i nicked a line from bmth can you feel my heart, just thought i should mention that for copyright reasons

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a new friend every day
a friend to snap and twist
to tug at my veins and scratch at my ribs
to pull on my eyes and curl in my stomach

a new friend to whisper with thin black lips
a new friend to paint in my eyes
so I see in the light
so I see in my mind

hiss in my ear
all these things I think
all these secrets I keep from myself
all these bitten insults
please just be quiet

scream when I disobey
crawling under my skin like the crystals I won't touch
the higher I get the lower I sink
the more you shatter your screams

desperately addicted to the blood
the high
the destruction
shining and shameful and everything I need

I won't crash with my sharp safety net
I won't fall with charcoal arms to catch me
and pull me apart instead

can you feel my heart?
I can't
can you hear my thoughts?
I can't
can you see my skin?
I can't

scream when I disobey
crawling under my skin like the crystals I won't touch
the higher I get
the lower I sink