Taehyung once again shoved Jeongguk with his arm off him, the ravenette couldn't hold on by how light headed he felt. Not being strong or quick enough when Taehyung suddenly grabs Jimin by the shoulders and bangs him back hard against the wall.

Jimin stares up at Taehyung with such a fragile stare to the pain on his arms by the other's grip, watching as the tears streams down Taehyung's cheek like a shooting star in the night sky.

So much burning rage and......

Pain.

A lot of..... Pain.

"You stupid idiot!" Taehyung cries in a form of a brutal shout, biting down his lips to stop it from quivering, "We don't care about the money! Just don't fucking avoid us like that again! Because....... We ain't shit without you tiny! I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE.... SO STOP PUSHING US AWAY!"

There's a mass spiral of emotions lacing in Taehyung's voice; different pitches, different tones, all in a twist of hysteria as he looks at his soulmate in the eye.

Pleading to show his true emotions past his rage.

Yet beneath those chaotic emotions, Jimin sees him.

He sees Taehyung; vulnerable and weak as he pleads to not break their friendship.

To forgive them.

To not let him go.

It's all there in screaming voices that had Jimin feeling as though his body is giving away to the mass struck of sensitivity, the same way Taehyung's face suddenly coils as he weeps almost childishly while still holding onto Jimin.

To which only grew more heavily when arms were suddenly being wrapped around his waist from behind, holding him steady right when he began to sway. Jeongguk hugs him tightly in place as he fights his own tears, fighting through his own demonic memory of his past trauma away to comfort his sobbing friend.

Holding onto his anchor to keep him in the present.

While reaching for his compass to the direction he wants to go to.

Jimin moves his eyes to Jeongguk's trembling hand reaching out to him, gulping the thick knot on his throat and moves his burning eyes to Jeongguk's weak gaze from Taehyung's shoulder.

And slowly Jimin meets him half way, interlacing their fingers together while wrapping his other arm around Taehyung's neck and pulling him to his embrace.

Clasping their broken pieces of loneliness to fit together again.

Taehyung is sobbing. He's sobbing so hard as he clutches onto Jimin's body, relying on the softer touch of Jeongguk's fingers through his hair to ease his frantic state. Jimin doesn't dare let go of either of them, only closes his eyes as he lets his guard down.

Knowing it's safe to do so with them.

There's no telling how long they've been like this for. How long they've been holding each other as the fragile elements of their hearts slowly molds back together into their place, but they weren't complaining.

At one point though they did find themselves on the floor, leaning back against the wall with hands still interlaced together.

Almost as though it would break the chain of their connection if they let go.

And they still have so much to let out on each other in order to understand. As for now it's silent, nothing but the empty sounds of their soft breathing and the tender strokes of their thumbs against their knuckles.

They just need a moment for everything to slowly calm down. For their lives to adjust in their mindset of what's going on or what they're going to do.

How a month ago everything was so different and now everything is so fucked.

Really bad.

And it's so hard holding it in.

It's so overwhelming.

So Jimin blinks tiredly with hooded eyes, leaning his head back against the wall, "I'm sorry if I've been avoiding you. I just don't want the money-"

"Fuck the damn money," Taehyung huffs slowly under his breath, distant swollen eyes staring at the wooden floor coldly with a deep frown on his lips and knuckle digging his temple, "We just want you to be okay tiny, that's it."

Jimin keeps his lips sealed, his grip tightening to both of their hands to which they grip back tightly. Jeongguk on the other hand is trying to ease the tension on his throat, the built up from early still an effect there so he needs to try to speak so it won't be so damaging later on.

And what better way to do it than to.... Be honest.

"I broke up with Ten and Woosung," He quietly admits, feeling Jimin and Taehyung's eyes snap towards him, "I did it in a way so coldly to make sure they would hate me, so they wouldn't reach back out to me. It worked, but I destroyed our connection in the process, even with Woosung and Ten."

There's a weak tone in his voice as he spoke, still remembering those horrid moments of being in that dark room for the past two weeks, reading nothing but the Bible over and over again while his parents monitored his readings.

Reciting over and over again how loving another man is not okay.

Is not traditional to the beliefs.

It's a sin.

It was horrible, but Jeongguk had it easier because he was obedient. Meanwhile Yeosang was relentless, expressing his love for his partner so openly but to only end up with no food or water for days. They made them watch various graphic videos, have special services with the pastor of their church, spend many days and nights just...... feeling so mentally drained.

At one point, Jeongguk even began to believe their treatment was working. He began to feel uncomfortable and guilty feeling anything for the same sex, but then he felt so empty.

So damn empty.

That just begins to show that one doesn't have to be violent in order to completely destroying someone from the inside, they could just repeat the same process until you start to believe it.

At this point Jeongguk doesn't even know..... What he's suppose to feel. When he confronted Ten and Woosung about the break up, he didn't feel anything at all.

Even now..... He doesn't sense any guilt because he believes what he did was right.

It is sin.

But holding onto Jimin's hand right now, feeling it comfortingly easing some soothing sensation in his heart, he began to feel confused again.

If not, worse than before.

"Why did you do it?" Taehyung asks quietly, his voice much more softer than the previous statement he made, but his gaze is still dazed to the ground.

For some reason Jeongguk's lips quivered. That knot on his throat tightened so painfully that it hurt to even let out a breath, or even move. It's the type of pain you try to hold back with a smile because you don't want to cry.

So that's what he did, he smiled and let out a wheezing breath, "I don't know," His voice cracked at the end through his weak smile, "I-I don't know anything about myself these days. It's just..... I feel this emptiness? In my chest.... And it doesn't go away."

The weak waver in his tone is so heartbreaking that even had Taehyung moving to sit in front of the two boys, not hesitating from grabbing Jeongguk's hand and interlacing their fingers together as well.

His eyes is steady as he looks at Jeongguk, meanwhile Jimin frowns to how fragile his body shakes. It's almost as though he's nudging against a wall, afraid it'll fight back if he hits too hard.

Scared..... He sounds scared.

"I listen to my parents a lot, you know?" Jeongguk sniffles, his lips still twitching a weak smile to not frown, "When I lost my voice, they supported me so much. Of course I would listen to them right?" He's rambling now and it's growing more and more hysterical that even his chest is moving too quickly, "B-But can they be right about this? I can't be happy being with a guy? Ha, so many lessons engraved in my head. I feel like I'm going insane."

Suddenly Taehyung lets go of Jimin's hand and grabs either side of Jeongguk's jaw, forcing his gaze towards him despite the how badly Jeongguk seems to have a struggling impulse to the intimate contact.

Taehyung refused to let him go.

"Listen to me bunny," Taehyung whispers calmly, looking between Jeongfuk's teary eyes with his stern gaze, "I've been called insane my whole life. Many times has people judged me for my decisions, taken things the wrong way for what I've done. Saying things that made me believe I was actually crazy..... But being with Minho was something that held me grounded. You know why? Because what we have is love, and something so pure like that can never be so evil. Remember this, I am a believer too and I have a boyfriend."

Silently Jimin watches this interaction, knowing that if there's anyone that can help Jeongguk in this spiritual level it's Taehyung; Who shared the similar struggles while growing up and having to overcome it.

Now showing what he learned to his friend.

It seemed to have worked because Jeongguk slowly began to calm down, staring intently to Taehyung's eyes as though he had the answers to all of his questions. Meanwhile Taehyung is fighting a battle in his head, weighing out so many possibilities and doubts.

However while rubbing Jeongguk's skin with his fingertips, he felt himself slowly become more and more grounded.

His anchor.

Jeongguk is also his anchor.

"My mother was always strict with me too, since my father isn't around," Taehyung says more clear, soft yet stable, "I always thought that if I listen to her, I will be the perfect son she wanted. In reality, she didn't want the perfect son. She was just trying to protect me from those who wants to hurt me outside after she's seen how much I've suffered. But sometimes parents can be wrong, and that's when us kids teach them. If your parents aren't okay with you loving a man, teach them what you learned on love. I can guarantee you, they will one day come to understand. Not now but soon enough, that is if they're true believers and have faith that love has no boundaries, but you don't have to suffer because of their decisions."

Just like that, all of Jeongguk's weight vanished from his heart. The barrier that was holding on for the past two weeks shatters. The emptiness now being a feeling of overwhelming rush of emotions gathering at the same time. It nearly felt so suffocating but relieving.

So relieving.

The hand still interlaced with his tightens and Jimin leans his head on Jeongguk's shoulder, "Don't rush it. Learn to make choices and feel emotions that is right for you in your heart, and never let anyone else manipulate it because you can lose it forever. Don't worry, we got your back. Always, precious lovely."

And now Jeongguk is at peace.

His whole body relaxes, feeling the weight lifted completely as the path ahead feels more clearer and less fogged. He's probably going to have to think this through for a while, but being with these two people felt like all the answers he needed to hear is displayed before his eyes.

Now he has a direction and an anchor, from there he will have to figure out himself the doubts that will soon clear away within time.

So Jeongguk gives Taehyung a small smile, to which Taehyung returns it but a bit more hesitant.

That battle behind his eyes is still there. It's almost as if he was being tied up, trying to speak but was restrained to do so.

It was something both Jimin and Jeongguk noticed, so they interlaced their hands together once again to keep the connection strong, even if it was metaphorically speaking.

On a literal sense, for emotional support.

And that must've been what Taehyung needed because his eyes calmed. His body relaxed as he slow breaths and nervously looks between the two boys.

He gulps, "There's a reason why people called me crazy often, and it's the reason why I have been behaving so inconsistently from time to time," Taehyung takes a deep breath and let's his hand grip tighter, "I...... I- Have people living inside me! Boop! Big family yeah! But they're so mean, never let Tae speak, hm."

Taehyung's whole composure changed drastically before Jimin and Jeongguk's eyes. From once serious to now smiling brightly, curious innocent eyes looking around the room with now a giddily squeak bubbling out of his lips.

What...... Just happened.....

By this sudden struck of a switch, it didn't process both boys head instantly what was being said by the other boy. However when Taehyung focuses his eyes back to them, pouting with furrowed eyebrows, it struck to them by full force.

People living inside him?

Big family?

What.....?

"Uh oh, Karma is mad," Taehyung giggles under his breath, smiling brightly, "They won't reach me! Communication no good, so we can talk forever!"

What...... Is going on?

Jimin is trying so hard to sink this in, but it doesn't go in fast enough. Everything is so confusing yet so surprising why Taehyung is like this.

He couldn't even find words.

Yet Jeongguk managed to find something to say through his messy thoughts, "Taehyung..... You okay?"

Taehyung face scrunches up in confusion but then gasps, and then bursts into giggles, "Hi, I'm Tata! Heheh! Tae is okay, so are the rest," But then he pauses, eyebrows furrowed with eyes now hooded, "Dissociating, I protect Taehyung so he can speak-"

His voice trails off, eyes now staring off to the ground. It's almost as though he was losing his train of thought or distracted by something as he remains silent, but then he furrows his eyebrows and blinks before looking at the two boys in a more calmer manner.

Jeongguk is shitting his pants so badly right now.

He's never seen someone....... Change so subtly in a matter of seconds or minutes.

Even Taehyung's eyes are so different now, softer and calmer but hesitant.

It's like after you drink caffeine and the effects is slowly weighing down.

But that's not Taehyung's case, obviously.

"I guess it's time to be honest," Taehyung says quietly, gulping nervously but still avoiding their eyes, "I have D.I.D; Dissociative Identity Disorder. I have..... Four alters living with me as well, in here," He points to his head with a shakily hand, still refusing to look up, "Um..... This is so new to me because they never let me speak out about this, but I guess Tata, the boy you met, is holding them back so...... If I start to dissociate, don't be alarmed."

Jeongguk and Jimin looks at him. They look at him with anything but judgmental stares, only serious looks as though they're trying to understand what's going on or being said.

If they start to freak out, it could alarm Taehyung and that's something they don't want him to feel while he's opening up.

Despite how awestruck they are right now.

Shit, this is something they've heard of obviously, but never met someone who had it before.

This is...... New, very new.

But it makes so much more sense.

Everything does; his attitude from time to time, different slangs or manners of speaking, everything.

They were seriously not expecting this.

Taehyung lets out a choked breath when Jeongguk rubs his knuckles, closing his eyes before opening them again to meet both of his friends stares.

And he didn't feel so scared anymore.

Not like before at least.

"For many years people thought I was insane. They would recall things that I don't remember and it's so..... Hard," Taehyung breathes out, trying so hard to be strong, "But Karma is very over protective, that's why I haven't told you guys about this before. I know the other alters are going to be mad, but this is something I have to do..... You can stop talking to me if you want-"

Jimin gets on his knees and wraps his arms around Taehyung's neck, hugging him tightly. A small gasps comes out of Taehyung's lips to the sudden warm embrace, especially to how Jeongguk holds tightly to his hand with both of his, hoping he feels every single bit of comfort and gratitude that they want to ooze out to him.

And he did.

They all did.

"Like we are going to stop talking to you," Jimin murmurs quietly and pulls away, twitching a small smile to Taehyung delicate stare, "But...... Is there someway we can know with who we're talking to?"

Taehyung really appreciates the fact they're not questioning him so much. Talking about his trauma won't exactly help his case and Karma will become more defensive, so the way they're approaching this is very considerate to making him feel comfortable.

That's why Taehyung twitches a smile, "Through text we send hearts. It has became a habit to send a different color heart when it's either of us. So because we are five in total: I am red, Karma -The protector- is black, V - The caretaker- is purple, Tigresa - The sexual alter, who was once the perpetrator- is Orange, and Tata - the little- well....... None of us know anything about him yet since he barely comes out."

Both Jimin and Jeongguk listen to this thoughtfully, keeping an open mind without questioning Taehyung so much. Meanwhile Taehyung feels the alters slowly backing down from fighting for the light. They don't feel like they are threatened, so they let their precious Taehyung continue speaking.

Ready to jump in at any moment in time just in case.

Jeongguk is now very intrigued by this new information about Taehyung, scooting forward to hear more, "Have we met or spoken to them before?"

Shyly Taehyung looks Jeongguk and slowly nods, "Yeah but they try to be me. From time to time, you'll know who's who just like Minho," He explains and nervously looks between the two, "I hope this doesn't change the way you see me."

"Of course not Taehyung," Jimin assured sternly, caressing a tender hand through his hair and down to his cheek, "Never, thank you for telling us."

The brightest of gaze settles Taehyung's gleam as he looks between the two, the weight of life lifting from his shoulders to now feel at peace.

Now they know.

Finally.

However this soft moment is shifted by the frown suddenly on Jimin's lips, who slowly goes to sitting back against the wall with hooded eyes. Taehyung and Jeongguk glances at each other and now focuses their entire attention on Jimin, who looks as though he's giving up on the remains of life itself.

They could only imagine what he's feeling right now, with them talking about what's been on their minds but his is just a mess.

He doesn't know anymore what's right or wrong.

They hate seeing him like this as much as they hate seeing it on each other.

"You know tiny," Jeongguk whispers, snapping Jimin's eyes towards him, "We didn't mean any ill intention with getting you that money.... We just wanted you to be okay. We should've spoken to your first and that's our fault, we're sorry."

Taehyung nods eagerly along to this, his pleading wide eyes to Jimin as well.

The smaller male between the two only breaks a soft smile and shakes his head, "Its okay. I'm just..... It's hard for me to accept these things," He whispers quietly and lets his gaze drop to his fingers picking on the hole of his jeans, "Now mother, my boss, due to our safety doesn't want us associating with anyone of you. She wants to prevent the risk of us doing something reckless. So if she finds out about us together right now, my check is cut."

The two boys jaws dropped, letting Jimin's words sink in to what he just said. Maybe their hearts did shatter for that single moment but all Jimin could do is frown sadly and run a frustrated hand through his hair, huffing out a breath.

"I can't...... Take this anymore," Jimin whispers out heavily, his voice weakening, "I want to escape. I want a normal life. I'm so tired feeling like I'm so hopeless and pathetic. Seeing that receipt of the money only made me feel that way even more. That's why I couldn't accept it, but I'm so lost and I just..... I can't."

Both boys now in understanding to his emotions, being their to hold his hand as comfort to their broken friend. He's hurt so badly because of this and it's just breaking their hearts because Jimin doesn't deserve this.

If he wants to be free, he should have the choice to be free.

"Then escape Jimin," Jeongguk urges quietly, feeling so much pain by seeing him like this, "Stop hurting yourself this way."

Jimin only shakes his head in pained, but Taehyung grabs his hand and places it on his chest, right where his heart is. Jimin furrows his eyebrows to the act but when he looks at Taehyung's eyes, they're not the same gaze anymore.

"Tiny, you're the most toughest little bitch that I know," His voice his thick again, lower pitched and with a string of a elegant accent, "I know you don't want to hear this, but take the money and go. Get out of here. Make a life for yourself. Me, us as a system, hate seeing you and Bun so upset. So please do what you think is best for yourself."

That crack in his voice is back, and Jimin knew they were not just talking to Taehyung anymore.

More frustrated tears pools his eyes and his lips began to wobble, "I c-can't-"

"Lovely," Jeongguk whispers, nuzzling his forehead to the side of Jimin's head comfortingly, "You're never going to live a normal life if you don't take a step forward. Now is your chance. I know you're a man with integrity and dignity, so don't miss this to take a step for your life. You can repay us if you want within time, but please...... Run away. You won't make it anywhere here if you're tied down to your pain."

Jimin is physically shaking right now, trying to stop the wobble of his lips as Taehyung knuzzles his face against his neck and places a hand on his chest, "We just want you to stop suffering like this. It's your decision but we can't stand seeing you struggle and not do anything about it. We would rather take the hits than you, so please make this easier for yourself."

How badly Jimin wants to keep rejecting this offer, he really did. But now seeing how worried Jeongguk and Taehyung are for his life, his future, he sees the clarity of their hearts and intentions. He doesn't want to take the money, but this is his only golden ticket to pursuit a life he wants.

To start new.

To live a new life away from here.

He's never going to get anywhere on his own. He's tried and tried but failed, and now with the help of his soulmates he can be able to fly with the wings they made for him.

And that only raised a worry.

"And if I do take it....... What about you two?" Jimin asks desperately, making Taehyung and Jeongguk slowly raise their heads up to look at him, "I don't..... Want to be away from you."

To this Jeongguk twitches a smile, a delicate and soft smile and fondly rubs Jimin's hair to calm down his nerves, "Well you won't see us again if you stay since your crew forbidden that. Wherever you are, we will always be right beside you. We can visit you and we can talk on the phone all the time," He assures him, rubbing his cheek now, "As long as you're happy lovely, just look for your happiness, and we will be on either side of you throughout the way."

At which point in time did this friendship begin to blossom in this way? When did they began to depend their hearts and souls to each other's hands, or feel this sense of appreciation for their presence?

They're each other's motor, direction, and anchor. Together everything feels clear, the path seems not so impossible to cross over and they didn't feel so alone.

All they need is right here, being each other's motivation and key to pursuing their own happiness.

So that's how Jimin slowly exhales a heavy breath, letting his options slowly sink in before but that hesitation of doubt is still there.

So Jeongguk grabs both of his cheeks with his fragile hands, a more reassuring smile on his lips as he looks into his eyes.

"Be free," He whispers, "Take the money and go. Far away from here where you can go pursuit your own dream. It's okay angel, it's okay."

And that's how Jimin's sensitive heart was swayed to follow the words of his friend while holding onto Taehyung's hand, knowing in his life he's never going to get an opportunity like this again.

This is his chance.

To break ties with his gang, move somewhere out of the country, get a decent job or get an apartment, perhaps get a cat.

His dream.....

To finally have some peace.

So with that decision being set, Jimin holds both of their hands and kisses their knuckles before looking at both of them, "I swear I will pay you all back every dime for this."

Taehyung only smiles fondly, going and laying himself onto Jimin with arms around his waist, almost as though he's curling himself up in a warm blanket.

"Just be happy tiny," Taehyung whispers, tugging Jeongguk's hand towards their warm embrace, "What would I do without you guys?"

"Same thing I ask myself all the time," Jeongguk chuckles quietly while snuggling to Jimin's other side, feeling safe to how Jimin is holding onto both of them in his arms.

Right here, in this quiet tender moment, where the night is young and the heart is thumping softly, something began to feel as clear as day.

Clear as the day with no clouds, the sea with no storms, a polished diamond and a day of pure sun into their souls.

This..... What they feel for each other..... Is love.

Words didn't even have to be spoken for it to be confirmed, but just by how their hands remain tangled together as they hold onto each other tighter as though they were going to fade away, they knew what they feel is more special than words combined.

Soulmates filled with love.

Where it feels warm.

Where it feels like home.

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A/N:
Ahhh these soulmates gahhhh

They're so so so cute!!!

I love it!!!!

I feel like I can relate to this on such a very deep level with my friends. We never really personally said the words 'I love you' like that, but we knew our friendship is so beautiful for it to be love.

It's so nice.....

Ah so many confessions, understanding and just....

Alright let me stop now lol

I PURPLE YOU! <333