Abir :

Terror gripped in me seeing her in the hospital bed. The pain in my chest grew as I saw the sheet getting more and more drenched into blood. God know from where this much blood were coming out. She's badly injured.. My palm slipped from the glass window leaving the red blood mark there.

For a moment I wanted to run to her and took her in my embrace. She was struggling to breathe. Doctor was giving pressure on her chest. My heart wrenched in pain. My whole body started shaking in utter fear . I wanted to kill myself for causing her this much pain. My girl just met with an accident and me being useless could not do anything.

I could not see anything when the nurse covered the screen blocking my teary vision. She's injured but I was going through the physical pain.

"Oh My God.... How did this happen? "

I heard Aadarsh bhai's voice from my behind, he kept his one hand on my trembling shoulder. After we came to hospital I informed him about this accident. Alone I won't able to handle anything at this point..

"How did the accident happen? You were there? "

Mom's fearful voice gave a shiver in my whole body. I was there but I could not do anything. The guilt in me just wanted to kill me.

"If something will happen to her, I will die.... " only thing I could manage to utter .

"Please don't lose hope, she will be fine! " bhai said trying to calm me. I so desperately wanted his words to come true. But I was not getting any positive vibes. Every passing moment was giving me anxiety. A nurse came to me holding some papers in her hand.

"Sir, Please fill the details about the patient, " she said to me, I was too weak to even move from my place. Bhai took the paper but his hands were trembling too. Saanvi took the paper, sitting over a chair she started filling it. I looked at my Mom, her both palm were above her mouth. She was staring at me with her eyes full of tears, filled with extreme fear.

"I can't live without her.... " I whispered, a lone tear dropped from my eyes. Mom wrapped her hands around me, taking me in her embrace. I stayed like a statue, nothing can assure me at this moment. Only person I need right now is her.

Please Princess! Hang on. You have to live for me! You promised me, you will never give up on your life no matter what..

One by one everyone came to hospital after knowing the situation. Nobody asked me anything about the accident understanding my situation. I stared at Sahil and my whole body froze. Some years before he was in same pain. I don't want to put myself in his situation. I am not strong like him. I will die. I can stay without her, but I can't imagine this world without her.

I love her.

I wish she could hear me, I wish I could confess her the way I wanted to. I hate me, I hate me for every single thing happening in my life. I wish I should have never involved myself in her past. Neither I would have got to know about all this, nor anything worst like this would have happened. It's all because of me.

Don't talk to me, punish me whatever you want. But just don't give up on your life. My heart beats for you. If you will stop breathing, it will stop beating. You are my home. You are my everything and I don't want to lose everything. Please Mishti.

My lips were trembling in fear. I wanted to cry, cry my heart out,but tears were not coming out of my eyes . I wanted to shout till my throat will hurt. I wanted to just run away from all this. But at the end I want you to be with me and nothing else.

"Bhai, she will be fine na? " Sam asked to me, I stared at her. Her face were blood red and swollen due to crying from last one hour. I shifted my gaze to the glass, due to the screen I am not able to see anything. I snapped my head as the door got opened..

One nurse stood outside, I ran towards her. I froze at my place seeing Mishti on a wheel bed. They were taking her to somewhere. "What... Where are you taking her? " I asked to the nurse. They didn't say anything as they were in hurry, I followed my gaze. They shifted her to the emergency theatre..

I gasped and let out a deep breath. My whole face was burning.

"Abir, I guess blood is coming out from your injury, " Sameer said to me, I looked at my white shirt. May be it was. I was not feeling any pain there, but the liquid against my skin made me realize that the bandage is not at its proper place.

"Let's go! You need to take care of it, " Sameer dragged me with him, but I jerked his hand away.

"I don't need anything, please don't force me, " I whispered lowly.

"Abir! Don't behave like a child, " bhai shouted at me, I shook my head and took a step back.. I was standing near the room to where they had taken Mishti. A young lady doctor came outside, she was in hurry but I stopped her..

"Doctor! How is she? " I asked, she stared at me helplessly.

"I don't want to give you any false hope , her condition is serious. We are trying our best, but the injury on her head is too deep. She's not responding to our treatment too, just have faith on us, " saying she left..

Her words pierced my heart into pieces.. I held a rack which was near me. The force in me made it to fall on the ground. I could not get a balance and fell on my knees. Bhai held my arm tightly. My chest tightened. I opened my mouth to get some proper air to breath. But nothing helped.

Bhai was constantly rubbing my back.

"Abir, you are losing yourself, please don't stress, she will be fine, " bhai said trying to held me. I felt a jolt of current passing in my nerve to my brain. Everything around me got blurry.. All the energy in me got drained. I tried to breath but fell miserably. After my dad's death it's the second time I was getting attacks like this..

"Doctor! "

Mom called doctor, my head fell back on bhai's shoulder. Before I closed my eyelids Mishti's face flashed on me.. And then everything became dark. I neither could see anything nor could hear.

I don't want to live in a world, where you won't be!!

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My eyelids got opened and in a second terror gripped in me. I looked at my surrounding and realized I was lying on a bed. I quickly got up and found Aaru sitting just beside me on a table. I stared at the digital clock and realized two freaking days had been passed and I had no idea about it.

"How are you? " Aaru asked in concern filled voice, her eyes flooded with tears.

"Mishti? She? How is she? " I asked removing the duvet. I was wearing a light blue t-shirt and a straight pant. It seems the outfit of the hospital.

"She's still unconscious, no improvement till now! Though doctors had treated her wounds , but she's still in emergency theatre, " she informed me, I pushed my hairs in frustation. She handed me a medicine but I refused to take it . My head felt heavy.

"I know she.... she meant.... the world to you. But... But that doesn't mean... you will do this to yourself.... You know... what mom is going through? Her two child are in hospital bed! Don't Mom mean nothing to you? Your brothers mean nothing to you? Sam and me mean nothing to you? Nobody has not even taken a morsel of food.. Look at yourself, what you have done to you? Please for God sake take this medicine otherwise I don't know what I will do! " Aaru yelled at me in one breath, in between her crying.

I stared at her blankly, swallowing the huge lump I took the medicine and gulped it. I pulled her in my embrace, pressing her face in my neck she started crying.. "I am sorry , " I muttered, rubbing her back. She tightened her grip around me. I realized how scared she must be seeing everyone like this ..

"I have kept your clothes here, please change this weird outfit and come out, " she said breaking our hug. Nodding my head I got up but held her hand immediately as I didn't get a balance on myself. My head was spinning.

"Relax! I am fine, " I murmured after receiving a death glare from my baby sister. Taking my clothes I went to washroom and sat on a small table which was there. As it's a private hospital so everything is clean, I sat there for some minutes trying to gather some courage.

After removing the clothes, wearing a towel I stood under the shower. The mixed of cold and hot water relaxed my stiffened muscles. After freshened up, I wore my usual cloth and came out of the washroom. Mom was there holding a plate full of fruits. Seeing the food I felt like pucking somewhere. How in this earth I can take something when my girl is struggling to survive .

I doubt if she want to stay alive or not. It's just breaking my heart in every second. Mom didn't scold me which I was expecting, rather she handed me the plate. "You need some energy so that you will handle her, so first take care of yourself , " she said , nodding my head silently I started eating the fruits. But I could not eat more than 25% of it.

She understood my situation and took the plate from me. I came out of the room and went towards the emergency theatre. My steps became slower seeing Aarav bhai glancing in the room through the round glass. I stood beside him and he stared at me.

"How are you now? " his tone was rigid and low, I nodded in response.

"Aadarsh informed me about all this incident! " he added.

"I don't know how will I tell all this to Mom. She and my Chacha chachi are in Delhi as my grandfather's health is severe, they have admitted him in hospital. She is already so stressed and if I will tell her about this she won't be able to bear it, "

I stayed silent, Moms are always sensitive when it comes to their children. Even though Mishti is not her own daughter, but she loved her more than anything. I saw it in her eyes, she is extra protective for her. And when she will get to know that through Aarav bhai and me, she got to know about her past, God know what she will do to us.

Bhai sat over a chair, I gazed at Mishti through the glass. Her lifeless body was laid over the bed. Doctor was checking on her. All of a sudden her chest started falling up and down, a wave of fear of losing her crashed against my chest all over again. I felt like she was about to di-

I gulped hard and just held the knob of door tightly. Sweats started forming on my both palm. The doctor injected something in her body and her breath became normal. I took a breath of relief but the fear was still there.

I stepped back when the doctor came out of the cabin.

"How is she? "

"See! Her condition is critical. We really can't say. If she won't regain her sense in next 48 hours she might slip into coma, or may be we will lose her for ever, nothing is in our hands, " saying those bitter words she left.

I could not breath for some seconds, having no option, being emotionally torn and tired I let my body fell on the near chair. There was a unpleasant pain in my throat. I was trying to breathe but the air was burning my throat. I just wanted to break all the things to ease my pain, but I held myself back. I need to be strong but this seems impossible right now..

I gazed at her brother, who had no expression on his face. I actually feel pity for him. His life was not easy at all. He had to leave his sister, his family. He choosed someone with whom he didn't stay, rather stayed in hostel. Always come here to see his sister but never talked with her, never meet her. Only he know how he controlled the urge to hug her. I know how hard it's to stay away from your sister but atleast in my case my sister is just staying in hostel. But in there case it's so messed up thing.

I wanted to say some soothing words but when I myself is falling apart what will I tell him. I shifted my gaze to his palm, which he just placed over mine.

"Don't think much! 14 years back something exactly like this had happened. She was struggling to survive. But she fought and came back. I know this time too she will fight. She is very strong and moreover this time she had reasons to live, she had found some new people whom she just can't leave like this. She knows how much he loves her , " Aarav bhai said , while saying the last line he stared at me with having a half weak smile on his lips.

His words made my heart beat rapid.  His simple words brought a positive hope in me. Yeah! She's a fighter and she will definitely come back. Nothing will happen to her. I gave him a faint smile.

After freaking 24 hours, she still didn't wake up. As there was no one near her I went inside and sat over a stool near her bed. Seeing her lying lifelessly on the bed, it broke my heart into pieces. A niddle was injected in her vein joining the saline strip. I carefully placed my shivering palm over her palm.

"Baby please wake up! Yell at me, don't talk to me, punish me, kill me, do whatever you want but please wake up, " I uttered slowly. Today there was no moon , neither in the sky nor in my life. Even though I was alive I felt like a dead body without a soul.

"I will never hurt you, I promise, " I said placing my face on her belly. The tears started drenching her thin material of clothes. The guilt of causing her so much pain is just devastating me. I cried, cried my heart out. But she was not there to console me . I just wanted a simple hug, some soothing words from her. But in response I got nothing.

The feeling of her belly moving up and down slowly was giving some reliefs. She was breathing and that was honestly more than enough for me. Placing a kiss on her belly I came back to my position and wiped my tears harshly. The doctor was staring at me standing just near her bed opposite to me. As I stared her back she shifted her gaze to the machines and wrote down something on her small notepad.

"Sir, can you please go out, I need to remove her clothes so that I will change her bandage, " she asked me politely, nodding my head I left and she closed the door from inside not before calling a nurse inside.. I had sent everyone home, only Aarav bhai and me is here. From last two hours he was in temple and now he just slept sitting on a chair.

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Mishti :)

How can a brother tell her sister that she's not his own sister. To the women she calls Mom is not her own mother. She is adopted..

I clutched the sheet below my palm, I don't want to survive. I just don't want. The pain is too much for me. My eyes were not opening, but feeling so many things around my body I realized I was in hospital bed.

Promise me no matter what situation will come, you will never think to end your life..

Maybe tonight is the darkest night of your life, but that doesn't mean sun will never rise for you. You just have to hold yourself, you just have to keep patience, you have to wait until you find a new hope, and I will always be there for you as your hope and strength.

I love you..

I love you from the bottom of my heart, please don't leave me. I can't live without you..

Each single words of Abir rang in my ear. No matter how angry I am right now, I know he must be waiting for me . I tried to breathe as my lungs started giving up. I got a feeling like I will die in next moment. The doctors voice were cracking my brain.

I wanted to live! For the man who stood by me in every freaking situation . I just can't leave him, I don't want to leave him.  I am not angry but I am hurt. In delhi, how many times I asked him whether he is hiding something from me or not, but he lied. He is a freaking lier and he will get the punishment from me, only if I will survive..

I wanted to live! For the woman, who loved me unconditionally even though I was not his own daughter.

I wanted to live! For my brother, who choosed a hell life just to protect me from the bitter truth. I have so many complain against him.

I wanted to live for my family! Who are waiting for me outside.

I inhaled deeply, never in my life I thought that simple breathing will be this much hard. My whole body was paining, my heart was aching in pain. After some seconds I slipped into darkness.

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I opened my sleepy eyes feeling soft rays of sun on my face. I looked at my surrounding, a white certain was flowing in air against the opened window. A nurse was writing something on her notepad. I was wearing a ventilator which was helping me in breathing.

So I survived..

*sighed*

Everything just flashed on my eyes, even though I didn't want to remember it. In these type of accident most of the people loss their memory but nothing happened to me. But if I would have lost my memories it would have been easier for me to survive.

"How are you feeling dear? " she asked me politely. I nodded gently. Only if I would able to speak, then I would have given a debate to her, saying exactly how am I feeling.

How will someone feel after meeting with such a horrible accident?

"You are here from last five days! We had almost lost our hopes, but thank God, you survived after the deadly accident, " she blabbered.. I turned my head little towards left and the mixture of anger and pain raised in my blood. Abir and bhai both came inside.

I shifted my gaze to the ceiling. The nurse was standing near me. I wanted to tell her that I don't want to meet anyone, I just need some space. But I had no energy in me to even speak. They both sat at my two sides, I got startled feeling their hands above my palm. I didn't look at them but fixed my gaze on the ceiling.

Again the things started coming to my mind, again I felt difficult to breathe. I stared at the nurse, she was already looking at me. I shook my head trying to inform her to send these two people out of my room.

"You want to take rest? "

She asked me and I nodded.

"We will not disturb her, we will just sit here silently, " I heard bhai's voice. I again shook my head. Abir clutched his fingers around my palm..

"Please try to understand. She has just recovered, please leave this room, " a lady doctor said coming to my bed. Tears dropped from the corner of my eyes when they didn't leave me. Abir tightened his grip around my fingers not wanting to leave me. But these two deserve this. The anger in me overcame every feeling..

"I won't! " Abir said sternly.

I tried to free my hand from his hold, bhai stood up and left. I felt a drop of tear on my palm and realized bhai was shedding tears that's why he left.

"Mr Rajvansh please cooperate with us! " the lady doctor said firmly. Abir dashed out of the room angrily. Both the nurse and doctor gave each other a weird look. I took a breath of relief. The doctor smiled at me. I did not like the way she shouted at my Man. But I was the reason so what will I say even.

She made me drink something, which was so bitter that I felt like pucking but I had to gulp it. The doctor was checking my wound, I moved my head towards the door feeling an intense gaze on me. And my eyes met with those brown hazel eyes.

I love you from the bottom of my heart, please don't leave me. I can't live without you..

His words gave me butterflies in my tummy. This moment would have special to me, but it happened in a tragic moment. He doesn't even know that I heard his confession. His eyes were conveying so many emotions but I choosed to ignore it and moved my head back. I was feeling a sharp pain in my leg, my body has become stoned, I could hardly move anything.

Due to the medicine effects my eyelids got closed and I again slipped into darkness..

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I became conscious hearing a low voice around me. I didn't opened my eyes, as I wanted Abir to complete his sentence. His thumb was brushing the back of my palm. I felt an unknown peace in me..

"I am sorry Princess, for taking so long to realize it's you. It's always been you. It will always be you only. It's never not been you. It's never been anyone but only you, " he said, my heart fluttered in some unknown emotions.

But in no second I felt a sharp pain in my heart feeling droplets of tears above my palm. Is he crying?

"Sir you are here again! Please leave this room, if she will regain her sense and find you here then again her condition will be worse, " the same lady doctor said to Abir. But this time Abir started slipping his palm from mine but I held it curling my fingers around his index finger. I don't want to hurt him so much, I can't.

My eyes were still closed.

"It's okay then! You can stay here, " she said and then I heard her footsteps . She left. I hissed in pain when Abir placed his head on the bed, his head slightly brushed against ny wound on my side waist.....

The doctor came inside, I opened my eyes harshly due to the pain.

"I am so sorry! It's just, i didn't know, "

Hearing Abir's guilty voice I closed my eyes in frustation. The doctor again yelled at him for no reason, I wanted to speak but nothing helped . I looked at him silently. He walked out of the room and a nurse did my dressings. I sighed.

What was the need to cross that road like a blind? Now go through the pain, both physical and mental pain.

Poor Abir! I felt so bad for him. The wounds are so fresh, so slight brushing over it made the blood came out of it.

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Ten days has been passed. I have started moving my legs and hands and also able to talk properly. Though my talks are only limited till doctor and nurse. I had strictly said them to not let anyone meet me. Because I don't want to.

These medicines have a strong effect on me. I am just having so many mood swings, at one time I want to talk with everyone and at another time I want to stay away from everyone. Today doctor was saying they will discharge me. It's been fifteen days to my accident and ten days to I became conscious.

I was sitting against the headrest wearing a one shoulder top and a small skirt. There is an injury on my left shoulder, right side waist, on my forehead. And a deep sharp pain in my left ankle due to which it's hard for me to walk.

One by one everyone entered in the room. My eyes were stuck on my feet. I felt anxious feeling so many gaze at me. I blinked my eyes being nervous. I literally lost all my social energy, I just wanted to run away from here and stay in a solitude.

Bhai sat near me. I gazed at him, he gave me a faint smile. I don't know where they will take me to. I don't want to meet anyone from my family members. I need time to gather myself , so that I can confront them. I can't see my Mom. Not after knowing all these truths.

But to my surprise Mom was not there not my chacha chachi or bhabi. I am sure bhai hadn't informed them about my accident. Because in these past days I didn't see anyone of them..

"Aarav if you don't have any problem then I wanted her to stay with us. Your family is not here even! After she become normal you can take her with you, " Meera aunty said to bhai. My family is not here means they must be in our village..

"I don't want to be a burden on anyone! " I muttered slowly . Just discharge me and I will go to my rent house and will stay there, I don't need anyone's help.

Seeing Abir, I realized what I just said. His features became rigid, he clenched his jaw in anger, curling his fingers he fisted his hands. Without saying anything he left the room not before hiting the door. The lady doctor cursed him under her breath..

"Mishti, don't say like that. You are my daughter, how can you be a burden on us! " Meera aunty said to me, I lowered my gaze not knowing what to say.

"She need help while bathing and changing her dress, even though I will go to her everyday to check her but still she need someone who can help her, so it will be better if she stays with her Mom or her sister or someone with whom she won't feel uncomfortable, " The doctor informed  us.

I had no other option left, so I agreed to go to Rajvansh sadan. Bhai was not happy but he had no choice too. He let out a deep breath and smiled at me. I didn't respond but moved my gaze.

It feels so strange to see everyone, I felt like a stranger. It happens when you distanced yourself from everyone.

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